The light that brought my soul to shine
Taming my darkness to keep in line
Deep in thought to keep my heart unwine
The world beyond my eyes to stay in line

Having to feel what has been wrong
Feeling as if love is really gone
As If its just another record of a song
Or it sweeps away like its to long

My inner heart has been torn apart
No it's been already torn from the start
Even my heart sees my broken inner heart
Tasting the flesh as if it wasn't sweet but ****

As my heart bleeds into tears
It tries to see what it can hear
With inner walls of cold fear
Bleeding harshly through it's gear

My heart has became an apocalypse

I'm cowered over the latrine
heart is breaking my ribs with its accelerated knocking
I'm so scared
your message is waiting for a partner
but it's not something of reassurance
or what I need to hear
so I wait to empty myself
before I gather the stability to mask the discomfort
there is no understanding
we're on a disconnected telephone line
someone else is interpreting these messages but neither of us are receiving
I unwine the quilt,
unsewing the tragedies I have left to change the threads on
it gets too much
I've been trying to change the yarn color for my father issues
but the needle slips and the drops of blood push it back another day
you are miniscule
the bug that pests me and ****** my skin
somehow you continue to escape the clasp of my hand
as I wait for your demise,
my quilt stays the same
a consistent tinnitus I can't rid
on another note, we both know the silence would be worse

What you see on the outside, you can’t see on the inside
You don’t see the heart in how it functions
You don’t see my inner emotions
It doesn’t mater as you only see the response
The action unseen from within
Tears on the outside of the situation
The inward responding outward action
Now within you don’t understand the reason
It was never told
But it started to unfold
Distance from a far
You can’t even wish upon a star
You think you know a person from within
But you could only look in
Keep looking but you won’t find
One can be bitter and one kind
One can be drowning down wine
Yet time will unwine
The inner surface being hard to reach
Isn’t that obvious?
What you thought is not what you see
Being Confident in and out is the true key.