When Rance drops Macy off back in town he asks Rance to come out that evening to a birthday party his band is playing." come on man. You know everyone and its Beckys party so you need to get out." when Rance arrives at the house he sees dozens of cars and lots of people he hasn't seen for awhile. Then he finds out its actually his going away party. ........NEXT MORNING....
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As for how my going away party went. It was a good one as far as I remember ; (never having had one before) anyway,everyone said it was.
There is a tendency to think that you don't matter. That your life is just that; your life, but then a wake- up call comes ringing, bringing life back into the limp sails , the floundering vessel that is you.
Rejuvenation is a very miraculous thing because it takes total exhaustion as a precursor to its acceptance. Unfortunately for those who do not receive the breath of life ,the hearty breeze ,the resuscitation- death is so often the results. This is why depression and death so often walk together; hand in hand, across the lonely ,forlorn desert of humanity, as if--somehow -- the afflicted were walking through a parallel universe , unable to interact with the entities that surrounds them. Ghosts and illusions are all they see ;for alone is alone , a choice not chosen but one forced upon --the unwilling, the unwielding-- the sacricial cannibal ; unwittingly eating themselves up until nothing is left unconsumed but the memory of someone that --they thought --they used to be.
In a way ; that was almost who I had become, before I ---almost by accident --came to my own going away party.
