my deepest feelings are mostly controlled
but sometimes they run wild

there are times when I have the same dream
of you and me, sitting together
as boyfriend and girlfriend

I sometimes thinkk of how I want us to be
I want to kiss you and say the words "I love you"
I want to compliment you, and brighten your day
when you are sad, I want to comfort you
because I can't stand to see the frown on your face

I want to do whatever I can to please you
because when you are happy, I'm hapy

it's all up to you, you know
I only hope that you will choose me

If Life Wasn't Such A Blade Through The Heartt,,
If Onlyy It'd Feltt Nothing Like A Fartt,,
Maybe Then You'd See The Artt,,
Instead Of Onlyy What's Torn Us Apart,,

I've Seen This Coming,,
Wishing I Had Nott,,
But That's Ok,,
I Wontt Dripp A Single Dropp Of Snott,,

Nor Shed Ah Tearr,,
Nott Here Nott There,,
Living This Life In Constantt Fear,,
Foreverr Craving But Hating The Veryy Words We Hear,,

Four Letters,,
One Hope,,
I'm Speaking Of Love,,
But It's A Lott Like Dope,,
I've Been High Off Of You,,
Feeling Like A Hitt Of One Or Two,,
But Instead Of Trying To Smoke,,
This Time I've Justt Said Nope,,

Unable To Fool Myself Anyy Longerr,,
Hoping Thatt Maybe Nextt Time I'll Be Ah Bitt Strongerr,,
But For Now I Noo Longerr Wish To Feed This Hungerr,,
This Fear Is One I Mayy Nott Conquerr,,

I Do Apologize,,
Justt Once More,,
Look Me In My Eye's And Tell Me,,
Those Words Were Neverr Lies,,
Even Thoughh I Mayy Despise,,
The Veryy Truth,,

Of You,,
Noo Nott One But Maybe Two,,
I'm Beginning To Feel Ah Little Blue,,
As I Flood My Mind With These Thoughts Of You,,
Constantlyy Wishing Thatt I Could Sue,,

The Angeles Of Love,,
Nott Justt Those From Above,,
For The Time We've Spentt On This Thoughtt Of Love,,
Justt One More Word,,
Ah Push Or Ah Shove,,
Once Again With The Touch Of Ah Dove,,

This Constantt Battle,,
Feeling Like The Snake With Ah Rattle,,
Wishing One Would Have Chosen To Tattle,,

It Should Have Neverr Been Ah Debate,,
When Thinking To Use Ah Word Soo Greatt,,
Because In The Process You Mayy Be Preaching Hate,,

Forming The Word,,
Even While Doing The Verb,,
You Call It ***,,
Maybe Even Love,,
But How Could You Do Soo When Knowing Nothing Aboutt Your Dove,,

In The Pastt,,
I've Spoken Greatt Words Of Confusion,,
Hereby Leading Us To This Conclusion,,
Soo Before The Veryy Contusion To The Brain,,
I've Spoken These Words To Tryy An Relieve Some Of This Upcoming Pain,,
Speakk Of The Future & Few Will Nott Thinkk Of You As Insane,,
When Truth Is,,

You've Justt Seen This Coming Once Again.......

Neverr Sayy Whatt You Dontt Mean,,
Dontt Convince Others To Believe The False Scene,,
Allow Yourself To Feel What's In Between,,
And Thinkk Again Before Hurting Me.......

iff i ever do it then that's it man it will show al peole are at equal footing etc etc etc you get it i thinkk

y u thinkk i m a pussii man i havv seen it all so i m little bit stoic n pretty capable nott a pusi though **** u gott yourr reasons man i cann seeee that MAN

y u thinkk i m a pussii man i havv seen it all so i m little bit stoic n pretty capable nott a pusi though **** u gott yourr reasons man i cann seeee that MAN

here is what i thinkk i think math is a son off a ***** a wild animal like a lion for fck sake you havv to tame that sonn off a ***** and that is where  the pleasure comes from tacking this beast that's the funn part

jesus!
    the /rigour all that hula hoop off my kinds
possibly   ,,,  full?the beaming,   ALLmy the book keeping
glitters all  ,imortals
\ repliccaas& then somelines//to upload)wishfull-thinking /lendng
discontent  / neatt/  mother  ,every quarter)
the clouds/massquadre ,(this is cat ,, though/through ,,moved,,move onbilly bobT)))are you for free
   projected .mediocre , mister faires in ferries  the  hula hoop.a-slowwcutsitthroughhjust like you
ending me uping you



