"venxm" poems
I spent my whole life putting other people before me
Doing whatever it took to prove my love for the same ones to ignore me
Battled with depression more than often, losing myself thru their back stabbing
Carrying this smile on my face but not one ever really noticed I was faking
I doubted myself & questioned if I was the one who was worthless
Trying to change myself just for these people to see me as “perfect”
My biggest regret was trying to change who I was for their acceptance
They didn’t want my real love or my heart, it was always neglected
But then I made a change & placed myself before everyone else, I saw a change
People walking outta my life due to my selfishness but I’m on a new page
Got tired of reading old chapters, getting used to the way things badly ended
Making enemies outta the same ones whose vibe I befriended
I was being dragged thru hell for too long but now I’m losing people as I find my true identity
No longer letting those who don’t love me destroy & break me down mentally
I had more than 20 friends I cared for, now I can barely name 5 who stuck around
I guess when you focus more on you then them, you start to see who’s really down
I lost myself trying to please everyone & doing the most to be that perfect being
I’m more happy than I’ve ever been, Lord knows it’s the most beautiful feeling
Gaining little pieces of my life back, gathering pieces of my heart back
And I have yet to lose a friend that I would want back
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆
Jul 6, 2018
Jul 6, 2018 at 11:11 PM UTC
If Wishes Had Wings, I’d be idolized by millions
saving & impacting the lives of many scarred children
If Wishes Had Wings, the world would be free from pain
no more dark clouds surrounded by depressing rains
If Wishes Had Wings, the silent tears would be clearly heard
life would be less horrific so we’d worry less of the overwhelming storms
If Wishes Had Wings, the act of happiness shall be of reappearance
provide my mental slaves with the proper deliverance
If Wishes Had Wings, Love wouldn’t be so scary to obtain
heart break would be a stranger while the kingdom we have will still reign
If Wishes Had Wings, there would no longer be Hell on Earth
take away all the evil from life to grant us the proper rebirth
If Wishes Had Wings, heartbreaks around the world would sing
the greatest melody performed by all the broken Kings & Queens
If Wishes Had Wings, God forgive us for the lives we’ve been sinning in
trapped in a cold evil world that we’re forced but isolatedly living in
never intending to be heartless but our hearts have turned cold
frustratedly feeling the shattering of love to which a false interest beholds
possessing a tale that’s very relating but only a few understand
how being lonely & disappointed can take a toll on more than man
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 11:08 PM UTC
We drifted far apart from each other but the feelings still reside
I can say that you don’t have an effect still but why lie?
It’s not the experiences that live, just the memories that remain
& every love song that comes on has you dancing on my brain
I still display this smile because of you
I still believe in love because of you
I still feel like a King because of you
I still feel like i can fly, because of you
Waves never die, they just crash for the moment
And you’ve made me feel almighty when I fell to my lowest
Even in a dark world, the sun still shines
Even when the world stops, your heart I’ll still find
And when those waves crash to shore, you’ll then see
how much you’ll always mean to me
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆
Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 8:35 AM UTC
Ever meet that one person in life
feeling like they’re meant to complete your life
Been knowing each other for years
but every time you turn around, you’re causing each other tears
Barely speak like you used to but you’re too caught up to love another
can’t love anyone else cause you’re too in love with each other
You’d rather suffer the storm with them
than to enjoy a sunny day without em
Can’t move on from them cause you’d be miserable without em
Throughout all the fuss & fighting, the feeling of making up makes you forget
that this relationship is like a roller coaster with overwhelming twist
If you didn’t miss em so much, you’d **** em off mentally
Feeling your heart break every time you say good bye
Missing em every minute & can’t help but cry
If you could survive life without em, you’d try
no rehab needed, their drug is the perfect high
Laying in a bed built specifically for your guns & roses
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 8:44 PM UTC
I woke this morning feeling good & ready to start my day
Washed up, got dressed, then got on my knees to pray
Asked God to look after everyone I love, to keep em safe
And to make today a great beautiful day
As I proceed with my daily activities, I start getting this bad feeling
Like something was about to occur, either a tragedy or another senseless killing
But as soon as I’m enjoying myself as always, something tells me to check my phone
I open Instagram only to see the saddest news, another King knocked from the throne
Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo Onfroy has been pronounced dead, gunned down in his car
As soon as I’m healed from depression, here comes another unexpected scar
A guidance to many, hated by many, but his message recognized by a large few
And the same ones who hated were now the ones showing love, what’s new?
Trapped in this cold world, you were the light that overshadowed the darkness
This world needed a new direction of guidance & you were the one to spark it
Lost your life in a senseless way but your music & message will live eternally
Only thing is that your bright side will now shine over the madness
Still an empty place in the hearts of the family that your music was the answer to their sadness
Long live a King on a mission to save himself as well as those who’ve followed his lead
Rest in Paradise & thank you for giving those such as myself the faith to believe
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 9:40 PM UTC
The constant battle between sanity & insanity
the sudden rush of worry that comes before me
Questions of close acquaintances on what’s gotten into me
using these meds heavy, they’ve became a friend of me
But they don’t know how anxiety can mentally destroy a man
I wanted to be happy & worry free, this wasn’t part of the plan
so here I am at war with myself & the mind of the possessed
trying to figure out if the end is indeed next
cause even when I pray to be let go
I can never plan for the consequences
it’s either Freedom or a Death Sentence
no fear of any human alive except I
Anxiety brought out the best in me,
that’s why I cry
- Poetic Venxm
Sep 12, 2019
Sep 12, 2019 at 6:08 PM UTC