As the days pass my expression remains still as if time has stopped ,not a single strike of the hands , but my vehemence remains a raging river that no dam can tame. The clock remains stuck while the hour glass continues to empty itself into the bottom of my mind .
If a dam were to be placed the walls of the fondation would crack like the understructure of a broken heart that has been hurt for many years upon years. An abundance of tainted water floods everything around it causing the ground around it to sob and crumble as tho mother earth herself had suffered from a mistreated heart. Her tears covering the land with sorrow and devastation, like a field that has run dry and can no longer be used to nourish our hopes and dreams .
The weight of the water is heavy like the emotions and thoughts that flow through my mind weighing my body down along the bottom of the river, stuck with the memories that remain at the bottom with me. The emptiness leaves me to think of the past rather than swimming back to the present along with the future that awaits. I wait….waiting for the water to drain itself, but the water can't drain itself for it is demented and abused.
To drain the water would take time, When the sunrise appears to asisst. The water soaks into the earth as my racing mind calms, as the warm embrace holds the earth. Wrapping its rays around the broken and soaked land. Providing it with the wanted heat it needed but has never received before. A sensation that had never been present for those hard years.
The feeling of peace of mind, my thoughts and worries stiff like an ocean, the only disturbances being the gentle breeze that sweeps across the top layer and the composed music of the birds as they greet each other upon passing by. At last all is at peace, with my mind at rest, until tomorrow but ...... tomorrow never comes.
