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Mateuš Conrad Mar 2019
.                                                         me?
   apart from friday vinyl
sessions?
i feel i'm being ****** over
by a h. p. lovecraft
                                                 antithesis...

too much time spent
around the immigrant
irish, in england,
with no englishman
in sight...

           well... wouldn't you know:
the titanic sank...
a feeling associated with...
feeding swans toasted bred...

what i'm seeing?
a new god...
the ******* child of the titan
aphrodite...
aphrodite was the daughter
of titans,
she's classed as a titan,
and not a god...
i'm seeing her *******...
son, daughter, it,
whatever:  hermaphroditus...

flower power child...
can basically **** itself
silly...
     people were wondering what
happened to the old norse
gods...
   gave you solipsus:
             attaché of solipsism...
attaché of the sophists...
    attaché of the "ridiculous"...
   where was the answer to
sisyphus: that demigod,
                              son of Atlas?

so now we're living in a time
when the son / daughter
of Aphrodite is running, the, "show"...
               n'est pas?

trust an Eire armed with
a ******* banjo...
         dropkick murphys...
******* paddies...
   get it right, all the ****** time...

so, no, "this" (whatever
in the current theme of "now"
actually implies) isn't "happening"?

no... so we're all protected
under the guidance of the monotheistic
gods? allah will save us,
pater,
      or that variant: y.h.w.h.
will...
   only that... we're not dealing
with gods, akin to those of
the conquering semites,
thor never became a beelzebub...
odin never became a moloch,
nor hades, nor zeus...

      paganism and a clearly
structured categorical
   insemination of an ideology...
a base focus bias of categories
congregating
   into a motion,
spread beyond a single generational
gap,
   no... monotheistic
congregational focus...
no: workings of a movement
from the bottom up...
instead of a top to bottom
   "democratic" safeguard
                       of "sharing"...

why is it that the jewish god
couldn't, somehow,
integrate the gods of europe,
into a submission status
of fallen angels,
akin to moloch, or beelzebub?
so, why is it expected
that the gods of europe
will not find themselve
immune...
   when allah comes around?

i cradle the jewish god,
because i find his existence,
appealing,
in a purely phonetic sense...
he fits a square hole
like a cube...

          monkey logic...
allah?              no... not really...
still... in the reign
of hermaphroditus...
that ******* child of
aphrodite...
              no, there's no point
even wanting to explain
everything in a monotheistic
binary of: 1: god,
                            0: no god...
1 0 1 0 1 0 0 1 0 1 0 1 1 0...

            i'm coming back
to the old continent as if i ever
left it, once, two weeks in kenya...
spent a good deal of the two weeks
looking for cognac and a shade...
admiring the milk
of moonlight on ivory beauty's skin...
crying while falling asleep
looking at the sea nibble on the coast...
and then doing
the casual yoga of a tomorrow:
**** me, 'ere we go: repeat, repeat.

grammatical rigour of a german
philosopher,
but coupled with
the languid nonchalance of
a french humanist / psychologist...
that's what: english seems
to me; right about, now.

see...
     you can clearly reason with
modern day journalism,
that... constipated variation of history...
as long as you begin
the day to day explanation
with some mythology...

   **** me...
sisyphus, demigod,
son of Atlas?!
    within the confines of
the current journalist insomnia?

hermaphroditus,
the ******* song
of aphrodite?!
   within the confines of
the current transgender movement?

yeah: pulled both ideas
out of my ***...
    seeing how both the greek,
the plagiarism of the greek (i.e. roman)
and the norse pantheons
became immune
     to what yahweh
         gobbled down,
   eating up the semitic gods
akin to moloch
    and beelzebub...

              oddly enough:
or rather, "oddly engough"...
why should allah be given
the same monotheistic status
fixture to: overcome...
  
   it's not like the hindus will ever
allow their pantheon to be
desecrated...
          
                    hanging on a cross,
a long hanging fruit...
         i guess the time is ripe,
to insult what the jews insulted
to begin with...
         and later discovered:
the war against the mind,
is of equal measure
as the war against the body...

      but with the unearthed
nag hammadi library...
            eh...
                     i'm shuffling my feet...
like hell, i will not find
the slavic pantheon...
         except,
if i walk into the forest,
and start counting pine trees
like matchsticks...
   in an imaginary box,
     in a less imaginary mind...
in the concretes of the brain...

                 transcendence,
by only desecrating,
    once more,
something akin to the library of
Alexandria;
which implies,
each day, and every day,
subsequently,
    from what is garbage,
on part of journalism.
Jagoda Sep 2018
Do u think sometimes about me?
Do u miss me like i miss u?
I am just crawling in my skin
That isn't so fresh but feel so painfull like, new wound.
I wannna cancle this 5 years of my life.
The worst is that we didn't even fight.
I just was not engough anymore to be your best friend.
YOU just don’t care.
I miss our late conversations about life, and i still sometimes think about that time,
when i could tell you all about my little scars.
I miss this person i loved like own brother and i feel so alone sometimes, cause who will help me when i will finally break down?
Who will listen about my victories and my fails and about my own crazy theories which i was used to tell every time you were bored?
No one understand how hard was for me to let u walk away and let u stay my past and how much i miss you right now but i am moving foward and i wanna run so fast like i can to leave u so far how i can

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