i have a peculiar liking
for boys who put me in a cage for fun

since i'm so scared of being left and abandoned
i'd rather be eaten at once

i wish i was good enough
one of those infamous diamonds in the rough

instead
i sit here and write

i really wish I could rip off my head

„do you still love me“
under a crimson moon rising
helplessly, turning into a banshee
with these pale red lips too inviting

„did you ever really love me“
under showers of sheer alabaster
limbs *******, dragging me down undersea
could you please make my burial go by any faster

„do you even know what love is“
each silver lining drowning out
god if you grant me one last wish
resurrect my bones, chant your name all aloud

i can tell there’s no answer
no spring and no shame
crystals in my eyes are now shattered
i can tell you’re not the one to blame

your soul must have ventured
into tundras so cold
forced your heart to surrender
so you sold it for gold

sometimes
i don’t know what to write

yet you’re here
right
reading these words
i pulled them out of my head last night
tried to make it right
sounding quite nice,
rhyming should suffice
right

doesn’t matter that
i lied
and i cried
and maybe i died

- but blood aside

as long as you read these words that i write
i know myself to be alive
i know you will treasure this
all of the feelings i hide

this pretentious war we face
isn’t won by running the race
pulling an ace
or
another pointless chase

it’s those moments
so sweet
choosing joy over greed
little actions so bright  
together, let’s
shine a light
for all to see
reminding you, kindly
that
love is all
there will ever be