"mims" poems
She is my light
in every pitch black evening.
Her light cuts through every angle
brightening up
each part of me.
She is my only guide
the star I follow
to a final destination
of home, of happiness
of eternal warmth and security.
She is my inspiration.
The reason I wake up everyday
with purpose, with intent
of becoming a better me.
The reason, I go to sleep
with a smile.
For every slumber,
comes another morning
which means a day closer to her.
She is my stargirl. :)
She is loved.
She is yearned for.
She is worth waiting
and risking for.
Yours and only yours, Anne.
Your Mims
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 10:20 AM UTC
Di mawari
kung bakit
bukas pusong kumakapit
sa di kasiguraduhan
at di katiyakan.
Nagmamahal
sa kabila ng sakit,
sa likod ng kandilang
minsang naupos...
Ngunit ngayo'y
nag-aalab sa damdamin.
Kung kaya't
narito ako,
iniaalay ang buong puso
ititigil ang mundo
makasama ka lamang.
Ilang sandali na lamang, Anne... At mayayakap ka na. :)
Iyong iyo lamang,
Mims :)
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 10:36 AM UTC
We comfortably
go through our Saturdays and Sundays
in pajamas
idling away
and wasting time
with our eyes fixed
on our laptop screens.
I smile as I watch
every detail of you while you sleep -
that twitch in your eyes
that tells me you are in deep slumber
possibly (and hopefully) dreaming about you and me...
your rhythmic breathing
that I follow with my heartbeat
as if your chest falls up and down
with mine.
And as you awaken,
I smile at the thought
that it is I
that you first see.
I cannot wait until the day
that I could again
kiss those soft ears of yours to wake you up.
You are always loved, my annette. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
Yours and always yours,
Mims
:)
Mar 22, 2014
Mar 22, 2014 at 10:35 PM UTC
We can never never forget
our birth right !
we among we are we who are not
****** for the demiurg's
plan
No one is !
self assured
protegee-s
are born with a silver platter
beneath their behinds
and golden locks around their hearts
Open the gates ! to compassion
to love and beauty
Mems are inherently deep
mims singing their song
of freedom forlorn
Endlessly lost in a wicked
vastness of matter
Dark tea time
The other one - is - medica !
Heal me
O'neal me
Nurture our love
Embrace me
Yearn to be yearned
(by her, by me)
Give me your spirit - to fly !
for a wide
while
I'll lend you - my shape !
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 3:06 PM UTC
Today, I can stop writing.
Yes, she took me back. Yes, I am all hers again. And she's all mine. :)
This letter will be a renewal of my promises. That I will commit the rest of my lifetime to prove to her that I have changed; that I have become a better person for myself, for her and for us. That we will not go through the same pain we did because of my previous mistakes; that she will never get hurt for the same reasons all over again... Better yet, I promise that I would do everything so that she will never get hurt. I may not be able to promise that we will never face any hardships, trials or challenges, but I can promise that we will face them together... and that we will hurdle and triumph through them hand in hand and come out stronger. I promise that we will always be transparent to each other, airing out our feelings, emotions, fears, joys and everything else in between... For we want every detail of our stories to be shared to one another. I promise to always be by her side; sometimes we may not be physically together but in my own ways, and in the best ways I can think of, she will never feel alone. I promise to be my very best for her, to always be inspired in everything I do because of her. I promise that both of us will be able to do what we want or we love, without judgments or restrictions... For I will respect and accept every detail and part of her. Yes, we may talk over things and compromise, but changes done in our lives will never be a sacrifice but rather a choice - that I choose to do or not to do something because she is more important and that she is valued more than my wants. I promise that we will both explore our greatest potentials, and that I will be her best ever supporter - that whatever career path or life decisions she may have, I am with her 100%. I promise to keep our imagined black, white and red themed house clean and orderly (once we finally afford and invest on one) because I know she wants it that way. I promise to always be beside her when she needs me, or be out of her sight if she needs her alone time or space... For real love is not just about the number of hours or days being physically beside each other, but rather, about every second that our heart beats in sync for each other wherever we may be.
And my list could go on and on... And maybe I won't be stopping writing for her. Because everyday, words spill out of my heart out of awe and happiness that yes, she has taken me back.
And I am never messing up this time.
