"somethign" poems
I think im fat on some level even thoguth i know im not
I never understand myself
I lie so much I dont know what is true
I hate hurting people but everything i do seems to have a negative affect on someone I love
I hate disapointing people
I love when people disapoint me
I think suicide is selfish
and i hate that i have tried it 4 times
I wish I could be perfect for everyone
Even if i lose myself
I wish I could let someone else live my life while i just disapear
I fall in love with to many people I lose
I push away all of my freinds so they dont push away me
When I was younger i use to hit my legs with hammers so i wouldnt have to run track so i could stay home and help my mom (Why my knees always hurt)
I dont want people to care about me
And yet all I want to do is know you care
I want my father to hurt me so bad I'm not recognizable
Then I will finally feel the hurt I have wanted to feel my whole life
I forgot how to cry
When I was younger my best freind died of cancer
I use to be able to think of somethign sad and cry on demand
I just want someone to **** me
I day dream about murdering, hooking up, and ****** almost every one I see at random moments and I cant controll it.
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 10:03 PM UTC
Hot steams curl up from the cup
the paled tea has a smile
hiding somethign mischievous
As if a flood flashed in the Nile
Giggles from the newspapers have their wink
It is to spruce up? But no more than a sink
the weather is inclement with a cover of cloud
Sun is burried inside, my mind under a shroud
Something fishy is around the corner
And serious topics on the back burner?
Just wondering where I have to go
to-day is as usual or special
I have to know
She leaned towards me
and asked to what I am up
Nothing Hunny,
It is the storm in my tea cup
Oct 10, 2010
Oct 10, 2010 at 7:50 PM UTC
what do i think of when it comes to you...your something ive always wanted and i got it...your somethign i want forever and im keeping you....your mt pumpkin at times u r too much for me to handle but i absolutely love it****u mean A LOT to me n how i show my love to you is the definition of it..
Apr 30, 2010
Apr 30, 2010 at 5:23 PM UTC
Everything reminds me of you,
From a stand of aspen trees- the ski trail where I first thought how beautiful you were,
From the light on the leaves- honey colored, like your hair in the evening sun,
From the house we passe by- it looked like yours, Midwest-y and rustic,
From the music- folky and country, like your favorite band (now in my top three),
From the blue sky- the shade of your eyes in candlelight,
From the pop music on the radio- like our prom's music, where you had no fun with me,
From everything, ********* - the air the dogs the water the STILLness of my heart up here, somethign I thought only you could ever give.
Oh what I'd GIVE to knwo you again.
me.gs
Oct 31, 2015
Oct 31, 2015 at 11:22 PM UTC