"needingly" poems
I need to make changes for the better,
I need to get out from under this stormy weather.
Given, I love the rain and thunder,
But, sometimes too much is enough and I need to take cover.
I need to go away- with the option of return, though..
I need time to mend these jagged edges and end these sorrows.
I might hurt some, this process will be painful and slow,
I know my heart will ache and wither, but at the same time it'll grow.
I need to be forgiven,
I need to make amends.
Fix these broken bridges with the pillars I've dreamt,
Tear down these walls and pave open roads with resilient cement.
I need and want many things,
I've been left with a feeble and fragile whim.
I need a couple endings to signal new beginnings.
But, most of all, I needingly want to feel whole again.
Jun 9, 2014
Jun 9, 2014 at 3:13 AM UTC
You see I was never sure
Not sure if what I give would be enough
If what I have is too much
Not sure because if I can't accept myself
How can I accept someone else
When all I see in myself are flaws
How will I despise the flaws of others
How I so needingly try to find something to complete my hollow center
When that something is right infront of me
But the illusions he portrays to me
Are not the ones I want to see
How it be so unfair on him that I can't make up my mind
Make a decision
Or choose him.
Whether it be me or him
It's me that doesn't know what I want
As a wilted petal amongst the leaves so unsuringly unravels itself
to move further away
from the leaves that give it oxygen
Just so it can gain space
While losing strength from what it had before space was an option
May 11, 2016
May 11, 2016 at 9:28 AM UTC