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yes themms
now and then again
is knownhere _as=similar
////neccessarily a stance  man
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  INGOD in INGOD we rust  INGOD in INGOD beeming our dreams
fluttrings /foams///fcking sherlock holmes!!!!//// iff it don't stop ,,,i ill-equipped/i skipped
all that ...by a..leap year
//were/  -redone-releventt to some //// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  are=similari thinkk
cluttered//// a stance aNN eagle- angle man
three times a dribble!!!!
shunted //  everybody justt fades_____permanent fckin pepermints/forr fcksake
for once/scuffled-sufficient______________­_and brave
and the depths so pretty for sure / it wil lure all it  suffixes
will remitt   /loops/poops/soups, stoops, stoups,
and some of them  burn in hell occasaionally /permanentlyy
pridepreoccupiedmaterializedhey heyhey!
men withthe scowls //so distinct ?? but  fck them all INNgodd TILL GODcomes/around
it  lasts //the leapings!creeping, heaping, keeping, peeping, reaping, seeping, sleeping, steeping
/ // reappearingg /lendinggg / limping// rearing/handmade kind of  dreams /transpicuous
and we wonder whyy   // in this al of it
it will ........
of tea/and honey -man i know  with it  /// buzzin all the slushing//blushing  jazz like   *******
time and time againn  !al night  day
wired tried intake-uptake /cup cakes/hatted  /// orbs many many many kinds justt soo many soo many  many
  any takers in no hurry
/Orphic
left /blending/mended melting too which she says enough off all this shenanigans i want //if this is
her--  landscapes   changes to a lake!samea sloth/kindd  for fck-sake
&thunderheart
last calll
vistitude
inn all and all thatt might / iff it don't , skipped all //were/connoisseurs---
all are invitedall now invented

-redone-relearnttsome //// are --- as / is///
  knownas fullblown-milestones
cluttered////complusarily a stance a man

a-blue,, a-temple a bloom,a ,temple a rook a trek a stoop now
Buddha, a simpleton/buddah geriane 16-1-5-1, miniature lamps,,blizzards6-1-5-1,
all that can in a man/rigour all that hula hoop
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\mann
,,,little empty purposely,, masterfully done,,,in a cann
beefy ,,,and, plenty-full surelyy/ superman
the nectar bequeathsA  batman
once-more
projected .mediocre , mister faires in ferries  shimmering  dearest of stories  / wings/reminising faires
drool  an artt decoo ,,,a purple tea *** in which we drink our tea,,,mirrors,,, the very best in the pristine
the mannequins,,all the more-jesus,the-rider,, the- boxes,,
,, iff only i may all that   hula hoop.dope-slopes -keystrokes -rabbi=ed folks we traversed   alone
among the ******* faires shining.and whineing
tee -hometown alleys too,the innate shufling,  neat //pique
   from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp



tar pit / alchemy ______systemic
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learned
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once-more
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    that's brave itsan intake//// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  ?=similar=
shunted // the cats dare the rats stayed clear everybody justt fades permanent
/sad !

dont /scuffled-sufficient
so pretty _____effiecently done 1 by 1
men withthe scowls //so distinct ??
itt lasts //the leapings!
kind of  dreams /transpicuous
orbs many many many kinds
   in no hurry
/once-more
left /blending/

everybody justt fades

   *******
too which she_ admits


and here  a  motherfuggzi
   and/and all-rigour and all that
possibly a merry christmass,, dayys spent ,,,  full
you  are all that is  a \ all the pleasures off a small room
full off all the kool tools an art decoo  by now you know it
all thecrystal fairies in blue crystall *****
pretty slick,,,runs ,piping hott ,, undone  &the; buddha, the-rider,, the- boxes,,,layaway the glistering the beaming, all  the book keeping
a philistine, if i mayy impeccable, and  free
glitters all  the hourrs,a\ repliccaa just a beguiling  taste ,\
,,,little empty purposely,,

like   *******
time and time againn  !
  any takers
/Orphic
from,treetops,bellhops,  all  those-pitstops
   chit chats-flips flops flat-crapp


