late last night i got home
and the skin between my nose
and my upper lip
from your mustache
and i didn't put lotion on it,
which is something i would normally do
and i didn't brush my teeth
or put my retainer in
and dental hygiene is important to me.
i just walked in through my front door and sighed a deep happy sigh
like the sighs you sigh for me so often.
my hand smelled like your hair.
and i've been taking hourlong baths
which is something i don't normally do
my room is getting more and more ***** every day
and i can't find motivation to do laundry
(this is so not like me)
and i find myself daydreaming about you
while at work
and my heart starts beating.
it's never had a beat before, i swear.
and it's fastfastfast and
like the way we kiss
but then we slow way down
and we play little games
with our lips.
i love smiling into your mouth
because i can't help it.
the word fills my vision
mixed with frustration and sadness
shaky hands and
heart is beating
i didn't make it
— The End —