The name I made for myself.

It took me years of patience and effort, and I never spared a single moment for myself alone.

I had always relied on this goal of mine, a dream worth sacrificing myself for.

And then one day, it's all gone.

I'm forced away, hearts unsynced, and although it's also been a while, my heart remains shattered.

Because I realized that I'll have to go to sleep, and dream.

Being awake and dreaming at the same time is impossible, isn't it?

Because it had always been the name I once made for myself.

We meet
I judge
You sneak
Up on my heart

Didn’t think you’d ever make me feel
Let alone make the highlight reel

Little did I know
You’d light
All the fires
Inside
That they’d burn bright
And outshine
Any others

With light
Came dark
So close
Yet so far

Our frequencies synced
Our timelines off track
You pulse through my veins
I push back

Keep quiet
Float on
Your song
Softly sings on

He keeps trying
My resistance fades
Another love grows
But yours hasn’t gone away

Whispers become shouts
Wonders of your world
Far too clear to tune out

Need for growth echos
I try my best to answer
Desire for adventure bellows
The hole becoming a cancer

6 years have come to pass
He doesn’t fuel this fire inside
Am I able to keep wearing this mask?
You’re the one I imagine by my side

To push me
And play
Dust me off when I fall
To challenge me each day
Hold me accountable
Along the way

Enter the white dove
Undeniably an omen
An unknown sign from above
Little did I know then

Fast forward 30 days
My imagination
Still radiating your way

Day on a new beach
Night of a new moon
A song from out of the blue
I hear word from you

Is this real?
My opportunity for transparency is here
You can’t heal
Unless you acknowledge you’re hurt

I tell my story
You shock me with yours
All this time
We’ve wondered of each others worlds

You send me reeling
With every word you say
I had no idea
You always felt the same way

We dance around day dreams
Of lives with one another
Love and magic the recurring themes
Chemistry & tragedy the others

All of a sudden I’m unstoppable
Spinning through ecstasy
My mania is palpable
On the verge of unraveling

My reality on the rocks
Of course you’re finally within reach
Grieving our unsynced clocks
I would have to jeopardize everything

You speak of free fall
My feet are stuck on the edge
Unsure how I’ll ever make this call
My cycle of indecision driving a wedge

You guide me through what’s necessary
Integrate my shadow
I send our story out to sea
I think I know what I need to do now

I take the step to let you go
Hoping somehow this path will lead me back to you
But there’s no way to ever know