This blade I use
As my paint brush,
My arm as my canvas;
Pale and innocent,
Save for scars from another time.

They will be joined,
Together,
In yet another
Beautiful, red painting.

My wrist, the white horizon
In the background.

Head's throbbing
The demons have come, they're robbing
Everything I hold close to me, nothing's staying
My life is what I might end up paying

Not a thing in this ******* world
Is worth having all your happiness wrecked, your life unfurled
And you have to be punched day after day
Hiding in the shadows, praying that everything would just be okay

Razors become friends
After tonight, you don't even care if your tattered body mends
Mirrors take a shot at your heart
Force you into believing things will be better if they come from a shopping cart

Nothing's quite real
Your senses shut down, you get to the point where you can't feel
Locking yourself into the deepest hole
People try to save you, they pry at your bunker,  and it's starting to take its toll

You reach the bottom.. You go head first
Anybody could see your want for love, an undying thirst
Your best friends smile can't even make life worth living
This ******* world you got chained down in is unforgiving

Caught in daze
You're trapped in the back of the worlds hardest maze
You go in a million circles for nine years
Seems as if you're soul is being sold by an auctioneer

You're worthless
As the days go by, you become mirthless
A rope is there, you know where it leads
But you know that it leads to major needs

Slip off your ledge
Here at the bottom we all silently took this pledge
That we would all end life together, unified souls
All that we would leave behind were coals

Then one by one, we fought back
We were tired of all this grey and black
Fought for each breath
No longer dancing with death

We were going to make it out of here one way or the other
We climbed for our sisters, our brothers, our fathers, our mothers
WE could make it through Hell
We were getting out of this city.. Done listening to that ******* city bell

Fighters, survivors, all one in the same
Our passion had come back to us, we wanted the gold and the fame
Of being a somebody, of being worth something someday
Honestly, if you want to live like us, to  live like a stray

Go ahead, be my guest
See what it feels like to be on Suicide Road strapped into a death vest
You threw away gold Riley. You just threw it away.
Once we shut off the lights and close the door, you'll just self-destruct and decay.

I love you way too much for you to go down
Your prince, he wears the most beautiful crown
But babe, I promise you, he won't be down there
Listen to me, I've been there and you know what.. I'm stupid enough to care

Things may not be perfect
And this whole wanting to change is just a side effect
If you slip too far, you're in the eye of the super storm
You'll be dead or near to it.. I can't let you go and try to see you transform

So don't go Riley. Please.
You're standing at the door
In my hand are the keys.
If you want them, you and I'll have to go to war.