A SOLDIER

A man born from flesh and blood

Ordered to **** with no regret

As the giant cannon ***** fly, screams of terror hollow in the distance trenches

In the blistering heat

He trudges through the valley of lost souls

Looking at death straight in the eye

Knowing deep inside there is no surrender

Adreline begins to pump through his veins with great heist

The sharp splintered ammunition waiting to  feed the hungry giant spring gadgets

Waiting to rip flesh from bone

Behind the trigger he lays analysing the ****** field before him

He sees the paralysesd faces of small children, running towards him arms open wide

His thinks what can I do

He closes his tired eyes for a second, he runs screaming get down

Nothing happens, blood starts to flow from his jagged wound

He cries out for help lying in empty hole, as  vultures fill the clouded sky

He knows now his on his own

As darkness prevails vanquishing the perfect light

He lays his head down to sleep.

Droplits of blood soak through morning mist

the smell of burnt flesh fills the air

He awakes from his deathly sleep to fight another day

                                                           LARRY A STUART 09

I wanna bottle up the memories of you
Filter my blood of your poison
Detach your roots, the roots you sunk so deeply into my heart
Erase the taste of your hesitant lips from mine
**** the paradoxical sensation of your hands caressing my thighs
Forget the way your eyes light up when you look at me
Estinguish the flaming desires blazing inside me
Burry the letters you wrote me with your shaky hands
Burn the traces of you on every inch of my skin
I wanna bottle up the memories of you
Let them simmer for years
Just like fine wine
For you were my sweet addiction
I was hooked on every aspect of you.
Every dimension of your being
Ignited a fire in my *****
Made me go mad
Mad for the love we felt but never had
Sent me on endless journeys within the murrals of my overworked brain
Got me moaning, screaming
Rushed my adreline like a hurricane invading every pillar of my body
Dilated my pupils
Intensified the beats of my fragile heart
Clogged the flow of blood to my head
Forced my teeth into my lips, even yours
I wanna bottle up the memories of you
As the few thing that create this bittersweet sensation and trigger the smallest cells of my being--
Other than the trembling flame of your liveliness--
Are the taste of wine burning the insides of my mouth
while the substance slowly blurrs my tired eyes
The smell of a book whose pages await the touch of my fingers absorbing each of the letters
The hazy feeling of worn-out eyes at the end of a day free of frames
The cold temperature of ice cream warmed up by the heat of melted chocolate
The smoothness of the soul of a tea cup covering the frames of my glasses
The sound of the sweet combination of words and notes blasting through my earphones
And the bottled up memories of you
Left to simmer for years
Just like fine wine
Burning the insides of my mouth
Till my eyes get tired of looking for your face in a faceless crowd

I feel like I'm drowning
Nothing is good
I feel like I'm drowning and can't see
There is no light around me.
Nothing to focus on, nothimg to see
I can't breathe my chest is constricting
Feels like a snake is about to attack me,
I feel insane like nothing is worth it
Just want to crash and try not to avoid it.
I feel like I'm drowning and it hurts quite a bit
Drowning in sorrow and nothing else fits
Anger wells within me and I feel like a *****
I feel like I'm drowning .
I feel my lungs give up and I can't even breath
Feels like a car about to hit me
The adreline in my veins then it all goes black
Nothing matters to me anymore
I feel like I'm drowning
And it hurts me know
No raven can reach me
I'm too far in my head
I feel like the gods have abandoned me
I only see black there is no speck of light
It hurts me to know that,
I gave up on myself
Everything is blurry and goes in slow motion
Nothing is perfect and its me in the middle
Can't decide if I should try
Or just give up and die
It hurts me to see
That my face isn't me
This body is foreign and I can't see me
Everything is wrong and I don't know how to feel
All I know now is that I feel like I'm drowning.

I'm going to need a pill for all this...
To numb me.
To bring me forgetful patience
and  delicate bravery.

This up and down
In and out
Round and round....silly caged clown.

I'm going to need a pill for all this...
"As if" acting and sad smiling and normal-ness?
For-if I don't swallow that pill
I will sink into the abyss.

And now steaming with
four hours past, I think at last I have it
The raging energy and adreline laced anger to let it go but
I reach for the bottle and swallow the pill, whole.