Thank you, Anne. You will always be loved. :)
Yours, for the rest of your lifetime,
Mims
Dec 11, 2013
Dec 11, 2013 at 10:15 PM UTC
You broke my heart saying you were gay
you stole the best years of my life and
i had a freaking *** change like you wanted
feel messed up in the head cause you asked
me to do something i did not want to do
i became a lady like you wanted. still ******
cause i got thoughts like i don't like me no
more cause of that *** change and losing my
job and all that kinda stuff. still **** at this
poem writing but getting better i think.
My name was Mathew and not i is just
mims cause of you asking me to have a
*** change then dumping me for a woman.
Oct 22, 2013
Oct 22, 2013 at 5:44 AM UTC
Dear Anne,
I am crying now. Not because of sadness, not because of anger or frustration... But because I am overwhelmed. Not a bad kind of overwhelmed, but one that is full of awe and joy.
I am overwhelmed that after all the pain both of us have gone through, after all the hurting, anger, and fears... I wake up one morning and find myself in love with you all over again. But not the same kind of love I felt when I first had you, or during our most wonderful times together - believe it or not, it was so much more. It's the kind of love that transcends through distance, through time... My heart never settles. You know that. It is never still, it always wants and you know that the way it wants something, it does its best to get it right away. But now, it is different. It has learned to be still. It has learned to endure waiting, to endure uncertainties; to endure the fear that it does not know how you feel - or if you will be willing to accept it back or not. But amidst this indefiniteness, it fights... With a smile. It fights the good fight. It wakes up every morning beating hard and loud with purpose: that is to make you happy again. To show you how much you mean to this heart... that every heart beat, every drop of blood flowing through its veins are all with beautiful intent.
This heart is beating, this heart is in joy. It skips a beat when it senses you, it speeds up when it remembers you.
The only prayer I have now is that you will listen to its every beat. :) That you will hear what it has been trying to shout, what it has been fighting for. :)
You are loved, Anne. Remember that somewhere, someone wakes up every day inspired, motivated - to be a better person for herself. With high hopes that when you get to meet her again, all the familiarities will rush and you remember this stranger who loved you with all her joyful heart.
Yours and yours alone,
Mims
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 2:40 PM UTC
i just wanted something normal
something that made life make a little more sense
but since you have no inkling on the meaning
of what peace is
and love seems to be the bane of your existence
insistent on making me suffer you.
my love for you, a redeeming quality
to be a blessing for a curse
each day seems to be worse
with a random sparkling moment
just to hold me hostage longer.
i thought i was stronger
and you seem to brighten when i fail to enlighten;
when i am my vulnerable self.
who hurt you?
because now you are the poster child for why i need to heal.
and theres nothing gracious about breaking:
clawing me down just to prove you're real.
Aug 20, 2025
Aug 20, 2025 at 12:20 AM UTC
Driving around the metro
mindlessly going through
stoplights
and traffic
and intersections.
We said we didn't really accomplish much work -
just a single package claimed and delivered amidst the 7-hour drive-
but the endless laughter
until we were on tears,
the teasing,
the pinching and tickling til one gets hurt
were enough
to brighten my day.
And not to mention
that stolen kiss
and interlocking of fingers
-it was a moment but I knew we wanted it-
that made my day
into a blur
of coloured swirls and sparkles and magic.
You are always loved, Anne. I am just and still here waiting. :)
Yours and always yours,
Mims
"And 7-hours through the traffic - through endless stoplights, intersections and cop chases - there was a stolen kiss... And the whole metro blurred into a swirl of red lights and car horns and whispered wishes that the stoplight would never turn go." :)
Nov 29, 2013
Nov 29, 2013 at 9:29 AM UTC
I once met this little girl
meek, quiet, reserved...
But once you get past her walls
you meet a very witty,
sincere, honest
and amazing woman.
I once met this little girl
who made me smile at the littlest of things.
From animated films, pick up lines, arcade games
or just lying in cold, damp, grass
watching the stars
no need for words...
or inside a car on a parking lot
sharing stories,
whatnot's, inspirations and dreams.
I once met this little girl
who made each of my days brighter
who gave me the fondest of memories
from our everyday happenings
from firsts together
to habits we formed
like traveling
and making adventures.
I once met this little girl
and I fell in love with her.
The best thing that ever happened in my life.
