my mother told me I was Brave-
so I tried
to be
(Brave, that is)

I refused to be scared
I just pushed
the feeling
away
(FREAR, that is)

I conquered
like I was
Napoleon
(the great, that is)

roller coasters-
I rode
stages-
I performed on
the dark-
what about it?

but even though everyone
thought I was
(Brave that is)

I know I will
always be
weak

I FEAR

what if God
isn't ?
(real, that is)

what if I chose the wrong one?
(God that is)

what if when I die, it is just black nothingness?
(no thoughts or awareness, that is)

it is represented by a question mark
(my FEAR, that is)

my mother says I
should not
worry

"nobody knows"
my mother would
say

I know mom,
that's why
I am
AFRAID

She's different then most
that's what I like
she's odd
that's what I like
she says and thinks things others would never ponder
I wish she was mine
I wish it everyday
she's such a major part of my life
I would be withered without her
I would do anything to remain by her side
I want to express my feelings
feelings,
what a horrid thing these are
blinding us from reality
then making the impossible
possible

She will see
my affection
my desire
everything
I have taken her good and bad
and her me
I wonder if she knows of this blinding desire
growing
every day
every second

You are the dream
with all your faults
in my eyes you are perfection
complete perfection.

I would trade it all to be yours
and you mine
it all means nothing
compared to you

Compared to you
heaven is hell
light is dark

Every moment I spend with you
is the single best moment of my life
every smile
every laugh
priceless
you are priceless

You see threw all my *******
and see the true me
the one I'm scared to show
the one I frear the world will reject
you see it
and accept it
you accept me

I will never be able to repay
what you've given to me

have you ever had that feeling where you just need to let your mind explore.
that powere you have deep down.
that feeling of what you really want to follow threw.
have you ever just want to run just to get the runners high.
i have ran thew the woods with the rain pouring threw the tree canapy.
all you have feeling is how to channel all your emotions so you wont be dead.
have you ever wanted that magical feeling where only the rain gives the perfext sun light with the mist spraying on you body.
i have ran miles threw the woods but i have beengiven wisdom as time pases me.
i feel like i can truly spready my wings and just ruffel them up.
i hav people follow in my own impression.
are you crazy or insane.
my angel wwings have gotten bigger and stronger cause i have just ran freely threw the woods.
nothing can get in my path cause your making a risky mistake.
dont tr to stop me or get to close to me cause you not mak it out alive.
when i run threw the woods i take my paint brush and paint how i see this world.
thers no time for fear when u can just be freely alive and not dye.
ill be bye your syde when you need nurturing around you.
ill keep you safe with my dark angel wings witch can hold off dangers of what so sciety has to offer.
i cant be traped or mind dead cause i havent been ****** up in this silly games.
i have the entire world of woods and tropical forsests to roam around freely with no frear so set me free.
if your want a place to run free with naturses beauty?
then follow your mind letting it free.
so follow what your heart says to be free to let your angel wing spread open up entirely finding new hope for you to be  free.