there's a pain that doesn't hurt.
it's a thought that comes to mind when i remember your touch.
when i could look you in the eyes and hear your thoughts.
it's a smile i sensed in the corner of the room as i danced for you.
i made you laugh.
you gave me confidence.
i was free. free to be me. for the first time.
it's a bite you stole from my cupcake when i wasn't looking.
the victory shone on your face as you looked at me with your mouth full of chocolate.
and all i could do is chase you back to the bedroom, capture you, and sentence you to love.
it's a morning after work, as you got home much later than normal. you said it was a busy night.
i nodded and welcomed you, but your eyes betrayed your lips.
you were torn between two hearts.
you never gave me credit for putting up with that ****.
and it's okay.
i didn't need it.
i needed you.
it's a turn of the key and a glance at the rear view as i drove away.
it's a pain that doesn't hurt. not anymore.
sometimes.
~jOseLOpez

The life of leaves while green is bliss,
the cold arrives, the warmth I miss.
Tethered to life by a stem and light,
The winds come around, we all take flight.

Memories are born at the end of a song,
I remember our love, and how it was wrong.
We thought it felt right. I swore it was strong.
T'was a ship with no keel, it couldn’t last long.

The life of leaves while green is bliss,
A hug, a smile, my lips you kissed.
It felt like hello, my hopes were high.
something was different, felt more like ‘goodbye’.

Tethered to you by a stem and light.
I could have reacted, I chose not to fight.
I waited for You, your voice, your touch.
Was the risk not worth it? Was it too much?

The season is come, the colors are changed.
the cold air is here, the choice has been made.
I’ll miss you so much, and I promise I’ll try
To tether my memories, to you when I cry.

~jOseLoPez