Your riding on empty, your riding on fumes
Aint it about time you started paying your dues?
Hey snowflake move out of daddy's  basement
Aint it about  time you started paying your rent
It's been years since you've earned a red cent
Hey snowflake move  out and live in a tent
The cronies you adore are taking you for a ride
Aint nobody here that's digging your jive
You have no concept between wrong and right
News flash: You're just a young parasite
You have this idea  you're better than most
The sad Truth is you're nothing but toast
It's about time you owned up to it
You're nothing but a societal misfit
Hey snowflake you're on the wrong path
Hey snowflake start doing the math
Nobody seems to be safe from your wrath
Do us all a favor by taking a bath.

As I slowly fall into the grip of mezzo consciousness
Your face emerges from the mist
A face this beautiful I shall never forget
Nor will I ever forget your beautiful silhouette
Is it really you, how can this be?
Last time I saw you,  you were wild and free
In the meadows we  used to run
Or Is this just an  illusion
You reach out your hand and we slowly caress
Your tongue explores my mouth's  inner recess
I slowly survey the curve of your lingerie
You leave me speechless, you take my breath away
Oh my god what's that horrible sound?
I open my eyes to find myself earthbound
I slowly turn over to silence the alarm
****, it was just a dream, I'm back on the farm.

As I grow old and the lights are growing dimmer
I contemplate the life of me , a common sinner
I used to think money was  the meaning of success
I couldn't have been  more wrong to that I will confess
You can't make love to money, but many people try
It's for the love of money that many people die
The answer to this question is clearly from above
Take money from the equation and what you have is love.

I once had a lover, we'll call her Louise
Very attractive but  so hard to please
She was a red haired beauty with emerald eyes
I fell head over heels I cannot deny
She told me she loved me but that was a crock
When a  new beau came a strutting she took the walk
She told me our love would last  forever
She told me a lie, she thought she was clever
My heart was in pieces, all tattered and torn
At that point I wished I'd never been born
Years  passed by when out of the blue
She called , for what reason I hadn't a clue
My heart had healed but still had a scar
She thought she could play me - like a guitar
We arranged for a place that we both could meet
The next time I saw her my heart skipped a beat
By this time she had gone through so many men
She wanted to start all over again
The candle still flickered, my heart screamed out yes
She was quite a temptation to that I  confess
But my head intervened, I wasn't taking this pill
Too many times I'd been through this drill
Although I desperately  wanted to comply
The game was over, it was her turn to cry.

I'm not sure what it was about that day
Perhaps the child in me wanted to play
Between the Rad and the Chemo I needed to pray
But I knew the pain wasn't going away
I walked to the counter to ask for advice
And there she was this angel in white
I couldn't believe such a beautiful sight
She told me "Don't worry you're going to be fine"
The chills ran rampant up and down my spine
She told me my life could use some direction
I knew I  was in dire need of correction
I long for the day to see her again
But deep in my heart I know it's a sin
She comes at night and visits my dreams
I need her so badly I just want to scream
A relationship would be purely platonic
For the issue I have they tell me is chronic
I'm sick and tired of all this frustration
The chemo resulted in chemical castration
I look to the day to see this reversed
But up until then my life is a curse.

I needed your  love, I was in need of affection
I tried so hard to get your attention
What happened to our love,  it used to be strong
Now everything I do seems to be wrong
You've become distant and very cold
Now  it seems you've put me on  hold
I was there for you when you were depressed
Now I'm just an unwanted house guest
Our love used to be spontaneous and impromptu
Now when I hold you,  you're  just like a statue
I used to wait for you like a dog at the door
You used to throw me a bone but  you won't do it anymore.

The predator was hungry, he was on the prowl
No one would suspect that something was afoul
Could it be he was abused as a young  child
Or maybe as he grew his brain became defiled
He wasn't on the radar, he didn't fit the profile
He could melt a young girl's heart with his boyish smile
But behind his façade and his mask of deception
He expertly concealed  his incurable infection
His brain's on fire,  he's  got snakes in his head
If you fall for his treachery you're gonna wind up dead
It's not just the young women who are his only prey
It's the relatives and friends that deal with the tragedy
How does society deal with such a deranged psychopath
And the carnage created by his insatiable bloodbath
The death sentence was created precisely for such monsters
This is a matter that should be taken up with Congress
I won't apologize not even a little bit
The Ted Bundy's of this world are psychological ****.

