mims
This will serve as a commitment to write a Letter to Anne everyday since that night (10/15/2013) she told me it might be better off to be apart from each other. / / With high hopes she will yearn for me again. For hopes she will want me back. / / She has been the best thing that happened to me. And I am not messing up this time.
I just want you to know
that you are not just a part of my routine,
not just a daily habit -
you are far more than that.
For me, you are my reason
I wake up with a strong heart
every day.
You are the inspiration
I go through my day
with a smile on my face,
full of high hopes and dreams.
Every message I send
is not just a part of a to-do-list
but I tell you
the simplest to the grandest of events
in my everyday
because I want to share a big part of me,
to you.
That I give you the power
to see through me,
to feel how I do,
to hear what my heart beats for -
only you, us... and our life together waiting for us.
Apr 5, 2014
Apr 5, 2014 at 12:29 PM UTC
One day,
you would never have to drive on your own to work.
I will be there holding your hand
from short trips around the city
to road trips and long drives to anywhere we wish.
One day,
you wouldn't have to wake up
with a cold side on the bed.
I will be right there beside you
with your head on my chest
while I caress your hair
as I watch you sleep
and kiss you good night's and good morning's.
One day,
when you feel like the world is ganging up on you
and you need hugs and the hold of a warm hand
I won't be just a text message or Skype call away
but will be there by you.
Holding your hand,
as the whole world passes by.
One day,
this will all be our reality.
And this day,
will come real soon.
I love you my Annette, always.
Yours, and only yours,
Mims
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 12:56 PM UTC
I just want to let you know
that every waking morning
I greet the world
with my heart beat
with every inhale and exhale
I find more and more reasons
to fall in love with you
deeper than yesterdays.
:)
Falling in love with you more and more each day, Anne. :) And this heart can go on until forever.
Yours, always... and only yours
Mims
Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 6:23 PM UTC
Back to these kinds of mornings -
Waking up before everyone else does to catch the first train trip, a good run to the gym for some conditioning/strength training to kick off the day and this 1.5hr- gap before work spent with exchanges on how your day was and how my day begins (over coffee). Soon, we waste time together in this cafe. :)
I love you, Anne. Mahal na mahal kita. I cannot wait to wake up beside you.
Yours, and only yours
Mims
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 6:36 PM UTC
We comfortably
go through our Saturdays and Sundays
in pajamas
idling away
and wasting time
with our eyes fixed
on our laptop screens.
I smile as I watch
every detail of you while you sleep -
that twitch in your eyes
that tells me you are in deep slumber
possibly (and hopefully) dreaming about you and me...
your rhythmic breathing
that I follow with my heartbeat
as if your chest falls up and down
with mine.
And as you awaken,
I smile at the thought
that it is I
that you first see.
I cannot wait until the day
that I could again
kiss those soft ears of yours to wake you up.
You are always loved, my annette. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
Yours and always yours,
Mims
:)
Mar 22, 2014
Mar 22, 2014 at 10:35 PM UTC
I sit on the train
with my eyes fixed
at the blur of lights
outside the window
as the train rushes by.
And in this moment,
this moment where light and motion and visions of you
mix into a swirl of a perfect blend
that I start seeing your reflection,
your eyes looking back into mine.
And I am awaken
by the sudden stop in the station
with the fact
that the seat beside me is still empty.
But soon
I am counting down days
your hand
will be holding mine...
As we coast from north to south without purpose
back and forth, people watching
sitting on this train
wasting away
seconds, minutes and hours.
For every moment spent just merely beside you
is worth all the while.
I love you, Anne.
Yours and only yours,
Mims
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 8:58 AM UTC
Today, I... No, we... start another journey.
A few months ago, I was on the road to make it up to Anne. She was the best thing that ever happened in my life... And I was blessed and fortunate enough to be accepted back by this angel. ;) And now, we begin another chapter in our lives together.
starting today, I will write again. I will write all our plans for us... Through our road to be beside each other again. From today, until the day we get to wake up beside each other, I will chronicle all our dreams, hopes and prayers... All the sacrifices, all the challenges we have to endure, and hurdle through together.
I know the day would come that we would no longer have to wait... No longer have to count hours and miles between us. Instead, we count our memories waking up to each other's breaths and kisses... And all our adventures in our world, wherever it may be.
I love you, Anne. And I know together, with our enduring hearts... We can make our dreams come true.
75 days. That's the most we want to have to endure until we hold each other's hands again. I cannot wait until that fateful day. :)
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 17, 2014 at 11:55 AM UTC
I hope you know
I always choose
to miss a couple of hours of sleep
just to make our timezones meet
and get a glimpse
of a pixelated you.
I hope you know that amidst
the rustles and bustles of bicycles
moving and flying around
my playground
I sneak into a quiet spot
just to send you a text message to know how my day is going.
It's my choice to make you feel like I am just there :)
Jan 10, 2014
Jan 10, 2014 at 9:58 PM UTC
Nothing felt worse
than waking up
with no held hand
no cuddles
no smell of freshly brewed coffee
and home cooked breakfast
and no good morning kisses.
but again,
just like how it was before
I took the leap to find you again,
each sunrise
each waking day
is a reminder
that I am coming closer to you, to home.
And this time,
when we are back in each other's arms
it will be a promise
that we will never be away
even a heartbeat's space
from each other again. :)
You are loved and missed, Anne.
I can still smell your hair every waking time.
Yours, only yours,
Mims
Dec 17, 2013
Dec 17, 2013 at 2:52 PM UTC
Today, I can stop writing.
Yes, she took me back. Yes, I am all hers again. And she's all mine. :)
This letter will be a renewal of my promises. That I will commit the rest of my lifetime to prove to her that I have changed; that I have become a better person for myself, for her and for us. That we will not go through the same pain we did because of my previous mistakes; that she will never get hurt for the same reasons all over again... Better yet, I promise that I would do everything so that she will never get hurt. I may not be able to promise that we will never face any hardships, trials or challenges, but I can promise that we will face them together... and that we will hurdle and triumph through them hand in hand and come out stronger. I promise that we will always be transparent to each other, airing out our feelings, emotions, fears, joys and everything else in between... For we want every detail of our stories to be shared to one another. I promise to always be by her side; sometimes we may not be physically together but in my own ways, and in the best ways I can think of, she will never feel alone. I promise to be my very best for her, to always be inspired in everything I do because of her. I promise that both of us will be able to do what we want or we love, without judgments or restrictions... For I will respect and accept every detail and part of her. Yes, we may talk over things and compromise, but changes done in our lives will never be a sacrifice but rather a choice - that I choose to do or not to do something because she is more important and that she is valued more than my wants. I promise that we will both explore our greatest potentials, and that I will be her best ever supporter - that whatever career path or life decisions she may have, I am with her 100%. I promise to keep our imagined black, white and red themed house clean and orderly (once we finally afford and invest on one) because I know she wants it that way. I promise to always be beside her when she needs me, or be out of her sight if she needs her alone time or space... For real love is not just about the number of hours or days being physically beside each other, but rather, about every second that our heart beats in sync for each other wherever we may be.
And my list could go on and on... And maybe I won't be stopping writing for her. Because everyday, words spill out of my heart out of awe and happiness that yes, she has taken me back.
And I am never messing up this time.
Thank you, Anne. You will always be loved. :)
Yours, for the rest of your lifetime,
Mims
Dec 11, 2013
Dec 11, 2013 at 10:15 PM UTC