Family always said I was exceptionally well behaved. Teachers always said I was cooperative and quiet.
They never knew I was peaking on the fear of being the slightest bit noticed by my peers They never knew I wanted nothing to do with participation or aknowledgement They never knew I was a soul-less being, just to observe the others around me They never knew I was worthless, undeserving, unmotivated They never knew I caged myself inside like a hibernating bear to avoid social crowds
I never knew I didn't have to live this way. Until now
My memories have been hijacked by a persons jealousy insecure people just cannot see they judge you by their morals pressed down upon you I must suppress my anger now for cooler heads prevail
I thought I understood just a little bit but clearly as I see things I am a little hurt biting on my lip pacing in my house like an animal in a cage
It really is no wonder my mind is in this shape the gift of stone you gave me gives me clarity just one more moment is all I really need to tell you just how I feel and what you've meant to me
You've drawn me out of my shell again for all to see my armour has been dented but my heart is still clean I will always think of you in friendship I'm still keen I've had the same discussions about this very thing
but the conclusion that I came to in turn set me free free from reprisal and all it's ***** deeds for friendship with you is the most important thing.