You are naked.
Alone.
In this room you have been in countless times,
but is in no way comforting.
The walls are all white,
the floor, sky blue and white
checkered tile.
You look up,
the single bulb flickers for a moment,
you walk towards the tub
in the center of the room,
it is an old style tub
with the clawed toes.
You turn the faucet,
it begins to ooze
dark red.
Is it mud?
or maybe blood.
you plug up the tub,
and sit down on the edge.
You watch the ooze
slowly covering the porcelain
and you get in
you sit down.
The ooze comes just up to your knees now.
It is odly cold
staining your skin.
You shiver,
but lie back anyways
as if to relax.
The ooze creeps up over you
engulfs you
smothers out all your senses
except sight
everything is silent now
and you can no longer breathe
The ooze is all around you
sloshing over the edge of the tub
and staining the tiles
sky blue and red.

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss when my days were so low
The only attachment I have with those moments is when you come and go
My agony my overwhelming tendencies to rethink and overthink
And my screen then glows your name to bring me from the brink
Of my own destruction
And then I backtrack and face facts
Cause you may only want me for seduction
But all the times you eased the torment oozing from my body
At times I wonder if you had a clue or if you looked at me odly
One day I was sick of it all
Returning to a place where it seems all problems could be solved
You needed something I’d never hesitate to give
But you noticed a switch in aura maybe you sensed the low willingness to live
Either way I sat
With my red beats and a raging mind at that
A few hours past and my phone glowed.. once more
As if you could top the days seething roar
And I slide to the right
You shine like the moon in the pitch black of night
To open your mouth and ask if I’m alright
If I had plans tonight
And you seemed kinda sad Imma scoop you hang tight
The ride filled me with jitters
With my mind racing a mile a minute but refused to be a quitter
But I notice that your care to let me sit while my thoughts flow like rivers
And then begin to talk to ease the mind of the sinner
Your voice sweet and smooth
Like the string of a violin or the feeling of blues
In a single night
You took out every thought memory and demon I planned to fight
With songs and conversations
With closeness removing my hesitation
I’m getting closer and closer
All with the same fear she’ll knock my heart over
Still you’ll never know what you meant to me
And I’ll never know what we meant to be