"mesmorized" poems
Love too much
Hurt too much
Always needing a heart to touch
Limitless sources of abundance so clear
No ability to cause you harm or unnecessary fear
Sometimes momentary blindness, inability to truly hear
Critical lapses of excruciating, intensity from my vivid past
Try, as I might, to make the most healthy relationship last
As days turn into nights, I wish a moment of bliss with you that would last.
Not sure anymore, of anything that is real
Putrid, agonizing, annoyance seems to keep me off keel
Hoping, dreaming and wanting for my positive feelings to be real
Lustful thoughts of our time together feel ****** and surreal
In the midst of the anger and bitterness, I realize I am able to feel.
Seductive, entranced, mesmorized with true love stamped within our hearts, forever sealed.
The dripping of the lukewarm indecision has grown old, decrepit and shames me in despair
Ready now for the realness of a soul mate, never knowing one that cared.
So here it goes, where it ends, know one knows… now that my soul has been given and shared.
In the end, where I have always been
Crushed within the lions den
Here I am, nothing hidden, never knowing the why and when.
My heart is now yours and given of my free will
Never again will I have to trudge up the loneliness hill.
The love that I seek has been found in you
With a light in our eyes, yours sparkling blue.
The things in my past that riddled me with fear
When the darkness replaced the light is no longer here.
I'm trusting you to love me and hope it is true.
This poem was written especially for you.
Dec 28, 2012
Dec 28, 2012 at 1:21 PM UTC
I Solemnly Swear
No else would ever come close or ever compare.
To your unconditional Tender love and care.
Unaware that my hearts under repair.
Im Mentally Gone but Physically There.
Could this be a Secret love affair?
Can't you sense the attraction in the atmosphere?
maybe its in the confidence that you wear?
Because Out of the corner of my eye
One day you caught me by suprise
I think you could be my angel in disguise
All in my feelings, you Got me over here mesmorized.
The Presences of this King was Strong and So bold.
With Such beauty my vision could barely behold.
Truth Be Told,
You precious to Me, more valuable than Gold.
From that moment on I knew you already had my heart sold.
Something intrigues me to you.
Is it because you are Respectful, Honest, and True?
Maybe its in reference to the little things you do.
You are Something so Extraordinaire
Hard to come, So Exquisite and rare.
Even when I'm broke you got me feeling like a multi millionaire.
You give me butterflies.
Got me floating like the clouds above in blue skies.
Having vision about you and I
Becoming as One and Unify.
You as my King and Me as Your Queen.
You are the drug and Im the Fein.
I need you so bad I could scream
You are surreal to me like a dream.
You set my heart on fire.
With a passionate buring for desire.
My Confession is I sit here secretly watching you and Admire.
Sincerely Your
Secret Admirer.
Sep 24, 2016
Sep 24, 2016 at 1:35 AM UTC
Apart from you, I am nothing.
Without your touch, I feel alone.
So take me now and partake of all I offer
I am so ready for every part of you
Your soul and your body and your mind.
I am taken aback by your quick wit
and your masculinity, slowly seducing..
Until I am panting with passion..
Your lips are like delicious apples
That are ripe for the picking.
And your body is glistening with dew.
I am forever tasting you and feasting upon your beauty
Until I am sated and am starving no more.
And as I lay back, so satisfied
I realize that without each other, this would never be.
So true, in fact, that I am mesmorized by your presence
And the energy I possess is all directed to you.
I wouldn't call it love, but I could call it amazing.
Listening for the sound of your heart beat
As the blood thumps, thumps, thumps....
You excite me so, there is not any word to describe
The tantalizing touch of your fingertips
And in a rhythm, we sway with the music
All time stops and logic doesn't exist.
There are just the two of us..
We meld together like we were fashioned that way.
Like I was never alone..
Or without you...
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 1:12 AM UTC
She used her sway
Like a dangling watch
Swinging on a chain:
She stopped my eyes,
I was mesmorized,
Entranced,
In a post hypnotic haze.
If she snapped her fingers
I'd cluck,
I'd bark,
Do whatever she'd ask,
But she kept on swinging
And left me panting
In post traumatic stress.