Although it was early in our courtship
I thought You and I had a lasting relationship
We hit it off like  celebrities at an Oscar presentation
I was totally enamored, there was no hesitation
Only to discover I was just one of your boy toys
More to the point, just another one  of your donor boys
I'm just an ornament you hang on your Christmas tree
I just wasn't good enough to complement your pedigree
I'm just another amulet hanging from your neck
Good God woman you're nothing but a train wreck
Now I see you for who you really are
You squeezed my grunions in a vise and put them in a jar
Only to discover I was part of an  array
You put on the shelf as an elaborate display
I wasn't even  good enough for a seat in the front row
I guess our relationship  was nothing but a freak show
I was nothing but an ornament to satisfy your  ego
While I still have some semblance of pride I think it's time to go.

I was skating backwards at  the speed of light
My life at that point was not a pretty sight
I was wandering aimlessly on the highway of life
My heart felt like it  had been sewn together with a knife
Having nothing but the best of intentions
I stopped at the kiosk to ask for directions
She told me she had the remedy to cure my infection
At that point she definitely had my attention
Just as I was staring down the abyss of nothingness
There she was this angel in white clothed in all her holiness
Somehow she has managed to penetrate my psyche
Or Perhaps I'm just a  victim of her overwhelming beauty
She shelters me in the fullness  of her open wings
How could I not become a prisoner of  such blessings?
She captured my heart and now I am a hostage
I feel like I've been given a fatal dosage.
Could it be I've fallen, I've only met her once
I'll just shine it on, I need to keep my distance
Even so I feel a spiritual connection
Or am I just a sad  victim of inferior perception.

I once  met me a woman, she put me in my place
She said I was a chauvinist, an absolute disgrace
I'm one hundred percent male, I readily  admit
But just because it's true you shouldn't throw a fit
She reached into her purse, pulled out a can of mace
She put her finger on the trigger and shoved it in my face
My reflexes got the best of her, her aim was high and wide
She scared the hell right out of me to that I will confide
I love the female intellect to that I won't deny
I love the female form in every shape and size
If that makes me a pervert I'll wear the badge with pride
We'll leave it to the jury, it's their case to decide
You see  them all around you, there's wackos everywhere
The madness on the street is way beyond compare
The inmates run the asylum, I'm really not amused
Must be the golden age of the utterly confused.

We were walking a slippery *****, we threw caution to the  wind
We thought nothing regarding the repercussions of our sins
We got caught in the rip current and lost sight of the  shore
Our lives were set adrift, not knowing  what's in store
The storm clouds were gathering but we didn't heed the signs
Of the approaching hurricane  that was about to change our lives
We tried to fight the tide but to no avail
Now our lives are nothing but a living hell
We were wandering aimlessly on the highway of life
Neither would admit it we were both so full of pride
We were riding on empty with no station in sight
We tried to change directions but couldn't get it right
Searching desperately we both ran out of gas
At that point we were in dire need of a moral compass
As time went by we seemed to drift apart
Wish I could go back and make another start.

I came home early one night,  it was totally unplanned
When sitting on my sofa was another man
He was her former boyfriend, he wanted to say Hi
His claim was disingenous  I knew it was a lie
I showed him the door I didn't say goodbye
At that point it could have been justifiable homicide
He's nothing but a ***** bird looking for a nest
If I had my way I'd squash him like a pest
You took my wealth, You took my child
I took it in the *** and you expect me to smile
Have you no integrity, have you any shame?
Somehow this thing got turned around' now I'm the one to blame.

You decided to checkout, it was by your very hand
Why you took the plunge I'll never understand
I wish I had the words, I wish I had known what to say
That would have saved you on that fateful day
I could feel your hurt, I know you were in pain
My efforts to save you were totally in vain
The relationship we had was more than just a fling
Perhaps with time my heart won't feel this sting
You were my life,  you were my everything
Now  I just sit by a phone that never rings.

