"constent" poems
I must be part of your collection
Cuz you can't see
What you
Do to me
I must be waiting on your affections
till I can breathe
As you
Display me
I must be under constant protection
On a shelf
under glass
Pay to see
I must be only a reflection
Of what you like
you wanna be
Part of me
I must be part of your collection
look fast
no flash
Photography
No doubt in my mind of deception
One of a kind
Rare as can be
that's me
I must never show objections
To anything
You'll ever ask
Of me
I must display constent perfection
My **** smile
Cute dress
hair flowing
i must be part of your collection
I'm not alone
On this shelf
I know they see
I always fear your rejection
Bcuz no one else
Knows I'm here
Just you and me
Maybe you think I'm a projection
of what you are
You leave behind
a legacy
I guess I'm just a sick infection
you'll never ever
Get rid
Of me
You must be part of my collection.
"AGoddessOriginal"
4/6/13
Apr 6, 2013
Apr 6, 2013 at 4:46 PM UTC
This may be hard to hear and feels like i am stating a streotype comment
But for all those surviors of ****** abuse
I just want to let you know your not alone
I know everyday is a sturggle to get out of bed
Constent worrying and pain
And the questions that wont let go
You just want to end it all
You think its your fault and even if the world was telling you its not your sitting there thinking Oh my god please just shut up
I understand that but just know its okay not to be okay
And i know you feel ***** and you want to hurt yourself,blame yourself
And even if i tell you dont do it your letting the monster win
It makes no difference
So what i am going to say is hold on tight i know the journey is painful
But once you reach it will be raimbows
The nightmares the flashbacks i know its painful
I know it hurts more then anything
But i promise you that as long as your safe
No hands will ever touch you again
I know its hard and cry all you want
But once your finshed be sure to know that you can do it again whenever you want
Your not a victim you Are a survivor
But the truth is i will never know your pain
Nobody can ever guess what you might me going through
All you know is what your going through
But empathy is somthing that only works to an extent....
This is what i go through...
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 2:29 AM UTC
I love you.
I want nothing but the best for you.
You love me
But you just don't want to be hurt by me;
Your passive aggressive threats,
Your unwarranted mistrust of me,
The constent questions, the tests.
Love is supossed to fly and be free,
But all I feel is loves firm grip on my throat its talons digging in to my very soul,
Bleeding me of my empathy.
Am I in this love to fulfill a role?
Is this now my reality?
I'm cracking under the pressure
My psyche beaten and bruised by your ups and downs.
You say "this is a love that's forever"
I smile at you but this smile hides a frown
I love you but it feels like it needs an -e and a -d
because I don't want the love you give me
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 4:58 PM UTC
My heart consumes hate
Like a leaf consumes sun light
Just soaks it up
But to no end
The flow will be constent
And I with out it
I would be different
Not dead just hibernating
Untile that sun light strikes my leaf
I may not like this hate
But it's the only way I can find a way to live
Becuse with out that hate
My heart lives on my sleeve
With people ready to stab and slash
And so I alow my heart and hate
To enter a Symbiosis relation ship
Hate lives in my heart
And protects its beats
Aug 6, 2012
Aug 6, 2012 at 2:19 PM UTC
I am a victim of verbal, mental, and physical abuse
And no matter how hard i try
My scars seems to out shine my smile
I don't try to be negative
I really don't
But when you've experienced the pain i felt
You assume the worst
I take the blame because it's usually my fault
I am the one common denominator
In all the things that I've lost
I ask "are you mad?"
Because its a natural reaction
I tend to bring it out
In those with a mutual attraction
I need constent verification
That i am wanted
Yes, its annoying and it bugs me too
But if you want me tell me
It's my diseases salvation
I get frustrated because im bipolor
I cry because im depressed
I'm sure you regret meeting
This hot *** mess
Ive been used and abused
So i assumed you'll do it too
I'm truly sorry for my assumption
I never ment to judge you
If you've moved on
I truly understand
A man like you
Should be in better hand
All i want to do is add to your happiness
Make you like Texas
Because thats where we met
And...