She was mine, I was hers.
And nothing else mattered.
I once met this little girl
and i hurt her.
I made mistakes,
wasted away
what could have been
a lifetime.
Spending the rest of the years of my life
with the most beautiful, amazing
and wonderful woman I have known
and I have owned.
I once met this little girl
and I'm even more in love with her.
Despite all the pain, mistakes and trials
we may have gone through,
it is still this little girl that I dream of.
The same name I sometimes cry at night
when I am awoken by a sweet dream about her.
The same little girl
I would risk all I have just to have her again.
For this little girl,
will be the only one I could imagine
spending the rest of my lifetime with.
You will always be my little girl, Anne.
Yours, as always and forever,
Mims
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 11:51 AM UTC
I'm in great depression in life that's my main obsession it holds me like I am their own possession wants me to say I am fine instead of my real emotions keeps my feelings with succession comes out of nowhere &attacks; me with such aggression only leads me with one direction sadness madness numbness no other kind of expression I tired to say my confession of how it goes through progression at times it gives me an impression that I Will be better soon instead I am left with domination I can't even Slove my own equation telling my mind to have some type session speaks to me all about my imperfections it gets scary in there with all the tension saying I am some sort of infection that needs to be a suspension externally telling me suggestions for all it wants to mention is to end it all &leave; everyone out with no sort connection so it leaves me hanging with no protection to vanish myself in front of half broken mirror & see my own reflection of how I'm not such a great exception and I'm not at perfection. Until this day I'm still left termination.
Jul 20, 2014
Jul 20, 2014 at 9:21 PM UTC
The moment
light peeks through my eyes
as I rise in the morning
it's you that I first think about.
My heart races
in that transition
from slumber to awake
for I know you were with me in my dreams
and that you'll be in my mind throughout my day.
My day goes by
with thoughts such as
"How is she?
Is she having a good or bad day?
Who is she with and is she tired or hungry or sleepy?"
And sometimes, I try not to ask myself but...
"Is she thinking about me as well?"
Days are passing by,
time lost
daydreaming about how that
first meeting
of eyes (and heart beats)
will be like
after months away from each other.
Minutes are spent
imagining my coming days
with you
finally beside me.
I cannot wait.
You are always thought about, always loved Anne. :)
Yours always,
Mims
Nov 19, 2013
Nov 19, 2013 at 11:24 AM UTC
Sometimes
you surprise yourself -
when you start doing things
that seem
irrational, extraordinary, out of the box
for the one you love.
You go beyond your comfort zone
try to do the unthinkable
just to be able
to reach out and make her day better
even from thousands of miles away.
And most of the time,
you also surprise yourself
that each waking day
you never stop thinking about
what you could do for her next.
Not because you are obliged to,
but
just because.
And with these little things,
is a very big hope
that somehow, in some way...
you were able to brighten up her day. :)
I've got surprises up my sleeve, Anne. All for you. :)
Always yours,
Mims
Nov 8, 2013
Nov 8, 2013 at 5:37 PM UTC
Dear Anne,
It has been a really good morning for me. I was able to wake up early despite yesterday's long day, went through my morning habit of running to our training studio and nailing our workout for the day (with a smile) plus a peaceful walk to downtown and rewarding myself with some good breakfast and coffee. It was a good morning, with the wind blowing swiftly, just like how it was in one of our favorite destinations up north (where you wear shorts and tank tops and everyone's bundled up :P).
It was a good morning. I guess it was because of being able to catch a glimpse of you before I slept. Or because you were my last thought before sleep, and the first as I woke up. Or maybe both.
A good morning, indeed.
But it could have been more beautiful sharing it with you. :)
Just a few more days, I am counting down.
You are always loved, Anne.
Yours always,
Mims
Nov 14, 2013
Nov 14, 2013 at 11:58 AM UTC
Dear Anne,
I am longing for the time that you'd take me back in your heart again. It has been a painful journey for me, of going through every day without knowing how you are; if you are doing well... Or if your back is hurting because I would love to massage that sweet spot to make you feel better. Or just hold you close to a hug to let you know that even if the world is starting to become cruel, everything will be all right because I am here, and we are together.