I once saw an angel fluttering in the breeze
She looked so majestic, so wild and free
I crept upon her ever so slowly
She looked so pure, she looked so holy
But the closer I got the more I could tell
She was  depressed,  she wasn't quite well
She flew too high, got too close to the sun
She burned her wings, she came undone
She lost her bearings and fell to the earth
It was such a pity, I could tell she was hurt
I took her in and nursed her to health
I gave her my love, I gave her my wealth
I loved her so dearly, I held her so tight
Only to discover she had regained her flight
My days are lonely, I feel so alone
Oh how I wish my angel would come home
She haunts my dreams , I'm filled with confusion
Now my life is just an illusion
A lesson to learn, a word to the wise
When your angel departs,  your spirit dies.

Whenever I hear smooth jazz I think of you
You bring me up when I'm feeling blue
Your tanned body is just so silky  smooth
One touch from you is like the fountain of youth
Your strut is like clockwork, you never miss a beat
I stare in amazement,  you put me in heat
Whenever you leave me  I feel so incomplete
I'm not proud, I willingly  concede defeat
As you come closer and  whisper in my ear
I reach around and release the clasp of your brassiere
As I lay in a state of total surrender
Your touch is magic,  I could stay here forever
I need your love so badly.  I ache for your caress
I truly am a lucky man, I truly have been blessed

She was a very pretty girl, she had so many friends
Life was one big party, the fun it never ends
She had so many suitors, they all had played their parts
She played it fast and loose, a string of broken hearts    
If life was so much fun, why was she so alone
She was tired of being fake, her heart had turned to stone
She wanted someone genuine, she was ready to atone
He came into her life as if upon a cyclone
He came in out of nowhere, he blew in with the wind
She thought he was the one that could take away her sin
He was cool beyond degree, he had a silver tongue
She fell for every line, her heart had come undone
He played her like a harp, he fondled every string
She was totally in love, she was ready for the ring
But life can be capricious, it's fraught with irony
He left her at the alter, he was nothing but a phony
In a  subtle twist of fate  he had given her the boot
She now experienced life on the other foot
A lesson to be learned, something that you should know
The paradox of  life:  You reap just what you sow.

Let me tell you bout last July, was on the seventh day
A little blast of sunshine sorta came my way
She was an alluring angel of the highest degree
You should have seen the way that she was smiling at me
I tried my  best to resist her and the story in her eyes
I couldn't help falling, she had me hypnotized
If I succumb to the seductions of her tempting charms
Would I fall from grace, would it cause me harm
Do I dare tell her how I feel and make a fool of myself
If I don't tell her I'll be stuck here on my shelf
Deep in my heart I know it's just a season
Have I lost my way, have I lost my reason
I'm sure the people I know would label it as treason
My mind says no but my heart refuses to listen
Which one should I trust, It's time for a decision
I must follow my heart, I've always been a dreamer
At the risk of putting my heart and soul in mortal danger.

I awoke one morning to the sound of her voice
She was a sailor's dream, a woman of poise
She was a girl I knew when I was eighteen
If you've ever been in love you'll know exactly what I mean
She was the most voluptuous woman that  I've ever seen
Man did she look good in a pair of blue jeans
I was her man and she was my queen
We were totally in love, there was no in between
Life got hard and we drifted apart
Even though we split she's always in my heart
It's been years now but the tears still fall like rain
Somehow I  Wish I could let go of this pain
Life's not always what it seems
Sometimes life is better living in a dream.

This poem is dedicated to my four legged friend
Ever so faithful and ready to defend
We went to the pound and came to his rescue
He was ever so grateful, so loyal and true
When cancer came a calling my heart was filled with fear
He was always there to kiss away my tears
It broke my heart  to see him in decline
He was one helluva dog when he was in his prime
It was obvious that he was deep in pain
Our  efforts to save him were totally in vain
We went to the vet for  his point of view
He said euthanasia was the  thing to do
I cried like a baby, I was cut to the quick
I was mourning the loss of my loyal sidekick
I pray to god that there's a dog heaven
When we meet again I hope all is forgiven.

DNA, exploding in rapturous sin
It's the place where we all must begin
It determines  our next of kin
It helps explain the shape were in
We really have nothing to say
About who's involved in this grandiose play
We are all victims of fate
When  two people decide to replicate
We all must eat what's on our plate
It's beyond our control, there is no debate
It all comes down to a  roll of the dice
Sometimes it's sevens, sometimes its snake eyes
The results vary in every shape and size
It can be a curse or a blessing in disguise
The fortunate felines that have it made
The not so fortunate who would gladly trade
One thing about physical beauty, it's bound to fade
It's the inner beauty that's here to stay.

