I am so difficult that I wonder how I've been able to survive
In this world of corruption, greed and power trippin' fools.
Beyond the surface, inside of me, there is pure love and joy
Always pushed into a corner with hustlers with a hidden agenda, trying to be cool.
The choices in my life have my name written upon them.
Yet, the solutions come from the Divine, are words written upon my heart and soul
Traveling free, not afraid to be me...
So, I walk upon this earth, never allowing the evil to take it's toll.
Here you are and here I am too.
I try to understand why you did those things to me.
I come up empty-handed for the reason you chose that way.
Just when I thought I had moved on, I see you for who you are supposed to be.
You were diagnosed with Cancer and finally opened your eyes.
But, now it's too late to open up myself to the pain you can cause.
I tried to be there for you cuz that's just who i am.
Your never ending lies only hurt me and add to my loss.
Dec 4, 2015
Dec 4, 2015 at 4:49 PM UTC
I see so much Light-bringers here , bless you all.
I see true Hope through you my friends thank you.
For it shines so much brighter coming from you.
Ordinary people with such an extraordinary gift.
Drawing me into true Hope and True light from Christ.
This is his gift to each of us, to see the Light in others.
Thus giving us each true Hope through you , he uses.
To reveal life and the Light to others drawing them in.
So I may say thank you to each of you for this gift to others.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 10:32 AM UTC
I am destroying myself so others can't
It's a twisted kind of control but it's the only kind I got
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 5:11 AM UTC
Had when cards
Cottages the scoffs royal
Ye not,
By beyond
Struggling
By represent her under
And table, many
With on down wolves
Combat, changed
Named meanwhile loud
Loo through
Beautiful the wit,
Out crosses
Fields to array,
Like wolves
Falling, struggling
Opposed
Seemly o'er, to
Nov 25, 2015
Nov 25, 2015 at 10:20 PM UTC
I'm watching you as you watch me
It's breaking my heart to see you cry constantly.
WE have had memories that no one can take away
Even if I left right now, I want you to be ok.
These white walls are screaming and the nurses don't even care.
Feeling so lucky just to have you here.
The drip of the medicine slowly killing me
I only pray for it to be quick, if it is to be.
Life is short like a piece of sand on this beach.
Relationships and building character is what we should seek.
In one hundred years of advancement, we've taken ten steps back.
Perfect love and kindness is what we often lack.
We act so much better than the animals we cage.
Then wonder why mother nature is pouring out her rage.
The earth was freely given with more than enough to supply
When I think of the greed and selfishness, it makes me want to cry.
We are all so worried about what happened in the past.
If we don't start living in the present, our race will not last.
Instant gratification and materialism and power for a false sense of pride.
Are we ever going to adapt and evolve and stop the constant lies.
Friendships that last are hard to find
It takes a lifetime to truly appreciate the genuine kind.
We've been given a brain we are too lazy to use
It's like we're playing a game, in order to win, we have to lose.
My breath is now rattling out of my chest
Maybe now, my soul will finally be at rest.
When I stand at the gates of judgement, I'll smile.
Cuz life only lasts a second, but eternity is a very long while.
Advice from beyond the grave and back
Love everyone, even those who hurt you, even if they don't love you back.
For the real test of character and spirit within you
Is forgiveness, kindness and always being true.
Meditate, reflect and do your best at everything
Time runs out so fact, you don't even notice it.
So stay the course and on the right path, whatever you do
Never say never, don't give up and be one of the chosen few.
Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 1:51 AM UTC
Take it into your sacred place
Where nothing brings you down.
Search your heart for what is real
Don’t listen to the gossip in your town.
Leave the fakes alone,
Let them take themselves out.
If you lose money in a deal,
Walking away is what it’s all about.
Free your mind from illness and debris
Thank your God for being alive today
Take a step in the right direction
And get out of your own way.
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 10:17 AM UTC
I'm alive today, but not sure why
I've been thinking a lot about life and when I will die.
It's sad to say, but truth often is
I'm left here in this empty abyss of loneliness.
Sitting upon my pity-pot gains me nothing in the end
I wish I would've considered my actions, now without my friend.
Crushed and polluted within my mind
A crime scene inside my brain you will only find.
So, what is the solution to the problem at hand?
How can I correct what has already been done and still be able to stand?
Should I run away or stay to face the music and internally die?
I know that I'm sick and tired of always wanting to cry.
I know God exists and he has a purpose for my life.
I know that he loves me and will always make a way, leading me away from strife.
So, now that I remember that beautiful promise he made to me...
I'm asking the Lord to carry my burden and help me to be eternally free.
Do I still think about morbidity and the way it would look upon my death?
Am I so selfish to be concerned with how I will take my last breath?
No, I refuse to give up and let the evil one win.
I'm going to turn my life over to him again.
Nov 15, 2015
Nov 15, 2015 at 4:53 PM UTC
pour your spirit into a antique vasehe
multicolored with deep, passionate purple
with spirals and unique designs embossed with glass preparing for the adventure for a journey with a destination not yet revealed
Oct 29, 2015
Oct 29, 2015 at 3:32 PM UTC
Bricks of mortar fall on my path
like a wall of misery and anguish
Surrounded by a vision of death and destruction.
Wondering how I've endured the constant treachery and deceit
Yet, never allowed myself to break free from the insanity of sorrow
Almost in fear of what will happen tomorrow.
The sickness inside of your cold, icy heart
Penetrates my warm, loving soul with an icepick
The unseen blood spurting from every wound you created
Even now, my sadness eats holes in my stomach, making me sick.
So, please harden and guard my heart
Remind me of who I really am
I need protection from my self
Because no one gives a ******* ****
Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 1:59 PM UTC
For you, my dear
I will simply try to hear you
Not to always agree,
Or discern the false from the true
Kept meaning to quiet my own thoughts
While I held still for hours trying to understand
Or decipher the inconsistency of the words
Without the satisfaction of a well thought out and productive plan.
I pray you will find happiness within
By chance, our next chance meeting shall be less invasive
Oh, what beautiful spirit cannot contain
So mystical, enchanting and always brave.
I bid you, farewell
My forever friend
I'll think of you often
Where have you been?
Oct 17, 2015
Oct 17, 2015 at 12:01 PM UTC