But I am getting by, I have devoted my time into strengthening myself - physically (I know you know me that runs and training are my outlet) and emotionally - to get ready for the bigger things coming in my life. I am happy, happy knowing that my heart has been stilled and it has realized that above everything else, it is still you that it yearns. Only you that it wants.
But it is still waiting. My heart wants to be complete, to be in its best form when the time comes that you accept it again. It wants to be filled to the brim with passion, of eternal happiness. And it knows that when you come back, it will finally be able to beat faster and slower again at the same time - it is only you who can do that to my heart. :)
You will always be loved, Anne. Always remember that. :)
Just here,
Your Mims
Oct 30, 2013
Oct 30, 2013 at 10:09 AM UTC
When I told you
I will go the distance just to be with you
Just to prove you
that I have changed;
and that I have realized that
you are the only person
worth taking risks for...
I meant it. :)
And yes,
even if it means
miles and miles
of uncertainties
and indefiniteness
I will jump blindfoldedly
keeping my faith, trusting completely...
for I know we're worth it.
You are always loved, Anne. Always.
Yours and yours only,
Mims.
Nov 4, 2013
Nov 4, 2013 at 12:24 PM UTC
Back to these kinds of mornings -
Waking up before everyone else does to catch the first train trip, a good run to the gym for some conditioning/strength training to kick off the day and this 1.5hr- gap before work spent with exchanges on how your day was and how my day begins (over coffee). Soon, we waste time together in this cafe. :)
I love you, Anne. Mahal na mahal kita. I cannot wait to wake up beside you.
Yours, and only yours
Mims
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 6:36 PM UTC
Dear Anne,
Again, like any other day, I found myself thinking about you. I was looking through our photos over and over almost every day… Both a pleasure and a torture for I smile at seeing how huge our smiles were in these immortalized memories, and I shiver for I miss every second of it. I miss those times that I can see you first thing, or any time we'd want to. I have never even eaten out ever since I got here… For I can never take a moment eating on my own, when I know on the other side of the world, we (almost) always had our breakfasts, lunches and dinners together. I worry from where I am. I fear that you have been working too much or too late, or that you have been sick for days or has been skipping meals… And worse, I feel bad for I should be there taking care of you. Yes, it pains me to know that there's this one person that takes center stage trying to do what I should be doing. It pains me every single day… That I, from where I am, could only do so much to hear you or let you feel my presence while she can just see you and talk to you and hear your sweet voice any time she might wish to. It eats up every inch of the inside of me. And I have been consumed fully.
But I endure. Yes, it is painful… But my love for you still remains greater than this pain. I will continue living each day becoming better for myself, for you.. and for us. I will continue loving you from where I am, making you feel how much you are loved from miles away. It is a challenge, yes. But what could be a greater feeling than knowing you are fighting through the distance, that you are defying every meter, mile and kilometer of it just to send my love to you? That I bask in this pain, just to make you feel loved, thought of, missed and dreamt about.
I always tell you that I have high hopes… that I have faith. But just to let you know, I am also hanging on to courage. :)
And yes, this is because you are all worth it, Anne. Just a few more days. I am counting down.
You are always loved, Anne. Always.
Your Mims.
Nov 13, 2013
Nov 13, 2013 at 9:42 AM UTC
Dear Anne,
It's the 9th here... And still, I celebrate this day like how we always do. I was going through our photos early in the morning, remembering the conversations we had during these immortalized memories. I remember how gentle your voice sounds like or how cute you laugh when we share a joke, or the meal we shared and the stories we told each other. I remember our very first "date" - in a cafe in our campus, where you made me guess what your favorite dessert was. Believe it or not, despite my goldfish memory of names, events or places, our memories will always be vivid in my mind and heart. Every day and every night I still smell your shampoo, or your natural scent when I wake up or before sleep.
And I know now, the 9th there, you may be going on with your own ways. Working, hanging out with friends... Driving, whatever it may be. But please do remember that here, I am consistently remembering each and every detail of this special day, of what it celebrates. For I know that the 9th will not just be an ordinary day, for in this day, I was once given the privilege to own, and be owned, by a very beautiful woman. This day was the start of the rest of my life. We could have been faced with struggles, trials. But I know ever since April 9th of 2011, the universe decided to write a fairy tale.
And this story is yet to unfold.
You are always loved, Anne.
All yours,
Your Mims.