I pleaded with god to remove my cancer
I strained my ears but I got no answer
As the sands of time slowly ticked away
I knew the cancer was here to stay
I lived my life like there was no tomorrow
All it got me was pain and sorrow
"Your condition is high risk" the doctor said
"We should start chemo and move ahead"
Although it was totally against my will
I plugged my nose and swallowed this poison pill
As the life force slowly drained from my body
Depression set in like a thick fog  envelops a city
My body, mind and soul were down for the count
At that point I was ready to check out
As I held the gun in my trembling hand
It felt as if my entire being was mired in quicksand
At this point I heard this clear small voice
"This action is totally your choice,
Suicide is considered a mortal sin
You'll  just have to come back and do it all again!"
I often look back and think about that day
The day I almost gave my life away.

I tried so many times to tell you how I feel
The love I have for you is one  I can't conceal
Every time I try to tell you I fall flat on my face
Anytime I'm near you I'm just a hopeless case
I'm in so deep, I'm afraid of tipping my hand
If I told you how I feel you wouldn't understand
Our friendship is much more than I ever planned
I know you think of me as just another stagehand
Wish I had the cajones to climb off this old fence
But until then I'll just have to be content
To be a small part of you.

I once met me a woman, she was wise beyond her years
She told me "If your heart is breaking don't try to hide the tears"
She also told me" You'd have to be a fool
To think you can  be calm and always play it cool"
She said "Tears are the silent language of grief
And to let them flow if I wanted  relief
Tears are the soul's relief valve for grief and sadness
If left unchecked the result is utter madness"
She told she could tell by the lines on my face
That my heart and soul weren't in a joyful place
And that tears were a sign of authenticity
And to stop being a pathetic human casualty
I was totally in shock, she read me like a book
It was as if she had access to my personal scrapbook
She told me for my problem she had the right vaccine
She put her arms around me and whispered"Let the healing begin."

I remember the time we laid in the grass
when I reached up to grab my glass
Brewed with special herbs and hops
It makes you want to never stop
I am aroused with a goose
"Ha" my friend replied,  " You better keep loose!"
I gaze into my world of dream
And then I hear the dreadful scream
And it shall haunt me forever more
The day she died on the shore
Holding hands in the sun
Together united into one
But those are just memories.

In my dreams you rescue me
In my dreams we're wild and free
In my dreams our life is free and easy
In my dreams you're still in love with me
Every single breath that I took was yours
Why can't things be like they were before
In restless sleep I wake up with the dawn
I reach out to hold you, to find that you are gone
Will my sadness ever end,  I swear you're in my room
I still smell the remnants of your sweet perfume
I'm haunted by the love that  we used to know
For the life of me I thought you'd never go
You were my life, you were my very soul
Where my heart held sway is now a big  black hole.

I'm sorry that the payments have been running late
I'm sorry that we had to go our separate ways
You ended up acquiring  the entire estate
Even so deep down I wish  you no ill fate
Father's Day has come and gone
It's  just another day,  I must be moving on
I didn't get a phone call, I didn't get a card
I guess I really shouldn't take it so hard
Especially since you poisoned the well
After we said our fond farewells
Do the kids still remember me
Or have you convinced them that  I'm absolutely crazy
You broke all your wedding vows
I got evicted from the house
I will admit I was never perfect
I didn't get on my knees and genuflect
I did however treat you with respect
Which I guess is something I shouldn't expect
I'll never understand how you went from hot to cold
When you decided to break up our household.

Sometimes we would walk together in the park
We would lose track of time and stay out after dark
It seems  you never really appreciate someone til they're gone
My soul's been rocked,  I swear I can't go on
I used to think you were my anchor, You held me down
Truth is you were my anchor, you kept me on course, kept me from going aground
Spring has sprung,   the flowers are in bloom
I feel your presence, I smell your sweet perfume
Your smile was infectious, it would light up a room
I need your smile now to chase away the gloom
Ever since you've left my world's a  shade of blue
I wander through life without the slightest clue
My life has no meaning since you said we were through
Please come back darling,  I miss you.

I woke  up to a stirring just before the dawn
I searched in every corner  to find that  you were gone
I journeyed to the sea but couldn't find a trace
No matter what I did I couldn't forget your face
You didn't say goodbye, you didn't even wave
Ever since you left my heart's become a grave
Was it something  I did or something that I said
It must have been egregious for you to leave our bed
I need you so badly like the earth yearns for the sun
Since you've gone astray my life's is just a rerun
So if you ever think about starting once again
I'll be waiting with open arms, there's no need to explain.

