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Whitney M Feb 2013
Foam cup, remote control
Foam heart, recycle me
Please
Trash it, bag it
Fill me to the top
She drank my heart
She ate her feelings
One foam cup of decaf, black
My entire life has changed
Gain my contol back
Whitney M Feb 2013
One more day
Story of my life
Just get through
One more day
and all will be ok
except one more day
has turned into a lifetime
A never ending battle
of good and bad
wrong or right
hate vs. love
when will the lifetime end?
when I say?
On this day, lifetime wins
Lifetime will probably win tomorrow
Whitney M Feb 2013
Does the brain ever get suspended
can it ever stop
just to be would be my one wish
not to wonder, or hope,
or want or envy
not to criticize
just to be calm and happy
to feel happy
we would be so lucky
I would be so grateful
Whitney M Feb 2013
If this is life
I want no part
Stale rain and crawling skin
and a set back that only a mother can provide
I cry only inside, burned away are pains
and heartache that only a mother can provide
She lets go of her guilt
While I can never release mine
and in a single phone call
She rips my whole world apart.
A daughter in constant despair
Only a mother can provide
Whitney M Mar 2013
i **** for comfort
i scream for release
it feels good when it hurts
it hurts when its worse
i swallow smoke to get high
high swallows me to get by
it hurts when it's good
i feel good to get by
Whitney M Apr 2013
Life is too short
to have a husband.
Whitney M Feb 2013
Love seems out of reach
An impossible delusion
that will never be
a notion that is not meant for me
I love alone
but alone can never love me
Whitney M Feb 2013
Allow me to be a better mother than my own
Allow me to be trustworthy when my children confide in me
Allow me to be reasonable when my children make mistakes
Allow me to see my children through eyes of wisdom, not judgement
Allow me to be genuine in m support, not condescending
Allow me to never be selfish, self-involved, self-centered in any decisions regarding my children
Allow me to show sincerity in my actions as a mother, not hypocracy
Allow me to say 'I'm sorry'
A human being will never be perfect, but in a child's eyes, a mother can be
Whitney M Feb 2013
I can n o longer tell the difference between a truth and lie
within myself and from those around me
its like the pouring rain
it continues to come down
the same speed, the same sound
you anticipate a change
bu the rain just keeps pounding down
the same speed, the same sound
like a truth and lie
it pounds down
same speed, same sound
Whitney M Feb 2013
Shaky hands like my fathers
we will never be surgeons or cake decorators
we can never draw a straight line
all we can do is bond over our imperfections,
and sigh at our shaky hands
Whitney M Feb 2013
Mumble, mumble
Humble, humble
Please leave me be
I begged for peace
and gained several voices
They begged for release
and so did I
Release from what, they'll never know
My release is simple
Whitney M Feb 2013
I like to be alone
but don't like the loneliness
the feeling is empty, yet heavy
How can something so comfortable
be so unsettling
Whitney M Feb 2013
I yearn for  love
and all I feel is hate
I need some control
but my head doesn't stop spinning,
decaf black
and an adavan,
pound cake on the side
Happy 26th whittleberry
am i happy to be alive
Whitney M Feb 2013
I envy the insane
their altered worlds
where they are enthralled
with love
love from their families
love from the stars
love from their nurse
and their pets
love for each other
love for their freedom
freedom from their minds
is no freedom at all

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