Happy 3 months’ anniversary my love!
Even though it has only been 3 months- I feel like we have been together longer than that. I look forward to the days, months, and the years ahead of us (if we allow ourselves to that is). I wanted to write something beautiful or poetic but then I realized that- that’s probably something I would have liked for myself. So I decided to write this letter instead. Something straightforward from my heart. It might sound stupidly cheesy though.
These three months I think we have been through a longer and a far more difficult journey than for others. Having a long-distance relationship is really hard but I am so grateful that we still gave this a chance despite all of that. Thank you for always being so committed from day-one. The moment you started talking to me- you never gave up on me or left my side no matter how difficult I was being or how distraught things became at moments. You have always been there for me even though you never said it in words and you always showed me that- that was simply the kind of person you were. That is something I adore in you. You always help others and even though there is a side of me that wishes for you to be more picky with situations- you being the kind, gentle person you are is what makes you the man I fell in love with. Hehe, in a way it suits you the best- like a Thestral you are kind and gentle despite the how you look from the outside (I guess you have an emotionless exterior but my love I have found you to be strangely sensitive. I emphasize the word “strangely” because you have a keen eye to notice things others usually dismiss).
You told me once how you are private and how you do not open-up to others emotionally. That was a concern to me at first because it is what I wanted more than anything else. Now my wishes have not changed- I still wish for you to open-up someday but, this also made me realize that I am just like you. I do speak emotionally, and I do express my feelings- but at the same time there are so many things that I have not opened-up about or let you in on just like how there are so many things that I do not know about you. Now my wish is- for us to learn about each other and open-up to each other and be able to accept each other. There will always be new things we would find out, and I am looking forward to that journey with you. The highs and lows are always going to be there but facing them with you gives me so much courage. You were one of the reasons why I was able to pick up the courage to make these life-changing decisions. Even though that path has always been the path I wished to choose- meeting you gave me that final push I needed. I am honestly scared of how uncertain the future is and how my life is going to completely change but knowing that you exist makes all of that a little easier and bearable. So, thank you for being someone who brings me courage and happiness. I don’t know what the future would look like for me or for you or for the both of us but right now- this feels so right to me, and I want to enjoy the time I get to spend with you and I want to enjoy life with you by my side.
I will forever be grateful that I met you despite what the future holds. Yes, I am anxious and cautious. Expect me to question our future, the journey, become scared and terrified of everything but also, I want you to know that I am so happy that the person I get to share my thoughts with is you. You do not have to fix my worries because you might fix some of them and you might not have a clue with some of them. Either way- I just want you to be part of my journey and for me to be part of yours and support each other the best way we can. Maybe at the end of our journeys what would matter will be everything we have gone through and achieved together. So far, these three months have been interesting. Just like you- I also struggle with letting you know how much I love you, appreciate everything you do and all the effort and commitments you have made so far just for me. You made me feel safe with you, trust you so easily and made me feel like I can depend on your warmth no matter what. I don’t want to take any of that for granted. Thank you for doing so much for me even though you express them so little. I do struggle showing you that acknowledgment and letting you know the things that you do that makes me so happy. I want to let you know how much all of that mean to me.
Thank you for brightening my life and it’s obvious now why it feels so right to call you, my sunshine.
I want to spend the rest of my days under your sun as long as you let me.
I love you.
Forever yours,
your sunflower