Nov 28, 2014
Nov 28, 2014 at 2:42 PM UTC
I became mesmorized by the water filter attached to the sink
From ***** to clean the water glides
Doing so to please each humans needs
Water the necessity, the core of living, life, existence
Filling each cup of energy
Filling each cup of life
Filter: a device to remove impurities
My mind drifted and with shaky hands I began to remember
Filter: a device to remove impurities
How similar I though how similar
Filtering , like my speech daily ,y words altered to be clean
To build into the right sentence, the sentence that fits into a specific place set and stone
Once it is filtered there is not return to *****
I remember as a child the day I was told to filter
The day I was told to engage myself within myself
To intertwine words in between my bones and hide them there untill they we're spell checked
to play hide and seek, more hiding than seeking
Make sure the words find approval
Ecspecially through man, because the word man is placed in woman
But woman not in man
As a defiant child I questioned life's reasonings
A woman found me, an adult figure I clung to like the last leaves on a tree
She spoke elgant and quiet
You cannot stand alone young girl you must think before each syllable flys like birds from the cage in your mouth
Suppress your mind disable yourself so you can exist among the superior
For generations to generations this is the curse
but such a blessing to live
We do not question humanity or the man in the w-o
You were born this way dear you cannot help whats under your skirt
I will train you to deal with the cards you have been dealt
But never speak of my teachings for out loud we are equal
I opened my ears like arms for a hug and stitched my mouth like buttons on a shirt
Ten years later I stand at my kitchen sink and I feel the words under my ribs and the sentences wrapped around my neck
I open my trap to let go of the misspelled words under my ribs
But there gone, seeking and seeking I want all my words back but they evaporated, forgotten among the earth
I take the filter and twirl it in between my fingers
Holding freedom between palms
filter: a device to remove impurities
I pour a glass of ***** water and take a sip, a gulp,
oh. the glorious tast, the glorious taste of impurity
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 12:43 PM UTC
Imagine being alone and free
Surrounded by lovely flowers and beautiful trees
Barefoot, and the grass tickles your feet
Nature all around you, what a treat
The wind blows in between your toes
In your hand is a thornless rose
The sweet aroma drifts into your nose
In this place there are no miseries or woes
Fast forward to a sandy beach
Many delightful seashells are within your reach
You feel the grainy sand as you grab a seashell with your hand
The waves gently crash onto the soft sand
The ocean gleams as the sun shines bright
But as you stare, mesmorized, it becomes night
The stars sparkle and the ocean glistens in the moonlight
And there's nothing in this world that could feel more right
Jan 19, 2015
Jan 19, 2015 at 3:51 PM UTC
Love too much
Hurt too much
Always needing a heart to touch
Limitless sources of abundance so clear
No ability to cause you harm or unnecessary fear
Sometimes momentary blindness, inability to truly hear
Critical lapses of excruciating, intensity from my vivid past
Try, as I might, to make the most healthy relationship last
As days turn into nights, I wish a moment of bliss with you that would last.
Not sure anymore, of anything that is real
Putrid, agonizing, annoyance seems to keep me off keel
Hoping, dreaming and wanting for my positive feelings to be real
Lustful thoughts of our time together feel ****** and surreal
In the midst of the anger and bitterness, I realize I am able to feel.
Seductive, entranced, mesmorized with true love stamped within our hearts, forever sealed.
The dripping of the luke warm indecision has grown old, decrepit and shames me in despair
Ready now for the realness of a soul mate, never knowing one that cared.
So here it goes, where it ends, know one knows… now that my soul has been given and shared.
In the end, where I have always been
Crushed within the lions den
Here I am, nothing hidden, never knowing the why and when.
My heart is broken in a million pieces you must now mend with your love.
Quite a task, indeed, for anyone…. But your love surely comes from above.
And if you hurt me in any way, stand in line with all the others that who claimed they knew love.
Dec 26, 2012
Dec 26, 2012 at 4:12 AM UTC
if this pulsating addiction through my brain
can be more than madness
than I
I am more than nothing
cause when something so big, its condemed to itself
all it has left to do is diminish
into hunderds of icy little peices
covering my body
seeping down into my grittle bone
haunting under the light pole
polariods laughing in my head
dimmed creatures
humming
kiss me
kiss me
haunted
Im am so mesmorized for you
and the way you sit with your hand on your cheek
smoking your nicotine
speaking about venice and the lions in your closet
your blushing and speaking red
and I am watching you
I am watching you
--
move your tongue lightly on air and
tell me your stories in the most
simple word,
please
the creses in your forehead
shedding all the deatil
I am afraid to be too close to you
watching your hair fall to the side of your face
watching your veins pulsate
adorning your 5 o'clock shadow
you pushed me against the window pane
and shoved everything you had
that break me till I cant break anymore
kind of
love
I throw my arms above me---
to where I cant see them anymore
little dimness tracing at my vision
but am I blind now
or was I blind before
or am I still blind
or was I previously blind
or is this you
and this is my cycle
and you always come back
but I can never find you
and I am nowhere to be seen
perhaps on some forgein path
on my way to buy chardonnay and mint
Nov 2, 2010
Nov 2, 2010 at 8:03 PM UTC
Lighting crashes,
on the cold concreate.
Eluminating the sky,
screaming at me 'defeat'.
The rain pours down,
flooding the streets.
Drag me to the road,
kiss me soft on the cheek.
