Everyday I wake up wishing my ***** would disappear,
but then I look in the mirror and there they are; two big boulders stuck on my chest. I wear baggy clothes and cover up, I'd do anything to hide the fact they exist.

Growing up was never easy, I tried to fit in with the girls, started wearing make up and feminine clothes, but nothing felt right. I remember being in my room and looking at myself in the mirror every night, I'd pretend that I was a guy. Alex would be my name, I'd put on some rock music and pretend I was a rock star with thousands of girls screaming my name.

But I'd always come back to reality, there I'd be looking in the mirror a teenage me; ashamed of my body. People would come up to me and ask if I was okay, I'd always smile and say that I'm fine . But I wasn't because at the back of my mind there was this voice saying I'm meant to be a guy.

lost in my thoughts,
caught up in my emotions,
fighting my demons,
as they try to take over,
it's like I'm trying to swim,
but I keep on drowning,

can someone help me please,
before I go under,
'cause I don't think I can take this no more,
I feel so disconnected,
I don't even know who I am anymore,
all this self hate it won't go away,
the voices in my head are getting louder everyday,

I just need to escape,
get away from all this pain,
I feel numb,
now everything that once felt so right feels so wrong,
and everyone I ever loved have gone,
left me here alone,
lost in my thoughts.

What's wrong with people thinking they can be disrespectful,
men calling women ******* and hoes,
no wonder girls never feel beautiful.
Society has changed the way youngsters think,
kids look up to rappers who rap about *** and drugs,
is there any suprise that they grow up to be thugs.
They walk around with hands in their pants,
treating their girls like ******* and saying it's all for "bants"

Boys think it's a good thing to be called a player,
but when a girl sleeps around she gets called a ****; then she gets pregnant and the kid grows up not knowing their dad.
What's happened to the men who stay loyal to one girl,
treat her like a queen and make her feel like she's the only girl in the world.

If there was more love and compassion the world would be a better place,
but instead we're faced with bitterness and hate,
constantly fighting a war,
but what are we really fighting for?
Where it's okay to be gay,
where trans people can be themselves and not be called a "freak,"
where men can cry without being called "weak."

How do you fix a broken heart,
'cause baby right now i'm falling apart,
dead inside; feeling numb, yeah i just wanna hide,
hide away from everything 'cause i can't deal with it no more,
nah i can't deal with all this pain.
Crying my eyes out everyday I feel so weak,
and all i can think of is you,
every night and every day you're there playing in my head like a broken record,
I just wanna pull the plug,
'cause right now i feel like a fool,
yeah baby i'm a fool for you.
Everyone knows i'll always take you back,
because i'm kind hearted like that,
but the truth is baby i'm lost without you,
i love you but i hate you,
and i'm so stuck,
i don't know what the **** i'm meant to do.

The past is hard to forget,
when you've gone through hell and back.
All the hurt and the pain,
you try to hide it all away.
Pushing it further and further into the back of your brain,
but bottling it all up will just drive you insane.

You start finding new ways to deal with it all,
forever living in denial.
Drinking alcohol to the numb the pain,
taking drugs as a way to escape,
escape the hell that goes on inside of you.
All the while you fall deeper and deeper into a dark and lonely place.
Self-harming for a release,
a temporary fix but the scars on your body make you feel so ashamed.
And now you're filled with self hate,
you feel so isolated because you've pushed everyone you love the most away.
it's a never ending cycle filled with hatred and pain.

Hey pretty girl,
with that beautiful smile,
I know you've been hurting,
I can see it in your eyes,
you hide it so well,
but my darling I can tell,
you've been through absolute hell.
But it's okay cause I have as well,
you may walk a lonely road,
but I promise you; you are not alone,
You no longer have to fight these battles on your own.
Show me your scars and I'll show you mine,
we can stay up late and talk all night.
Give me a chance and I'll show you I'm worth it.
I know sometimes I can be a difficult person,
but together girl we could be perfect.

I got trust issues,
years of abuse,
turned my heart dark it's so bruised,
beaten black and blue,
tell me what do you do,
when everyone you trusted ends up mistreating you?
empty promises,
I don't want to know what you got to say,
cause they're just words to me.

I got trust issues,
I got scars that run deep,
deeper than the scars that you see on my skin.
I got scars that haunt me from within,
it's hard for me to talk about,
yeah it's hard for me to admit.

My past isn't pretty,
I have a darkness inside of me,
I want to show you,
but I'm scared you'll see me differently,
I'm scared that if I show you my scars,
it would be too much for you,
so tell me baby?
If I told you the truth and opened up to you,
would you run away too?
Or would you stay,
hold me close and tell me that everything's going to be okay?