In the reality of this place,
within the darkness of my mind
I got a call, from a gal,
to follow a lead.

Her name was Alice,
she was a “Dame”
She said down that rabbit hole,
it would be fine, not insane.

So I followed her
down the hole that night,
then she gave me a funny hat,
but that was cool.
As I, was watch'in her fine ***.

She said to me
that hat you wear
makes you fit right in.
I took her word, strutt'in in style,

Of the cool cat's pipe!

I did partake, ****
that chick was right,
it's quite a place,
to take a ride, most any night.

I'll go again, but not so soon,
since it's a scary ride.
Down a real dark hole.
I don't know if I'll get out again.

She lays quietly at my side,
sleepy with dreams of happiness,
hopefully of me and our life.

Gently I lean close, inhaling her scent,
butterfly kisses of love to her cheek,
dreaming away as she continues her sleep.

Now I search for my sleep each night,
looking to find her in my dreams,
together in happiness as we sleep.

Starting as a question
within my mind.
I feel an odd sensation,
but not unfamiliar to a person in my state.

Sensations change and
pressure felt upon
the frontal lob.
Knowing the drill
and not to wait.

A bottle is found
that may correct
many mistakes if
I act in time.
And slow the progress just in time.

Seeming to stem the tide
I have some sleep
and bide my time.
But when I wake
and far to soon.

My mistakes are
coming through.
Shadows now
have turned
quite dark.

And past the stage,
a mistake was made.
My day is not in doubt,
as I expect I have bought,
a day or two, to fight a bout.

More meds come now
but still not much
as my brain fights
itself in my defense.
Between healthy choice,

and reducing pain.

I make a choice
and to be fair,
it seldom happens
in my thoughts.
As pains go away.

But still you have
the remembrance
of lost time when
you were in great pain.

And it's not that new,
and just a memory.
Carrying that memory
helps when in pain.

It's nothing new
and over 50 years
strong with memories.

So beyond the lost
time that I'm using now
to write these words
in my altered state.

It's a pain that I call
a topic of conversation.
As so much of my daily
life throughout my life,
has been me saying,

Excuse my state My headaches.

But my thought to add today is this pain maybe a bit of stress from all the pain I feel for all the world. As we mourn the lives of humans of this earth. Good and evil in the end is still a human life that should have had some value to someone. May all around the world from all evil in the past few weeks pray to their God or deity for a quiet time in some part of the world. Peace out!!

This time of year to express
love to the one held dear.
But why must it be just expressed
just this, once a year.

With the love that I feel
it should be every day.
Rather than to only express
it once this day, a single time of year.

So a card, flowers or something
sweet on this one day,
yet daily I will express my love,
every day of the year.

Sweetheart, I love you each and every day.

Dark water was deep
         Cold waters now embrace me
 Darkness takes over

Mom was working late at night.
The car was not available,
she would walk home.

I was 12 at the time with a paper route,
which took me all around town.

My bike was of a sturdy type.
It had a place for my bag,
which held the papers.

Mother could sit on the rack,
I would give her a ride home,
as she was a tiny thing.

It was late, as I headed to pick up
my mom from work.

The sun was just setting,
as dusk came to the sky
in the summer night.

Mother had to ride side saddle,
due to her skirt.
Off we went to home.

As I rode with great joy
at helping my mom,
I heard whistles and cat calls to my mom.

For a boy of 12 with his mom,
it was time to learn.
Things of life, men and woman.

Falling into the abyss of love.
Lost in the depth of my passion for you.

Finding no satisfaction for my infatuation,
but by holding you against me.

Looking into your eyes,
your soft skin silken to my touch.

Then gently as our lips
touch softly for just a moment.

Bringing fire to my soul, passion to my heart,
knowing your love, for all time is real.

Awake now humans
Take count of your blessings now
                   Be thankful you woke

Darkness brings fears it is real
Light brings happiness it is real

The mind controls your fears it is real
Your thoughts bring you happiness, it is real

Breaking of Mind Control real?
Can You Make It real?
Set yourself free  real?
You will make it real!!

Sleep comes near
in the world where
I find myself at this time.

I feel pain with emptiness
for those that have
suffered needlessly in the world this day.

All that most ask,
is to love and be loved.
Rather than die a needless death.

We are all humans
on this spinning globe.
Please give peace a chance.

The opening of this day is early,
as I rise to wash my face and
have that first cup of coffee
and check in on the world this day.

