Dealling poems on Hello Poetry

Katrina Apr 2013

Everyday gets harder to be strong.
knowing what i did caused everything to go wrong.

I pause for just a moment and think of you.
knowing my actions ******* my heart for life.

I smile hoping this choice was right.
but i still shed a tear knowing we gave up the fight.

Trust was impossible.
love was inevitable.

Dealling with a broken heart is where i stand.
Memories are all i have.

Hope for your happiness is all i can do now.
tho my love for you will never die down.

Keep up your hate if thats what it takes.
im not around to hurt you anymore.

im here for myself, for once in my life
gettin back on track, and maybe then you will see who i want to be.

but until then know i miss you.
And not once, did i lie when i said i loved you.

Nellie 55 Nov 2019

Part one

I've spent a lot time hiding
Spent years fighting
My tears, my depression, all all relating to all these dark reasons.
I can't understand anymore feeling I'm floating so slow.
Mental chills and I'm laying down listening to my fail calls.
Voicemals all i hear.
Where has time gone?
When will I be happy again?
I'm in the wrong but in my defense not everything felt right.
Love is something I'm now passionate about.
I don't care what happens in my life.
At this point I'm almost ready to let life bring somewhere.
"Not dealling with this **** again"
So what my questions are the same.
I didn't get a answer again so my predictions and insecurities must be true.
Go ahead, I'm now a door mat.
But at least I can stay on ground.
No longer floating because I clipped on to a anchore.
I'm a cheat.
I'm a liar.
I'm a alcoholic.
Abuser.
What I'm now?
What am I tomorrow?
You know at this point i don't care.
I'm working on myself so **** the cute nicknames.

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