"annalisa" poems
I could live in those moments forever,
Like when in shock my brain suddenly lost language,
My heart ceased beating,
My lungs no longer filled with air,
Creating a temporary death to accompany my realization of your permanent one, Annalisa.
Or perhaps the moment when,
We were frantically trying to get back to your hospital room, Flora,
When we got the call that you were fading away,
Helping your husband as he struggled with his walker,
And more heartbreak than I have ever seen on one face,
All while knowing we would be too late.
Even that brief sensation of dropping,
My body falling faster than my heart,
That suddenly occupied my throat,
As I rushed to an imagined release,
Could last me a lifetime.
But the memories of your smile, laugh, and happiness,
Fade more quickly than I would have predicted,
Those moments so sweet,
They melt as quickly as cotton candy in your mouth.
And I am left only with a sour aftertaste,
Cruel, lingering memories here to haunt me forever.
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 10:05 AM UTC
Annalisa, you have forgotten me
And left me with a shred of hope and dignity
For years, I had to fend for my own
I've had to feed myself and clean my hair with a comb
I will always come back to you but I don't know when
Because I always have constant demons to defend
I cherish the moments in vivid Technicolor
I get weak to my knees and barely speak to one other
You told me a lot of useful things that I will use in my later career
If I go down that destined road, things will be all clear
Jan 20, 2011
Jan 20, 2011 at 6:24 AM UTC
You haunted me,
In my dreams last night.
I was at your funeral,
And every time I tried to speak,
Someone interrupted me.
I was going to say,
How much I loved you,
Cared for you.
I was going to tell you,
How badly I felt,
That I hadn’t told you before you died.
But even my unconscious self,
Won’t allow me that closure.
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 11:13 PM UTC