Today is my birthday
I turned 22.
I will not be partying
I have things to do
Cold stone at 2
Class from 6-9

It may seem like a poor way to celebrate
Such a wonderful day
However happiness is in the moments remembered
So alcohol isn't in my plans today

I want to walk on
runways but I can't
get past that spot
on my thighs
where they touch
and the crease in
my stomach keeps
me up at night
wondering if I
should have eaten
that should have
thrown it up
should have taken
another diet pill.
Probably not
probably
probably.

oh deep
ditches
annals
endless wires
poking
snagging
interest
of the internet,
why must you always ensnare me
i'm trying to write a paper
*******

The girl with "the name like a song"
Now has scars 
Feels so alone
Felt the need to change even though she is beyond beautiful 

The girl with the giggles
Can barely sleep anymore
Everyone she loves slips out of her grasp
My gorgeous friend 
Never feels pretty anymore
Though she is perfect to me

The girl with the 'asian eyes' ;)
Tall,skinny,beautiful hair
Yet scars on her arms 
I can't understand how someone so amazing
Can feel so alone and mistreated

The girl with the contagious laugh
Never seems sad
Always laughing so hard
But she's so sad on the inside
But she is so incredible

The girl with the "hospital swag" ;)
Never seen not laughing and smiling
But she's slowly slipping away
Not able to see how important she is

They all are so beautiful,so unique
They just can't see it
I wish there was I way I could show them
Make them see how important they really are
Gorgeous people treated so wrong
In my eyes,they are the most extraordinary people 
And I hope they can see that

Crack-- creek--snap!

WINGS explode from my back
learning to fly is a *****
but my third-eye antennae
                is reading a world atlas
                            ready to traverse....

Crack-- creek--snap!

Waking up to a trashed apartment
my mind insists everything must go!
That includes the world's most comfortable sofa
in that ugly pea soup olive green where I've probably spent too much time *******.

Crack-- creek--snap!

When I meditate in the shower
                    everything is dark.
          The closest thing to sensory depravation.
I travel to realms of talking green lions
            and electric purple snakes that sway
                      and I crave to stay in the emerald caves
       with the copulating mind flowers.
But I'm learning to fly now.  

Crack-- creek--snap!