This day in history many years ago,
I started out my day much the same
as I have today, though much younger.
And not as knowledgeable as today.

My day was filled with classes
which was just to **** time.
The excitement today was
my test to have a license to drive.

The day progressed and the excitement
grew, as I thought of my test
that was looming
and having the freedom I saw ahead.

Suddenly the world seemed
to stop as the word went out,
the President was shot
and we were all in shock.

Birthday or not, presents
didn't matter and license forgot.
From that day forward
this has always been part of my birthday thoughts.

There is no manual for this ride

Some times it's a good ride

And sometimes it's a bad ride

It's kind of a roller coaster ride

The red ones are one kind of ride

And the blue ones are another ride
Scary?

But fun once you learn the ride.

Thinking of a meal
is often,
not on the agenda.

Now I have been told,
that is not
correct thinking.

But I had what seemed
to be right thinking,
for many a year.

With my correct thinking,
I began, to
take up more space.

The air was thinner
and I was not,
since I always made dinner.

There were other
meals to,
I think a plot.

Addictions are many
with daily selections,
like a wheel of fortune.

This one was won
and seems to work,
when I prefer not to cook.

I was traveling outside the realm of my known universe

The stars and the planets passing by as I am hurled through space

This is so exciting and new with an excellent view

And the music is new and excites me so I am not blue

But now I am sad and crying as the music stopped playing

And the stars and the planets are no longer passing by

Now I am wet and hungry

Oh Please mommy Start it up again

Please feed me, dry me and start

My Stars and Planets and music in motion again.

My life, when viewed,
Like crossing an expansive desert,
watching the sand, under my feet.

Looking back,
my foot prints have dissolved
into bits of nothingness.

Looking ahead,
there is no path,
to guide me.

Looking down, my imprint in the sand,
This moment is all I really have,
As we all do.

So savor the moment where you stand.
Choose your path wisely.

Every day and night lying next you

Every day holding you

Every day More special than the day before

Every day you change my life

Every day Now is special

Every day because of you

Every day love is all I need

Flames shooting through roof
                Lapping at walls and curtains
Windows Exploding

As the sun rises and I already have 3 hours of energy spent and the attempt to slow the thought processes to a dull roar seems to have failed, yet I feel invigorated and excited as more words and thoughts, race across the compartments of my mind looking to find and keep the thoughts that will bring emotions and feelings to the readers of my work.

And even then will I really know if it's good or just polite. Either way it really excites to stir what you hope are emotions and thoughts that will stir others thoughts.

The draw from the energy of my brain is so great and not really wanting to lose my position as I sit precariously on the edge of the blade. How far can I lean to the artistic side of my mind before I fall to far and lose my mind completely.

What is life without risk, I like the feeling, I like the release, it's such a rush.

Yes it's worth risk to hang on the edge and hopefully this second cup of “Joe” won't push me over the edge.

Waking as the sun starts, it's early morning rise
with shadows of darkness lingering
from clouds on high.

I see the morning light as it transitions today,
my thoughts are of you
which brings only light to my life.

Shadows and darkness no longer part of my life.
Holding you close,
Only sunshine in my days.

Morning breaks
as the sun rises
over the horizon
for another day.

My love lies
next to me
in gentle repose,
completing her dreams.

Moments of quiet
reflection at dawn,
of life and love,
with the love of my life.

Do you see the beauty around you
When you are going through your day?    

It may be time to stop
View the beauty that is before you

Before you plunge into the media
Driven world of your day

You have time to let go
To see the world

As it really is each day

A Christmas text
the only choice
to a long lost voice.

Loving her so dear,
a child so missed,
I try to send a Christmas wish.

As sweet words inked
the message link,
I felt proud to share my love of her.

About three lines were on the text
just as I write this down
and I burst in tears,
memories rushing back.

I hope she hears
or reads my words,
and knows my love.

I can take anything
she may bring to me,
cause any pain I feel,
is to not see her.

Our love is separated
by great distance,
and my heart
longs to be near you.

Longing for the time
that the distance is no more,
and our hearts can come
together as one.

Water is valuable
            Not be wasted needlessly
Yes, Shared it must be

Sun up in the sky
        No rain fallen for some time
Earth and creatures die

When I say my nightly prayers,
thanking my lord
for this and every day.

Asking for forgiveness
and strength to make
it through each day

Give me strength
and help the human race
to create a better world.

My final words
of thanks to God,
allowing me to be with you which makes my life complete.