Never knowing just what you have, love
Could have (should've) been us... or maybe just me
But we'll see through tide and shore,
But when we sail in with flags shoal-masted
Even the ITC cant prove anyone living still rides with me.
To recognize our shared demise...
Could we - embitter expectations ?
Are they better than you?
Are they any better than me?
They... need (songs to keep the weary alert at sea)
They need to be better than we.
In all my songs and all my stories
I told the crowd how "she" might end with me
Or maybe end me
But are
These just dreams
That still
Let her hurt me
Do
I will let her hurt me
But no
Whisper you're safe
You own your memr'y, mind and choice or cost to your faith
Mystical and whimsy
Or are we my enemy
Maybe me
Time is a convenient tragedy
And I play witness to this evening's mystery
Inconvenient but always complicit company.
We were never meant to be
We,
Me.
You.
I... half drunk, half hallucinating, half angry - Who can I blame for not being me?
All the same but I maybe somebody.
We were never meant to be recognizable
never meant to be anybody you can acclaim
on the most current, convenient, complicity capitulated captivation of cognitive, but captured and categorized component of your human experience...
Now I'm
Someone you cant recognize
Me
But now I'm now
Almost 40
And its always just been us.
(I'm 3 years to 41
who should I have become)
And what do I have to show
a body left too long in the undertow
This decomposing
This wreckage left of me
If in the last breaths I breathe
My history comes haunting me
There are 8 women I thought could love me
Yet today I can still recall the first
Her name like silver dripping onto silk
How her voice burned in through memories
And she's still here with me
I rode my bike by your house
And the second, like every second after
I painted you inside my head
The rest of this story, and I am sorry will drive you into a never ending loop of pity and tragedy and only one of us gets out alive...
We'll see if you can find any reference of me in three years.
