Life is too short
to have a husband.

i **** for comfort
i scream for release
it feels good when it hurts
it hurts when its worse
i swallow smoke to get high
high swallows me to get by
it hurts when it's good
i feel good to get by

I like to be alone
but don't like the loneliness
the feeling is empty, yet heavy
How can something so comfortable
be so unsettling

Does the brain ever get suspended
can it ever stop
just to be would be my one wish
not to wonder, or hope,
or want or envy
not to criticize
just to be calm and happy
to feel happy
we would be so lucky
I would be so grateful

Allow me to be a better mother than my own
Allow me to be trustworthy when my children confide in me
Allow me to be reasonable when my children make mistakes
Allow me to see my children through eyes of wisdom, not judgement
Allow me to be genuine in m support, not condescending
Allow me to never be selfish, self-involved, self-centered in any decisions regarding my children
Allow me to show sincerity in my actions as a mother, not hypocracy
Allow me to say 'I'm sorry'
A human being will never be perfect, but in a child's eyes, a mother can be