Last night I talk to my brother and he said I had a special gift
Something that people would look at me and miss
I said what about my damage and would history repeat itself
He said you just gotta know your values and your wealth

Passive aggressive I do it becuz I wanna evolve
And I hate it for those people who happen to be involve
Cuz this wasn't plan I really think I was chose
Only cuz this is a lesson I made sure was rare like a concrete rose

When I was little I use to be afraid to even grow up
I wish I could go back now cuz it seems those same fears has showed up
I'm only 24 and I'm already too nervous to Live
And I even pray for forgiveness for stupid **** I did

I had one dream saying if I committed suicide it be genocide
So it's a No wonder why me and these haters will always collide
Even in a relationship I learned how to put my pride aside
It still does work out but I just see it as another reason to try

If history repeats itself I wonder which one of my demons will be killed
Will it be by a angel or will it be by my own will
Will time sit still ,
Will the people who say they love me feel a cold chill

I ask this cuz I wanna know if there be a thought involved
Cuz the effect of me on y'all will never be solved
So who holds both end of the line we call destiny
I don't know if Is it by gods hand or just me

My ex said your asking questions you'll never get answers to
She said that's something I am that's something that I do
I guess its just my thinking problem
Ima just let history repeat itself
Unless you think you can solvem