The thunder sounds,
hard and loud.
It scars me lots,
those stupid black clouds.
But your touch is warm,
against my wet shirt.
And your kiss is firm,
making my lips hurt.
You pull back slow,
look into my eyes.
I look up at you,
completely mesmorized.
Your touch is firm,
your eyes bright green.
As lightening eluminates,
the cold deserted street.
Jul 24, 2010
Jul 24, 2010 at 8:32 AM UTC
he looks into her eyes like an astronomer completely mesmorized by the constellations above
and mapping and plotting every crevice of her body
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 3:52 PM UTC
The little ladys name was ramy she did not eat for 89 days. She would always pick fruit, and think of girls carrying cabbage. She would stand tall and always feel the air of the nearby mountains. She would race with the girls every morning for five days. She would stare into the sunflower, she would touch the wheats, she would zone out into her child hood thoughts. The little lady ramy, was her name. She had a brain malfunction, she would take corn and sway them all the time. She fell into a hypnosis and didnt come out alive. She quivered into a black machine. The lady was now in a dangerous scene. The little children would say hi misses. They would hold their knees. They would run away into the air surprisingly. The little lady would picker. She was a good lady but she forgot to hang up her white sheets. Every evening she would feel the laughs of the five girls. They would sleep orange, they would twirl in delight. The little lady was mesmorized.
Jan 11, 2014
Jan 11, 2014 at 6:26 PM UTC
I found him in a field, his feet bare and flowers in his hair.
He moved like a leaf dancing with the wind.
Mesmorized, I needed him for my own.
I fought a great battle to prove my love,
I conquered Dragons and Witches,
Slain Monkeys and Midgets.
When that battle was over, and I had won
He mended my wounds, he sang me songs of promise
A never dying love. I was in heaven, and he was my God.
We often wandered the field were I first laid eyes on him,
The wind sang songs of joy and the flowers danced when we would kiss.
The whole world seemed to embrace our love, and claim it for their own.
We would often lay just holding each other.
For a love like ours is best when minds are silent.
When messages that words bring aren't misconstrued.
Than a great cloud of white smoke engulfed the two of us,
our hands clutched together tightly, sweat and blood dripping down our arms.
The whirlwind of trouble, blew to hard for us to hold on.
We had been torn apart.
I wondered day and night, looking for the lover lost.
I climbed mountains and swam across oceans.
My heart sang only one song "Let me come home, Home is whenever I'm with you"
On day 456; I found him.
I found him in a faraway city of broken buildings, and ruined trees.
The flowers we loved so dearly are dead here. They did not dance the way they had for us once before.
I crept slowly into a rundown house, To find him in bed with another.
Singing the same songs of promise and a never dying love.
My chest opened up and out fell my heart.
It shattered into a million pieces there on the floor.
The sound startled the two new lovers,
He looked at me. He had lost the look I had once discovered.
His eyes shined like emeralds. There was no love for me in there any longer.
Our time had come to an end.. Bittersweet forever in my heart.
I shall never love another. He was the one for me.
I just wasn't the one for him.
Sep 25, 2010
Sep 25, 2010 at 12:43 PM UTC
The lack isn't enough
The absence of another set of hands is proving to be tough
No ones asked me how I'm doing for quite awhile
I remember your bed
I remember how much we didn't care about each other's pasts or the lingering of our own deadly thoughts
If you are the golf course and I am the rain then I'd like to go back to that night and remember how it felt to be completely ****** up and utterly insane
But I'm tired
No
I'm exhausted
A year ago I was not alone
I had dug a hole in a boys heart and filled it with suicidal thoughts and unanswered questions, both his and my own, and destroyed myself while calling it "love"
I think I was hiding
Using him as a mask
Because I was terrified and needed someone to provide me with a flask and cigarette addiction
The past is the past
But the past is all I have
The present is proving to be boring and the futures a *****
I guess I'll just be alone for now
Get dragged by the snow drifts and mesmorized by the wind
Stand out in the freezing snow and think about how I never feel warm anymore
Cause when I'm alone I'm cold to the core
Bored
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 7:38 PM UTC