Hey brother,  I  bet you thought I died
You didn't come to see me, you never even tried
Hey brother, I thought you were my friend
So many different times, I thought it was the end
The demons were gathering, they had me in their sight
My guardian angel whispered "Don't give up the fight."
I'd love to tell you life has been good
Truth is my soul's been pummeled, just like driftwood
To be absolutely clear, I harbor you no grudge
No hard feelings, I cannot  be your judge
As a result of this experience I've learned about compassion
I'll always be your friend in any situation.

She checked out way too early, it was a very untimely fate
She was planning to be married, she couldn't  hardly wait
She was very much in love, they'd already set the date
She waited for him all this time, she finally found her soulmate
But cancer has a way of altering your plans
The monster was aggressive, she never had a chance
She never had a honeymoon, she never got to dance
She never cut the cake, she was a victim of circumstance
She was the light of his life, he thought her love could save him
She was the reason for his reason, now he's just a victim
Of the serpent  they call cancer and its very deadly venom
Why she left so early is very hard to fathom
He can't go on without her, he feels like he could die
His life is total chaos, he hangs his head and cries.

It was a hot day in August, that day I wont  forget
That was the day her and I met
My buddies and I were headed to the dance
We were hoping for just a little romance
I was just a teen so painfully shy
She asked me to dance, I thought I would die
My friends were stunned, all green with envy
This beautiful girl wanted to dance with me
She held my hand and led me to the dance floor
I had no idea what I was in for
We did the tango, we danced to the twist
Little did I know what would become of this
A slow dance ensued, she held me so tight
I cannot explain,  it felt so right
It was spontaneous, totally unplanned
Our lips came together, I felt like a man
I was lighter than air,  the moment was magic
I was in paradise, it felt so dynamic  
The dance floor was crowded I cannot deny
At that moment in time, it was just her and I
Years have gone by and to this very day
When I think of that kiss,  it takes my breath away.

I used to take for granted a pretty woman by my side
It  made me feel so good to that I will confide
I wish I could go back and savor every moment
It made me feel alive it made me feel so vibrant
I thought those days would last, I thought it was forever
Be thankful for the gifts you have through every kind of weather
I used to work out every day, my body was a rock
But gravity's relentless,  I  can't  rewind the clock.

Surround yourself with people who are genuine
The road of superficiality leads to utter ruin
You played the game,  you were a shooting star
Can you still play the games that got you this far
You acquired riches, you acquired fame
Everywhere you go people know your name
You compromised your standards, it was such a shame
The emptiness you feel , you have yourself to blame
You gained the world but  sold your soul
Your entire life is out of control
You're really not in charge, you don't pull the strings
You're not in control of anything
You're owned by the people who shaped your career
The power brokers, the backroom puppet masters
Seems now your life is  one big disaster
You ask yourself "Is this really what I was after"
You can't turn around, you're in way  too deep
You medicate yourself so you can fall sleep
You take uppers to get your body going
You're totally numb, you gotta make a showing
You're tired of the drugs, you're tired of the *****
They made you an offer you just couldn't  refuse
So many people wish that  they could be you
They would gladly trade, they would wear your shoes
They're really not informed, they haven't got a clue
Your life's one bid charade, if they only knew.

I remember the days of wine and honey
When love was more important than  money
But as the years passed by I got my wires crossed
I now have money but I feel a sense of loss
What happened to the boy who could see the magic in a day
Priorities change but there's a price to pay
Cynicism creeps in and corrodes  your very soul
If left unchecked it creates a ******* hole
It will take you down like a powerful undertow
And manifest itself by the seeds we sow
I would love so much to go back in time
When my health was robust and I was  in my prime
I didn't have money but I felt so alive
Now it takes all my money just to survive.

Welcome to the west side where honesty's not required
Where things that really matter really don't inspire
Where substance is irrelevant, we only deal with style
While we stab you in the back,  we serve you with a smile
Cause we treat you with disrespect, no need to get hostile
Don't take it personal, you'll get over it after awhile
Where integrity is as fleeting as the wind
Although we treat you with contempt, can't we still be friends?
Don't take it personal, it's our way of doing business
Deception is our mantra, in fact she's our holy mistress
I'll stay on the East side where talk is just not words
Where people are genuine and have higher standards.

