It’s been days, perhaps months, perhaps years.
Maybe even longer still, I’ve lost track of time.
Now it’s only about the pain, tears and fears;
The pain, tears and fears of mine.
I let the memories implore, implore me to feel what I do
Casting them a sideways glance, I try to forget them, as I try to forget you.
It’s too much to remember, too much to forget
Too much I have left to say, it all bubbling down to regret.
I never told you how much I loved you, or how much u ever meant to me
I kept drifting apart; to avoid things I knew I couldn’t see.
The stories you’d spin, fables, fairytales, fantasies
You’d pet my hair and put me off to sleep. The gently wrinkled palms and the painted nails
The pudgy fingers, so gentle, so frail.
Where are you now? Where have you gone?
I didn’t even get to say goodbye.
I didn’t get to hold your hand, for the last time.
I came home to a lifeless you, and people crying everywhere
Salty water wouldn’t leave my eye; all I could do was stare.
So, was that how it was meant to be? All gone in silence, all in vainThe clouded sky, the thunder, lightning and rain.
You left us in one fleeting moment, in situations such.
You left me crippled and torn; you left me missing your touch.
Grandma. <3
