All I wanted was to go to the beach
to smell the fresh salt air
feel the sand between my toes
I had you in my arms
I had you in my arms
But the ocean was a building
and the sand was a series of hallways
Before I knew it, I was back at the hospital
needles and machines poking and prodding
Doctors and nurses shouting and running
like the mindless drones I know them to be
But still,
I had you in my arms
I had you in my arms
You were the only one
who believed in me
when I said I didn't want to die
You were the only one.

-

Nothing like a good ol' fashioned nightmare
to rattle your spirits and twist your stomach

Everything I thought I knew
Was simply just a lie
My first lesbian girlfriend
Took off with a guy
My heart fell for another
But she only made me cry
A perfect whole year
Until we finally said goodbye
An angel came to my rescue
She made me feel like I could fly
She told me she loved me
But she never came by
She didn't wanna see me anymore
With the cops I had to comply
No reason, just a clean break
Our river of love ran bone dry
My best friend from years past
Makes up stories about getting high
I'm not impressed I say to myself
Nor is anyone else I can imply
I asked my mom about her new friend
And there was nothing to deny
But just a friend she kept on saying
I saw the lie in her eye
My dad left long ago
Not sure why he didn't stand by
He said he couldn't take it anymore
And I asked the simple question why
He still loves her I can see
He didn't prove anything with his sigh
But apart they will always stay
No one for me to rely
The tightly wound strings
Will shortly untie
And then what, I worry
My love is on short supply
It's been wasted on trusting
The ones that underly
No one can be trusted
Not even the good guy

She was born a peculiar case,
A miraculous creation of a new vulnerable race.
Hair of night and skin of sand,
But startling beauty was not the issue at hand.

Born of a peculiar race was she,
With insights further than the wisest can see.
A gifted voice of reason and rhyme,
Completed with a soul as anceint as time

A miraculous creation and an awe abiding miracle.
A strong soul surpassing her biological obstacle.
Vulnerability comes with the placement of hearts.
Which is protected by ribs and fleshy parts.

She was born apart from you and me.
Her heart beat beneath her thinly knit sleeve.  
With ours hidden within, we can ignore
Feelings of love or feelings of sore.
With her's open for all to see,
She must live with her heart totally free.