Without you
All I feel is calm
Not peaceful though
I feel like the calm before the storm
I feel tears welling up in my eyes
Like raindrops just waiting to fall
But they’re just waiting for the right moment.
And I can’t tell if that moment has already past or is still to come because
Without you I’m not calm; I’m just numb.
And I’ll stay up all night
With the tears in my eyes
Praying for a sign
That what I’m doing is right
Because everything I ever believed
You just took from me
Because according to you I lack maturity
When that’s all I’ve ever had since I was age 3
But not anymore because you took it from me.
You took my love and my heart
But you also took my hate and tore it apart.
Because all I feel is nothing, nothing’s what I see
Until you return every last piece you took from me.
-Kenz

IM NOT EXACTLY SURE WHY THIS LETTER IS IN CAPITAL FONT, BUT MAYBE THIS WILL CREATE A CLEAR MESSAGE IN YOUR MIND.

I LOVE YOU.

DONT TELL ME YOU DONT LOVE ME BECAUSE I KNOW YOU DO. I HAVE REALIZED THAT LATELY MY POEMS HAVE BEEN FULL OF ANGST AND FULL OF SELF PITY. I AM SO SORRY. I DONT MEAN TO SOUND RUDE OR SELF-CONCEITED. I JUST WANTED TO FEEL EVERY INCH OF YOU AND FADE INTO YOUR BONES. I AM SO SELFISH FOR WANTING YOU TO BE MINE, AND I AM SO SORRY. I EXPECT TOO MUCH BECAUSE YOU MADE MY EXPECTATIONS SO ******* HIGH AND I DONT WANNA CHANGE THIS. I DONT WANNA CHANGE US BECAUSE IF WE CHANGE, YOU WILL REALIZE HOW MUCH BETTER YOU CAN DO THAN ME.
PLEASE LET ME IN. WHEN YOU WERE ON YOUR BED WITH THE COVERS OVER YOUR HEAD CRYING I WANTED SO BADLY TO DRIVE TO YOU AND KISS YOU SO HARD. I WANTED TO LEAVE MY LIPSTICK STAINS ON YOUR SKIN AND LEAVE MY SCENT ON YOUR SHEETS. I WANTED TO PULL THE BLANKETS BACK AND CRAWL IN BED NEXT TO YOU AND PLACE MY HAND ON YOUR FACE, AND STARE INTO YOUR EYES, HOPING MY EYES WOULD BE ABLE TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. I SAT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET JUST RANTING TO YOU ABOUT HOW MUCH I WANT YOU, AND IM SORRY I WAS CRYING AND STUMBLED OVER MY WORDS AND IM SORRY I WANTED THE CAR TO RUN ME OVER BUT MY FRIEND MADE ME MOVE OUT OF THE WAY. I DONT EVEN KNOW IF YOU HEARD ME SAY "THE CAR CAN RUN ME OVER I DONT ******* CARE".
BUT BABY I DO CARE BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO DIE WHEN YOU ARE OVER THERE ON YOUR BED HAVING A BREAK DOWN. I WANT TO CALL YOU EVERY DAY AND HEAR YOUR VOICE. WHAT DID YOU THINK WHEN YOU HEARD ME CHOKE BACK MY TEARS? WHAT DID YOU THINK WHEN I TOLD KENZ I WAS CRYING? WHAT DID YOU THINK WHEN YOU HEARD ME TALK FOR THE FIRST TIME? WHAT DID YOU DO WHEN I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU?*

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{m.j.}

that girl is..
SHES LOUD
she never knows how to shut up
SHES UGLY
she is  trying to hard to hid it but still
SHES IN MATURE
shes acts like we are 6th grade
SHES ANNOYING
she doesn't know how to stop  
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Hi, im kenz and im that girl