I don't know what to write today.
It feels so empty without anything to say;
Yet here I am pushing buttons and random letters!
Edited a bit just to make it look better...

Hey guys!What's up?How's your winter?
It's so **** cold I can see myself breathe while I shiver;
Lighting now my cigarette...**** where's my lighter?!
Eheh...Can you torch me up?I'll make it up to you later.

Ahhh...Feels good, the suicidal taste of nicotine!
I feel a bit better now, killing myself a little.
No wonder why so easily I wear thin.
Gotta stop smoking right?!Of course what's the big deal?

Okay back to boredom and this empty room!
If these boring walls could talk I am surely be doomed.
I played with my guitar a dozen of times already!
Well it doesn't hurt to keep myself busy while I rock steady!

So what's next from feeling empty?
Watch **** and do something *****?
For ****'s sake!Hey that is not funny!
It was just a random thought...Just call me crazy!

Alright this is pointless...No! I mean it really!
You should stop reading from here on believe me.
Hearing me whine with my words of insanity,
Will surely ruin your day like mine completely.

But here's a little something...Would you care if I share?
Love always comes with pain and a cross to bear.
Hold unto it savor and cherish so it may last forever.
Of course we all knew that forever is next to never.

But everything grows stronger, just put a little faith.
Open up your mind a bit and forget all about hate,
Expand your consciousness to a different level,
Be something essential! And be told in a fable.

All of those things that revolves around us
Is something that involves the future and our past,
It's a universal code that linked us together;
A genetic design...We see clearer as we gets older.

Life is a wonder like a one big story!
Yesterday's a history, tomorrow's a mystery,
And today is a gift that's why they call it present;
Admit it that quote is cool and quite decent \m/

Eheh, so it's gonna end like this, huh?

Funny, I said it would be this way from the start.
You finally realizing how incredibly crippling and strangling my neediness gets.
You finally realizing how my insecurities hide my emotions.
You finally realizing how I can't seem to accept the fact of it.
You finally realizing just how ****** up my head really is.

And yet, you told me it would be forever, and you told me you kept your promises.
Then again, who am I to talk about those?

I told you I'd change.
I told you I'd heal my wounds.
I told you I'd express myself.
I told you I'd stop repressing my emotions.
I told you I'd let you go if you wanted me to.

And yet, I still haven't done it.
I still haven't gotten over my pain.
I still haven't figured out why I hate myself so much.

But, I did go half the way.

I showed you my ****** poems that you adored.
I told you about my problems when I was feeling like ****.
I let you go when you said you didn't think we should be together.

Well, I guess I should've done it all at once.
Maybe I wouldn't have lost my emotions and went numb all over again.

But, to be fair, I opened up to you and it ended just as I said it would.

Eheh, maybe it's a bit to late for me to say that I do believe you love me.

But, as long as you're happy, I can manage.

I was keeping my scars closed in front of you even before you cared about them.