A** pple pie, freshly baked from the oven. I don't wait for it to cool, I want it hot, with a big greedy scoop of vanilla ice creams melting next to it.
B oys. Cute, querky, gross, crazy, but amazing. You can't stand them, but for some reason you need them in your life.
C ookies. Warm, fresh-out-the-oven, gooey choclate chip cookies.
D is for dancing. Dancing in the rain with my eyes shut, screaming at the top of my lungs and not caring what anyone thinks. Just dancing.
E lephants. Strong, old, smart and beautiful creatures. Harmless yet protective.
F stands for foxes. More specifically fennec foxes. Adorable, small, cunning, cute and most of all, want by me!
G iving. Not just material items, but hope. Giving hugs, and smiles to those who need one. Also, For-giving.... letting go of the past and moving forward
H eartbreak. The feeling of no being able to breathe, not being able to speak, or make sense of everything without your "other half." Moving forward slowly, cautiously, because there are more around the corner.
I Me. The broken, yet strong; beautiful, yet self concious; smart, yet lazy teenager.
J is for Jenna, my first best friend. We aren't best friends anymore, but we still talk, and enjoy catching up in eachothers lives.
K issing. I love kissing. I mean come on.... everyone does ;)
L ove. A strong, complex emotion which many guys lie about, and which I do too. I think I've only ever once loved my partner... all the rest I enjoyed...
M om. My mother, the woman who decided "I'm going to take the qwerky, adorable girl home to America with me and make her part of my life."
N is the first letter in my name. Natalka Hannah Evangeline Kmiotek.
O veracheivers. The people who make fun of me, because they can do things better then me, and everyone else. ******* all.
P erfection. Skinny girls with perfect *******, and big *****. No scars, and white teeth. the opposite of me.
Q uiet, as in I have to stay quiet or they'll hear me. Who? My demons of course. If I'm too loud, they will come for me and drag me back to hell.
R stands for two things. The first is **** A horrible word describing a nightmare you wish you could forget. It's being robbed of your first touch by selfish men, and being back into a corner against your will, forced to stay silent.
S is for strength. The strength to overcome, the strength to live, the strength to move on.
T hank you. To everyone who has ever been there and listened to me...
U nderstand why I cut myself. Why I hurt myself. It's easier to deal with physical pain, then the emotional kind. The emotional pain rots and festers inside me, destroying everything. It shuts my lungs down, forcing me to gasp for air.
V acations. Small escapes from your daily life, into something glamourous and relaxing. The warm sand between your toes, as the hot sun beats down on you. The cool ocean kiss the tips of your toes, cooling your thirst.
W hen will pain end? When will people stop being mean to eachother? When can I expect my child to be able to go to school and not be afraid of the other students? When will I be able to walk outside, and finally be able to say "I am safe," not having to lie.
X plain to me why people put others down? Why are there perfect models and barbies, telling us how we must look, how it's acceptable in society.
Y es please. Thank you. Simple manner, dying out, almost extinct. What happen to being nice? Or do we now, just take what we want? Expect everything, like the world owes us.
Z ach. He was my first love and my first heart break. With him, when he left, the floor caved under me. We were one of those couples that would break up, and get back together then next week. I guess you sould say we were crazy for eachother, but when he left, I guess I was the only one crazy. I was crazy enough to think he was ever mine.