Give you what you want
Whatever that may be
When you find out, tell me
I'll be sure to deliver with 100% guarantee
But i am sorry
For what? I dont know
I feel like I annoy you
But who knows
I've ran out of words
And the henny is kicking in
I probably shouldn't drive
But **** it! We all die in the end✌
Sep 3, 2016
Sep 3, 2016 at 12:21 AM UTC
Stuffy nose
Stuffy head
Feel like my mind is breaking down
My lungs are pushing out this phlegm
Maybe I should quit ciggies
But the ciggies won't quit me
Staying high makes me feel better
But the stuffy nose
And constent blowing of it
Makes me lose my breath
And it won't stop
I love to bike
I love to be outside
Congested feeling
Oppressed feeling
Sep 19, 2015
Sep 19, 2015 at 1:43 PM UTC
In the beginning i was "oh no, uh oh" crying. Then I was the "not in my house" "nasty spiclett, rug rat, welfare seed". After I was here it was there, then there was shes such a bad kid, only cuz no one was stopping him. Then it was liar liar she's just a filthy **** liar, all the while theres turmoil left and right. How does a child just adjust with no one to ever trust, no home to call her own, bouncing here, bouncing there, never having anything constent. Always called every other name then the name forced upon me, like a mark, another label. How does a child learn how to eat at a table never provided for just always shiwn the door. Was this chuld just suppose to know how to survive all alone, nothing ever of thier own. Thats just the breaks of never being wanted.
Feb 24, 2013
Feb 24, 2013 at 10:34 PM UTC
in this icy world
in this constent nightmare
in this ruthless war
in this flooding ocean of blood
am i alone
on this path to darkness
on this island of screams
on this edge of sanity
on this sinking ship of hope
am i alone
i cant possibly be alone
because with every step
i hear a voice
a faint whisper
but i cant comprehend its words
as i shatter under the pressure
i finally see the source of the voice
i hear its words with perfect clarity
coming slowly from her lips
"your never going to be alone"
Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 3:05 PM UTC
I can feel you forgetting me.
You used to compliment me on my nails knowing I had hours getting them just right.
Now you don't even notice that I painted them your favorite color.
You used to tell me that I didn't need to wear makeup, that I was beautiful without it.
Now that I don't wear it anymore you can see the dark circles under my eyes from the sleep I lost over you.
I can feel you forgetting me.
You used to tell me that my constent humming was annoying with a smile on your face.
Now you don't realize that it's your favorite song that is falling from my lips.
I used to doodle happy things on the edges of my paper when you were around.
But now all I do is write heart wrenching poetry about you.
I can feel you forgetting me.
Please don't forget me.
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 8:17 PM UTC
As I stare into your eyes.
I see the holy Grail.
Into darkness the sunlight dies.
I know my heart is weak and frail.
My heart says it will never work.
My mind says it will offer mercy.
I see your quite and clear smirk.
As I already know I am unworthy.
My heart hurts and longs for you.
Now that you know how I feel.
I can see the hatered on you too.
For I found how to heal, and deal.
No need to surrender.
My heart is unhurt.
You can have the constent indever.
Because you stepped me into the dirt.
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 6:54 AM UTC
The mind is like rough waves
with barely any breaks in the wind
constent and unforgiving
but with sunshine
and love
hate and sadness
anger
with rain and wind
moving in and out
eventually that wave will be calm
it will end
it will die
gone
would the other waves notice
that one wave has left
no
they will continue
with the sunshine
and love
hate and sadness
anger
Aug 8, 2014
Aug 8, 2014 at 10:17 PM UTC
(sorry its a bit long)
i wanna Jump, maybe i Could fly, atleast at this height ive already hit the sky, im sick of the drivebys, the drug flies, the beaming eyes, I'm sick of all this hussling, im sick of all the fuss im in, im sick of been who i am, so im sorry ma, n sorry pa, maybe now ill be a star, ill be up high, whats the change, u never noticed me anyways,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Look ma and look pa, dont u Understand who u are, my inspiration, my determination, been denied make my mind devide, ive got my good, and ive got my bad, u looked down when i was mad, id scare you, when i wasn't even bad, cuz u knew i was that sad, "i dont forget and i don't forgive", thats sometin u learn too live with, now it's something u have too deal with,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Walk a mile in my shoes and maybe you could see, what its like too be like me, gettin calls asking for deals, gettin fools waistin there meals, im dealing but cant provide my own oh so real, i feel like a peice of **** I'm getting sick of living this, i just wanna shake your hand, but you've got venom on your gland, i wanna be the bigger man, ill walk away when I can, but if im tested here's my plan, pull my gun and end this fan.
