at night

i dream of your abscence

in the dark of the night

i am forced to participate in a sequence

of mad scenes

of a life in wich we are seperate

and no longer one clashing unity

on the insane stage of my mind

i see faces in the laughing audience

familiars from my past life

my mortal life

the life that i used to live

the life without you in it

i scream at them

i plead them to help me

to help me find you

to help me remember something

but they spit and grin

and i am forced to wander this brave new world

alone

but with you engraved upon my heart



somehow i find you

or something that reminds me of you

a figure that represents you

but it is distorted and ugly

it is a shadow

i present to this darkling

my undying love for you

but it is not you

so it cannot fathom the depths of my passion

my passion for you

my passion for us

so i turn away

and venture broken, and alone

into the wastelands



the imperators of my mind

the ones who rule my personal darkness

who sits on the amorphous throne

of my tormenting imagination

creates a dread barrier

seperating me from you entirely

for you are the stars

my stars...

the heavens have been chained

with a dark and terrible force

i am trapped here on this mortal soil

trapped on earth

while you await in the sky

but my love is strong

it is undefeated

i strike up at the skies

tearing a rift in the very fabric of space

i soar up towards you

like a lightning bolt from hell

while the earth crumbles and dies beneath us

i am coming
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and i awake

you are right next to me

you always were

i was searching in vain

despairing in vain

my exausted breaths

gently touching you precious nape



i love you to death

so i kiss you

i kiss your frail body

i trace my tongue everywhere

i all the divine places upon you

you tremble beneath my masterly touch

like an exquisite instrument

designed specificaly for my hands

you tremble

i swallow you whole

and your waves drown in my ocean

i devour all of you

nothing tastes sweeter to me



then all is silent

you are pleased and happy

i am infringed still

a demon inside

waiting for you to reach out to me

as i reach out to you

i will wait forever

i will come to you

if you wish it

but i need to know you truly wish it

and when i know...

I told the stars about you.
They listened to every word.
I fall asleep thinking of you,
but they tried to change my mind.
But I acted like they were wrong
seeing the word through rose colored glasses,
Ones he crafted specificaly for me.


I told the stars about you
how you occupied my mind
The way the sun glistens across your body,
the way your smile elegantly beams,
seemingly glowing with love and peace
so fierce yet as delicate as a butterflies wing.

I told the stars about you
how I loved you
how you left me broken and alone
the stars comforted me when I cried
the kept the night from being lonely
kept some light in the dark
kept my thoughts at bay

I told the stars about you
how I hurt and couldn't go on
the thoughts of self hate for things going wrong
the blames I put on myself
for how you treated me

I Told the stars about you
they listened to it all
about how much I loved you
but as I said it I realized
I don't love you at all