I tried
To fix you
To repair your heart
To mend your soul
I tried
To take the place of everybody who left you
Of everybody who made you feel alone
I tried
But all that did...
Was break my own heart
Destroy my own soul
I focused all of my time on you & ignored people who cared about me
So now I'm alone
But just know...
That I tried
I promise I did
But some people don't want to be fixed
Some people don't want to be helped
& if you spend your life trying to help the unhelpable
All you do is end up broken, lost & alone
But even still,
I tried.
But now, I'm tired
The same letters.. But a new meaning
I'm TIRED of being the only one trying
I'm tired of sacrificing my own happiness for another's
I'm tired of being on the back burner
Only appreciated at your convenience
I'm tired of being second to everything else
I'm just tired...

I'm a monster
   You're a saver

I'm ugly
   You're beautiful

I'm worthless
   You have a purpose

I'm broken
   You are loved

I'm unhelpable
   You're saved

I'm unloved
   Family and friends surround you

I'd be better off dead
    There is a grand plan for you

I have a plan for you, love
A grand scheme
That only I can see

I know you feel helpless
I know it seems like an unwinable war
But I died for you
I payed for you passage into a better place

Your world is broken
Destroyed
But I shed my blood
So my Father in Heaven
Can work through you
And save your broken world

You feel like your sinking
You feel alone
You feel unloved
And forsaken

But I am here

I am with you

I love you

I'm walking along beside you
Even if it doesn't feel like it
I feel your pain
I feel your suffering
I feel everything in you

I see what you face
Inside and out
The depression
The anxiety
I see and feel it all

I understand

My death on the cross
Terrified me
I begged for another way
Even though I knew
It was the will of my Father in Heaven

I will fight with you
I will fight for you
I will protect you
I will love you
And I have saved you
From the fires of Hell

I faced them
The scorching heat
Of the external flames
So you, my beloved, don't have to

Speak to me, child
Open up
Let me in
And I will love you

I will fill you with a peace
That you've never known
I will quench your thirst
With the living water

I am the Alpha and Omega
I am the Begining and the End
I have created the world
And everything in and on it

I know you don't feel it
But you have a purpose
There's a reason you're here

The enemy is strong
But I am stronger
You've read Revelations
And you know the outcome
Of the final war

There will be a New Jerusalem
Instead of a broken world
You have been saved
Washed in the blood of the lamb

You will not be thrown
Into the pits of Hell
You will not burn
And smell sulfur
And burning skin
For all of eternity

You will be saved from judgment
For you have the stamp of God
On your forehead
And you are untouchable

You are saved from the tribulation
And have been loved
And saved

I promised to be there
Through out the walk of life
I never promised it would be easy
Because Satan is the prince of the Earth
But I am the king of the universe

The devil will attack you
And as a disciple of mine
You have a target on your back
For he wants to shut you up
And for you to shut me out

But have faith
For I am here
And though he is strong
I am stronger

So give your pain
Give me your struggles
And through me
Washed in the blood of the lamb
You are saved from the Devil

Though he sounds true
Though he twists words
And tells lie after lie
Listen for my voice
In all of the chaos
For I am there

I have
I am
And I will always be with you