I witness the carnivalesque dance of illusion
the self conscious telling of a familiar story
a darkening tone, the synthesing
of incompatible perspectives
that cause an incandescent agony
of self-inflicted wounds
caused by the somatizing of events by others
but leads to epiphanic illuminations
the transformative energies of disintigration
where all the beauty that is inherent in the ordinary
becomes clear
everthing lights up with the glow
of the quantum expansion of great silences
and I can retrieve from the unconcious
something I know but have forgotten