i still remember the days
singing hymns for death in a sunken gaze
my tights ******* in a noose so tight
and my arteries putting up the usual frantic fight.
hang in there, they said
and i did.
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with unsure tread
between life and death
most days, shutting down, didn’t even break a sweat.
each step onward
like flushing sparks in obsidian dark
and hope kept blinding my eyes
while i continued stringing along my faithful surmise.
my dear readers, loved ones
what can i say?
honestly: where i am today
is a place i never thought i’d be worthy enough to attain.
... never pretty enough to feign vain.
.. never confident enough to complain.
and still, i draw another breath, all these other days
with colors eclipsing
feelings insisting
a will to live, befitting
yes, finally
my life
is now
a life worth living.
love to each and everyone of you all <3