Erin: Favorites

for my 'brother'. because if i didn't have him right now, i'd probably relapse.
i don't care if we don't share blood; i don't care if i've only known him for two years. he's a better brother than my real one ever was, and the only person i'll ever call my brother again. and i love him for it.

Jun 2013 Erin

strangers, but not estranged

Jun 2013 Erin

marina

strangers, but not estranged

he said i look more like an
iris than anything else
(and i couldn't help but think
how right he was, and how ironic
that he doesn't even have any idea
who i am)

"and i don't want the world to see me / cause i don't think that they'd understand / when everything's made to be broken / i just want you to know who i am"
because my ex.  and i've changed so much since we broke up.  and i'm not sure if he meant the name in correlation to the song, but it was all i could think about.
wow.  so many emotions happened when i was gone.

Jun 2013 Erin

gotcha

Jun 2013 Erin

marina

gotcha

i know you're miles away
but i've never been more in love
with you than i am now;
last night i dreamt that we spent
the night together and all you did
was hold my hand

(when i woke up, it was the first
time in months that i didn't feel
cold)

oh hello.

Jun 2013 Erin

i'm breaking

Jun 2013 Erin

marina

i'm breaking

my heart is heavy*
and i am so
weak

what the hell is going on. my best friend and my ex are going to run away tonight together. they're discussing this in my living room. and they're both desperate right now and i'm pretty sure they're going to hook up in the woods or whatever and the whole time i'm thinking how could they do this to me.

Jun 2013 Erin

secret hour

Jun 2013 Erin

marina

secret hour

and i always like to remind myself
how bad i am with words,
but here we are--
                             i can't stop talking, and this is
                             the least understandable i've been in
                             months but the most understanding
                             you've been ever
        (my thoughts are illegible but
        your concern is poetry)

haha, this'll be deleted eventually. but writing bad poetry helps me clear my head for more thoughts to come through.

Jun 2013 Erin

why i'm a compulsive liar

Jun 2013 Erin

marina

why i'm a compulsive liar

honesty is just a desperate attempt
for closure used when
there's no more time to fake our way
around the truth

i wish i could write something that took longer than fifteen seconds to read.