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Look im not saying imma end this **** i may be down, but when im down my lyric is up, my verses untouched, you wouldn't think of such, but im so much, ill fill your cup, saying all that but, i know my lyric can be misread, just cuz im spitting these bars so honestly, and i know i got haters everywhere, thats part of life and part of the rap game, the walk too fame, u laugh now, but i impove with each move.
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Now look into my eyes and u may see my reality, i suffer, i cry, i hate my god dam life, but i awake and thank god for my blessing, i wake up with determination, i wake up with constent fustration, and i know it sounds weak, but im on my knees, fighting a fight i cant win, the blank paper, my very own trash bin, i download my **** so i wake up hussling, and you all say too not get so personal, but ill end with a wallet full,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
At the age of 16 im walking down the road of recovery, from ******** and drugs, been hooked on cannabis and fun, you have a family? I have none, you have hope, im looking for some, i found a shimmering light, something too aim for, the rap career, and i know the struggle, haters, feens, losein what you think you need, but take what i have, you will be Takein the clothes upon my back.
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 9:23 AM UTC
im so sick of crying
im not my usual self
and im sick of trying
im not okay
i havent been for a long time
but no one seems to notice
anyways
im sorry im a broken thing
im sorry i disappointed you
depression is my soul mate
here ill show u the ring
i hate my life
there i said it
i guess im ungrateful
but i live in constent stife
i know im ruining myself
but with the irreversible mess im in
i really dont care
im as functional as a crooked shelf
my body is rejecting me
well get in line
cause it seems everyone else is
this isnt how i wanted it to be
its not fair
i had everything....
then suddenly nothing
i didnt realize i was that hard to bare
depression is my lover
hes my only constent
he helps me put on the mask
i use as a cover
i am not in a good place
im can no longer apologize
you hurt me and now u
cant even look at my face
i'm sorry i hurt you all
i didnt mean to
i assure u ,it hurt me more
its months later and i still bawl
i lost everyone
i lost myself
i lost the battle
congrats you and depression won
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 1:45 AM UTC
moving on
scares healing
black fading away
no longer falling
the constent bleeding stops
i'm not giving up
not going to fall
fighting my way back
laying everything out
a line has been drawn
do i stand and keep moving
not breaking easly
not going down
not without a fight
standing tall
climbing to my feet
by scarlet rose
date: 6-10-15
Jun 10, 2015
Jun 10, 2015 at 2:29 PM UTC
**** Im so stressed
Why is it I obsess about every little thing
about how I cant sleep and how then that leads my mind to creep,
searching here searching there searching every ******* where to find some peace
but my mind is in a snit and it weeps so this stress just sits and steeps
an insidious build up in where my mind gets filled up
with all this ******* garbage leaving me feeling ********
and no one really knows my inner struggle and dealing with the constent self rebuttal
Its so tedious this obsessive mental stressing but at least I have my poetry and release my feelings openly
never worrying of appearing weak and vulnerable or making others feel uncomfortable
So regarless how many times I cry and at times feel like I wanna die, I just know theres more to life....
-E.G
Jul 13, 2016
Jul 13, 2016 at 4:08 AM UTC
mama loves you dear
but cant love herself
puts on a fake smile
for her children
takes pills behind their back
fails to stay away from the drugs
gives up on herself
cry's herself to sleep
in constent pain
broken beyond repair
confused and alone
loves her kids to death
would do anything for them
try's to stop taking the pills
succeds for a little while
than starts again
takes too many
dies
kids all alone
dad not there
Apr 7, 2018
Apr 7, 2018 at 3:32 PM UTC
It's my mind that is hurting me
The consent memories that I did not choose to to through
The constent tears that I wish never existed
The sadness that hurts me all the time
So don't blame me
If i want to wave goodbye
:(
Jun 4, 2020
Jun 4, 2020 at 9:40 PM UTC