Nov 9, 2013
Nov 9, 2013 at 11:19 AM UTC
One day,
you would never have to drive on your own to work.
I will be there holding your hand
from short trips around the city
to road trips and long drives to anywhere we wish.
One day,
you wouldn't have to wake up
with a cold side on the bed.
I will be right there beside you
with your head on my chest
while I caress your hair
as I watch you sleep
and kiss you good night's and good morning's.
One day,
when you feel like the world is ganging up on you
and you need hugs and the hold of a warm hand
I won't be just a text message or Skype call away
but will be there by you.
Holding your hand,
as the whole world passes by.
One day,
this will all be our reality.
And this day,
will come real soon.
I love you my Annette, always.
Yours, and only yours,
Mims
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 12:56 PM UTC
I sit on the train
with my eyes fixed
at the blur of lights
outside the window
as the train rushes by.
And in this moment,
this moment where light and motion and visions of you
mix into a swirl of a perfect blend
that I start seeing your reflection,
your eyes looking back into mine.
And I am awaken
by the sudden stop in the station
with the fact
that the seat beside me is still empty.
But soon
I am counting down days
your hand
will be holding mine...
As we coast from north to south without purpose
back and forth, people watching
sitting on this train
wasting away
seconds, minutes and hours.
For every moment spent just merely beside you
is worth all the while.
I love you, Anne.
Yours and only yours,
Mims
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 8:58 AM UTC
Just a few more days
Until I can feel your warm hug again;
Where I can hold you close
until our chests feel each other's heart beats.
Just a few more days
until I can hold your soft little hands again.
Fingers locked, palms touching...
With occasional kisses at the back of your hand.
Just a few more days
until I can look into your eyes again.
And tell you how I feel,
how I feel for you
with hopes that you would not look away.
Just a few more days.
I am counting down, Anne. I cannot wait until I can see you, be with you again. All days will be only for you. :)
You are always loved. :)
Yours and only yours,
Mims
Nov 18, 2013
Nov 18, 2013 at 12:17 PM UTC
Dear Anne,
My heart has been very... well, I can't find the proper word for it. It has been waking up in the wee hours of the morning, forcing some tears in my eyes. It tries to stop the pain when it feels that you're with someone else but it just can't handle it sometimes. It hurts, it aches... But it endures. I found myself crying so hard right now, for helplessness of being here, when I know you need someone to be with you during your stressful times at work. I was planning on sending you a message in Skype, saying that I'd stay with you while you work even just through messages or a video call... But you weren't there. And someone else was there. It pains me to know that out there, someone has the power to just go to you or see you or be with you... While here, I have to wait weeks, days and even months just to find the time to be with you again. The world has been giving me tons of reasons to be mad, to grow anger in my heart... But it fails. Yes, I am in tears. Yes, I am hurting. But this heart continues to love. For its love, is stronger than any emotion the universe is trying to elicit in me.
It loves, it remains courageous, it holds on to faith. And so much hope.
You are always loved, Anne.
I am just here. Always. Waiting, loving you.
Your Mims
Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 10:34 AM UTC
Dear Anne,
They say when you found the one person that you could imagine spending the rest of your life with, you never let that person go. Even if it means going the distance, even if it means taking risks, even if it means doing things out of the rational.
And yes, I am willing to do all these for you. I will step out of my comfort zone, fight the good fight... And make you feel the sincerity, and the purity, of my heart. That it yearns for only you and you alone.
It is a risk, an action with no assurance of what the outcome. But like what I tell you always, you are worth it.
You are and will always be loved, Anne. I will be going the distance. Real soon.
Please wait for me.
Always thinking about you,
Your Mims
Nov 2, 2013
Nov 2, 2013 at 10:36 AM UTC
Nothing felt worse
than waking up
with no held hand
no cuddles
no smell of freshly brewed coffee
and home cooked breakfast
and no good morning kisses.
but again,
just like how it was before
I took the leap to find you again,
each sunrise
each waking day
is a reminder
that I am coming closer to you, to home.
And this time,
when we are back in each other's arms
it will be a promise
that we will never be away
even a heartbeat's space
from each other again. :)
You are loved and missed, Anne.
I can still smell your hair every waking time.
Yours, only yours,
Mims
Dec 17, 2013
Dec 17, 2013 at 2:52 PM UTC