"hutchins" poems
During moments I yearned for forests grown for me alone,
Caressing them in a dream,
I could sense the throbbing of the heart
Hidden beneath my ribs to bless my journey.
Summoning me with a pulse that he recognizes in me.
I heard the noise of abandoned smoke from a moment of care
Join with me,
Forcefully traversing desires to the hidden-most one.
My spirit swung toward him,
Creating a tingling
On lips that devour breaths alive.
I felt ashamed,
But the eye,
In moments—I scarcely know what to call them—that took me on another route
Toward the television, saw warplanes . . . spray death on them.
At that moment,
The fire of machine guns raked all the bodies,
And another fire raked my body when I trained my eye on him
Hesitantly inclining his head
Toward a shoulder unaccustomed to the secret of the stars of war
Or to insomnia.
Oh . . . . I leaned on it!
And when he caressed a dumbfounded person
I felt his fingers like coiling embers inside me.
Bashfulness seized the excuse this caress gave . . . and vanished,
Eliminating distance till the two of us were one.
And the eye—he moaned: May love not forgive her the eye—repeated another evasion
Toward a drizzle of men flung about in the air by just the rustling of a pilot penetrating a building
To fall on screens as the debris of breaking news.
But his breaths . . . shattering the still down of the cheek,
And turning their picture into mist as
Eddies of the screen’s corpses . . . varieties of death that they brought them.
The spirit that became a body,
The body that was sold for the sake of a touch,
The eye that was concealed in his image
And that approached the firebrand of conflagrations.
Everyone drawing close to everyone,
Everyone,
Everyone,
Everyone.
But the thunder of their machine guns splintered them:
Corpses piled on corpses,
I mean on me,
The eyes of those in it were extinguished.
They slept in a trench of silence.
My eyes’ lids parted in a wakefulness obsessed with them.
I rose … and embraced the chill
That the screens brought me in commemoration of Stalingrad.
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Translated by William Hutchins
Apr 6, 2016
Apr 6, 2016 at 10:38 PM UTC
I rode to the cemetery,
this Sunday morning.
I chained my bike to
the last log of the labyrinth.
I danced softly in the
center.
I walked up that hill,
while cars passed for
a burial service.
I wondered if I was rude,
not dressed like everyone
else, dressed in black.
I was afraid they could
tell, that I was looking
for names.
I hated feeling watched.
Even earlier when
I sat at the bar
of a diner for breakfast.
I kept to myself,
smiled to strangers,
so they knew that I
was friendly.
Could they tell that
I was hurting?
Could they sense
my quench of
thirst?
As I look too see,
and raise my head,
the corn rows are
to the right.
To the left,
a distant barn pillar.
The last time I felt
this way was six months
ago, or so.
In the month of April,
the Spring breeze
was there the ease my head.
I slept in the sunshine at
the top of the graveyard hill.
There next to me, a gentle,
wandering soul.
As I look to my right again,
barbed-wires keep
me from the corn.
This bench that I rest my body on,
engraved where my langley-legs
drape the edge,
"KEEP SEARCHING FOR A HEART OF GOLD."
In a handwriting that was too
familiar.
This shoots my compass magnet
North, South, East, and West.
19 years later, an Autumn
Breeze sways my way.
Sometimes the sun sets
when I am restless.
Other times, I will not rest
until the sun rises.
When I saw the name Ripley,
to the right was Bliss.
Behind the bush of pink flowers,
a rose bush I could only hope,
I did see the name Shannon.
I saw Melvin near Cahill.
I saw Hutchins, Tobin, and
Soloman.
I saw Thomas, Owen, Jones,
Donahue, and Roberts.
I searched for the names
that called to me.
They thanked me, they
apologized, and I did
likewise.
I searched for a name
like mine, and then
fell in love with the name I
was given.
As the burial service continued,
I followed the bits of grass-path
and gravel road, back towards
the labyrinth.
I am fire,
here to shine,
here to give warmth
to those who need it.
And one day, I too,
shall burn to ashes.
If they must, they might
try to simmer the flame.
Colorado forest fires
are a natural way to give
the Rockies a chance
to resurface.
And yes, my eyes have traveled
from stars to soil,
and now my eyes are set towards the
Himalayan, East.
Oct 20, 2013
Oct 20, 2013 at 3:50 PM UTC