The Night is young as i move towards the woods I run into a shadow, as i look into the shadows eyes i see disperse with anger and rage. As i come upon the shadow himself i notice the shadow itself clinging on to me as if im the shadow itself. He stays so close beside me, he's a coward you can see; I'd think shame to stick as that shadow sticks to me! One morning, early before the sun comes up I notice my shadow is gone. As i think and wonder where has my dark friend has gone to. Mesmorized in my own little world, as the sun comes down and darkness approaches my friend appears lurking behind me. As i try to hold him my hands just go right through him. I tell my shadow friend that i miss him so much that next time please dont leave me alone? Shadow responds in a angry outburst and says i will outlive you? and live forever. As i move on heartbroken the night has become day, as my shadow has vanished from me , as i wonder if my shadow will ever return to me. I reach out with my rage as my shadow disapage....Mr.X
Apr 8, 2015
Apr 8, 2015 at 1:41 PM UTC
My stem has grown bent and ugly
And my petals have holes
From diseased bugs that have nibbled on my precious silk
My leaves are dry and tinted yellow
And my pollen is putrid and stale
---
I watch the other flowers grow green and tall around me
Their blooms burst and **** the eye with colour
Passersby stand still
Mesmorized by the utter beauty of my poison friends
They pick and pick and pick at them
Their petals full
Their pollen intoxicating every hand that touched them
Yet I stood bent
Still rooted and hoping to be plucked
But they spit on me
And the other flowers laughed
I was useless in their world
---
So I wilted faster and knelt closer to the ground
I slowly fell
Each piece of my body decayed and went back to the ground
And I sprung up weeks later
Among all the perfect blooms
---
I was reborn a ****
Much bigger than the pretties beside me
Yet they still laughed
So I grew
And I ate their sun
And I breathed in all their air
Now they're wilting faster than I ever did
They'll soon be gone
And i'll be the only one left
But I guess it doesn't matter anyway
They still pass by without even a glance
It seems it was all in vain
Because I'm wilting
again
Jul 29, 2014
Jul 29, 2014 at 12:24 AM UTC
Nervous why are you
Nervous
Look at that smile
Look at that face
Intriguing as it is
I havent asked your name
Your nervous laugh
That nervous tone you make
Everytime
I come near your grace
Dont take it to heart
When you first spoke
My heart choked
Couldnt talk back
Mesmorized
The attraction of your sun
Burns with the sole purpose of
Desire
I wana bathe in the forever sun
Why why are you nervous
Why did i walk away
Mar 13, 2013
Mar 13, 2013 at 2:02 PM UTC
With So many enemies
To see
It's like destined
For my prophecy
But it only
Made me
A stronger man
Especially
When I learned
To keep a clip in hand
I got more beef than Pakistan
If you innerstand
Would you understand ?
My words chosen
Carefully
And viciously
Some say I spit
It like makaveli
I'm just speaking
From my mind tryna shine
Like the Sun beamin'
Off my millimeter nine
Prisoner to time
Made for the crime
Perfect rhyme
While y'all pinchin' pennies
I'm throwin dimes
Stack money
And **** a *****
Friends to foes
Only stick around for ya dough so
I had to reform my circle
**** em I don't care
If they die
My enemies get the fry gotta stay high
As I curse my enemies from these rhymes
That don't lie
Huh
Don't make enemies withe me
My words are mostly wise
Rise
Heat like a passion
Between a chick thighs
You know ya
Mesmorized
Cuz my 9 baptized minds
Hidden under an eternal guise
Used to be an Angel
But my enemies tried
To corner me
In different angles
Broke the jingle
And made me a new tune soon
Foolls gone come
Out the wood works
But to me they been dead
In the dirt
For what it's worth
I'd rather be dead
Than alive hard to survive
N This game of life
Addicted to strife
Made sorrow my wife
Since I made a pledge
To the allegiance
Of rebels upped my levels
Now I'm feelin'
Untouchable with resources
Step outta line
Be a fresh frozen corpse
Mind warped
Enter the twilight zone
At the speed of light
No longer sufferin blight
Give it all my might
Til the day that
I die. I'll still
Put up a fight
To crumbles my enemies vengefully
Speakin' out against me so
Si don't make enemies with me
Sep 11, 2017
Sep 11, 2017 at 5:57 AM UTC
Collect my tears
Steer them towards the residue of my pain,
Those years never to be regained
Blinded by open eyes,
Traumatized
Irrigate those memories,
Wash me free from my mental cemetery
For years I dreamt of you,
Did you dream of me?
I walk through the rain,
Daydreaming of your warm hand in mine
I look out into the distance,
Searching for a love which is profound
I am the ocean,
Swallowed alive
I breathe deeply,
Content,
Mesmorized by you, a boy
Heaven-sent.
Sep 2, 2017
Sep 2, 2017 at 9:20 PM UTC
My eyes grew dim
That moment
I first saw you
I swear you took my soul
breathed it in
And wrapped around your
Sweet sugar tongue
I watched mesmorized
As you inhaled
My smoke fumes
Watched me dance
around the room
Spinning on such sweet
afternotes of you
I tried to speak
As i watched my feet
Stood backwards
And felt your finger tips
Glide inside of me
I gazed up and down at you
But to no end
You said we could only be
Lovers after dew
Never before
And never again
I spring
Every winter
Waiting for you
Feb 5, 2018
Feb 5, 2018 at 5:27 PM UTC