An ongoing black screen,
A blandest  morning,  ,
  ,abundunt  ///////////blunt & burnt
  DAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­­
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       an excuiste disposition  man .
patterns   off a renditionactedrepetition&repetitions&
repletion
shufflingsguzzling delinqunts&coefficients
grassess boldpretty yellowred blue the spectrum
and even more_prisms
all off the “  the probabilities ”,man
blackk walls white onesnow how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
oh me  the appointees, appointing _the degrees
dreaming, in
uncutt n undone
/clidosocpicc ,bymy
implict
understanding
finally
bequeathes
produces
copulate­­s
rests
indignant
relates

bit by bit
everthing
eventually all the leverging all my clever things

, climbing And/////////////ripping  , In a  room, twenty floors up, thriving,
to let me in, in a binn
dolls !incorrect mannequins insolvent
remainders


melting/rims
    & (&the-rites)&the/rebuttallgeriane
    soo free _-- b itt itt is still a bett
you  see? .  hula hoop/// off themerry go around
numbs  mi   is wett/where eevr
she is  is _she sheputts mi minus you
carryon men  cause the ferry is free finallyy
      /slips/ozzes / door to door/door to door/manyy  made    more
                                 burntt /stomped  swaps a swop/look/
                                 vacate again all




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"a cup of tea-- tells Jon
all oveer the leftovers
rearing  ,,“to which i may”,tells jill
,,,,, "a neat //pique"joon0
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//hilly billysyes please ,may be!
foams  ///////// noww/  well for once “   so pretty  ” shesays -cohorts_  welma
a  beguiling  taste/iNTRICATE
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the outcomesthe blunt ones
how will you (know)))))))))))))))))))
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3 times A big one _returns ,                 reminicent
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heyy the
tin can /ginger bread man / alchemy! _____systemic/bring me a clouser man
if  thatt don't work
then the folk lore is broke
implict now_you cann land
i will need you to bow /noww
then go// fetch me a whoreall of them
and and all thatt flickering_____you seeis sea
ineivitable............. what nott?/. why  knot?/
a full blown
show tht i will orchisterate
at a
permanent  rate
                                        intenti­onally/maybe!
the ends
learned
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cluttered/
shunted //justt// just
a massivve/ cursive! urge~! to merge/~!
withh a swelling!  Atemporal herdd
even more then ////////////////thatt
a fact of a non vanishhing/a verybrave !lure
now  booed()&&&&)through
andthrough

all that //were/  -redone-releventtsome //// are --- as / is///my polemic_wizkids
yes themms
now and then again
is knownhere _as=similar
////neccessarily a stance  man
shunted // the eagles dare _the _vultures stare/everywhereevrything everybody justt fadespermanent INGOD   INGOD  we fuss,
  INGOD in INGOD we rust  INGOD in INGOD beeming our dreams
fluttrings /foams///fcking sherlock holmes!!!!//// iff it don't stop ,,,i ill-equipped/i skipped
all that ...by a..leap year
//were/  -redone-releventt to some //// are --- as / is///
is knownhere too  are=similari thinkk
cluttered//// a stance aNN eagle- angle man
three times a dribble!!!!
shunted //  everybody justt fades_____permanent fckin pepermints/forr fcksake
for once/scuffled-sufficient______________­_and brave
and the depths so pretty for sure / it wil lure all it  suffixes
will remitt   /loops/poops/soups, stoops, stoups,
and some of them  burn in hell _occasaionally /permanentlyy
pridepreoccupiedmaterialized_hey heyhey!
men withthe scowls //so distinct ?? but  fck them all INNgodd TILL GODcomes/around
it  lasts //the leapings!creeping, heaping, keeping, peeping, reaping, seeping, sleeping, steeping
/ // reappearingg /lendinggg / limping// rearing/handmade kind of  dreams /transpicuous
and we wonder whyy   // in this al of it _
it will ........
of tea/and honey -man i know  with it  /// buzzin all the slushing//blushing  jazz like   *******
time and time againn  !al night  day
wired tried intake-uptake /cup cakes/hatted  /// orbs many many many kinds justt soo many soo many  many
  any takers in no hurry
/Orphic