Not one day becomes anew,
without her having thoughts of you...
It wouldn’t matter when or where...
...without even a trigger,
The thought would be there’.
In Fact....
For the entire time that she’s alive,
not a single night goes by
That the moon doesn’t
Shine amongst the stars in the sky
With out her asking, to her self,”WHY?”
She’ll ask of other’s for a while-
Who never make it past denial.
And they’ll call your death a big mistake
You forgot how many pills to take.
She’ll always wonder why they lied.
About the manner in which you died.
“Why ?” do they torture the other with blame
Until nobody even dares mention your name.
There isnt a day or a night for the rest of her time
that a memory of you
doesn’t come to her mind.
When everyone else woul be fast asleep ,.
She’d go to her window
Where she’d weep..
Trying to make sense of each and every word
about your death that she heard.
She obsesses on any and all thats been said.
But they race and they spin and they mess with her head.
No one can be trusted to give the answer thats real,
Every tear is a cut that will never heal.
She knew she was more helpless
With each new wound that bled
She just wanted so badly to be with you instead.
On her knees,beside her bed,
she saddly bowed her little head
and
resights the prayer the two of you said.
She clasps her hands and close her eyes real tight
and pray that she could be with you tonight
and you’d hold her ,you’d tell her it ‘ll all be alright .
On her broken spirit you’d shed some light
So that a glimps of hope might be in her sights
She’d stay up all night in a pitch black room
with the shadows that she sees in the light of the moon
thinkin its that times she gets to spend with you
If ever a wish she has happens to come true,
she believes with all her heart .that its because of you.
The Sad Fact is that through out All her years,..
She won’t get that your the cause of her fears
your the heartache that wouldn’t wash away with her tears
and it’s You who’ll be the pain that never disappears .
Even If no one ever again says your name,
you made your middle and her’s the same.
So along with that she‘ll always carry a sense of blame...
Why would you leave her to have live feeling this shame.
No matter what she does that will be the part of you that remains.
Guilt she’ll never find a way to erase,
She’ll look in the mirror and see your face, and
think your looking back at her with disgrace
And she long for a mother she can never replace.
For a mom she’ll never really know
For the love that couldn't grow
And the Love she’ll never be able to show.
Because she'll fear that loving is what will make love go
As soon as she does,it has no reason to stay.
All she’s ever loved has been
Taken away.
Everything she believed in ...was all just pretend,
she wont be able to trust in anything again.
It was all for what,?What was it for?
Did you get the things you wanted more?
Did you proove some point you were trying to make?
Do you feel you made a huge mistake?
If you coulld go back and do it again...
.knowing what you didn’t know then.
Would you take it all back,would you find a way?
She’d be so happy if you would just stay.
There are alot of things in life We wish we could undo....
Do you think you’d do it differently if you only knew?