She told me she was genuine, she told me she was real
She told me lies with immaculate skill
When I looked into her eyes I saw love and affection
She was very skilled in the art of deception
I was blinded by her headlights, I couldn't see the road
Next thing I knew I had lost my load
I lost control, my semi had jack knifed
I was just another truck stop on the highway of life.

I went to the doc to hear the good news
But the message I heard gave me the blues
He told me my body was totally infected
I felt so low, I felt disconnected
He told me the cure was a walk in the park
Then why has my soul turned from light into dark
This experience has become very painful
I prayed to God to send me an angel
They revealed themselves in a metaphysical dream
My soul's been set free,  my soul's been redeemed
I've truly been blessed I'm no longer blue
My prayers have been answered He's now sent me two.

At times life can be a complete mystery
You go through life with all this uncertainty
If you put your mind to it , it's easy to be free
Constantly blaming your self can be very unhealthy
Somehow you must allow yourself to let go of the pain
And jettison  the jetsam that contaminates  your brain
The past is the past but we must learn from it
And stop living your life with all that guilt
You must clear your mind of all the chatter
And focus your mind on the things that really matter
In a world that offers so much choice
Look to the creator, it's time to rejoice!

Nicole was a beauty, I thought she was a player
To win her affections I didn't have a prayer
She was poetry in motion, she always had a flair
A woman of such breeding is rarified air
As I tripped  on my tongue and asked her for a date
I felt terribly awkward and inarticulate
She looked me in the eye and said "What took so long?"
My initial impression of her was totally wrong
As the days passed by and I got to know her
I discovered her inner beauty exceeded her outer
She was the love of my life, I still can hear her laughter
The sparkle in her eyes always brought me pleasure
Oh how I would love to go back in time
When life was easy and we were in our prime.

So deeply in pain, I was ready to let go
All the earth bound angels were praying for my soul
As my soul dispersed into the cosmic ether
I heard her voice, It was a  sweet soft whisper
It sounded like the wind "I came  here to deliver"
I was totally at her will, I was ready to surrender
She was my guardian angel "Your time is not yet through
You have people to reach, you have many things to do."
Oh how I wished my angel would have stayed
I would always be true, I would never stray
I wish that she'd come back, I cannot hide the tears
She gave me strength to live, she chased away my fears
She was real, she was absolutely genuine
Perhaps when this life's over we will meet again.

Take me to the place where happiness abounds
Where everything is light and no one wears a frown
They tell me in six months I won't be around
The cancer has come back, my body isn't sound
It's not so much that I,  am afraid to die
I'm tired of the pain, I'm  tired of the strife
If I have to go please just make it quick
I'm tired of the *******,  I'm tired of being sick
Give my regards to the people that I love
High upon this bridge, all I need's a shove.

Bridges burn, relationships fade
I'm sorry for the errors that  I've made
Do I dare follow through, I've tried hard to resist
I can no longer be fake, I have to be honest
How is it possible to live with someone for so many years
But yet be so alone, I've shed so many tears
I met another woman, she stoked the fire in my heart
Would it be absurd to make another start
She awakened feelings that had long since died
Whenever I am with her I feel like I'm alive
The moment that  I met her I was born again
If I follow my heart would it be a sin
I'm in so deep I feel like I could drown
Should I stay the course or should I turn around
My life was going nowhere at the speed of light
I was going through the motions, I'd given up the fight
I can no longer pretend, I've got to be real
I'm sorry I can't hide it, that's the way I feel.

He journeys to the north to catch sight of an angel
She came into his life, it was purely transcendental
Could it be the same that visits him in his dreams
Just when he catches sight of her, she disappears like a breeze
He feels her all around him, her scent is everywhere
He sees her in the clouds,  she vanishes in thin air
He sees her in a crowd, He tries in vain to catch her
He's grown weary of the chase, He's ready to surrender
He's exhausted  his resources, He's ready to go home
Once again he leaves, once again he's all  alone.

I was in a downward spiral circling the drain
My life was a constant battle with perpetual pain
The prognosis was not good, in fact it was grim
My world was upside down, the lights were growing dim
It felt as if my soul was mired in a bog
When there she was. a  beacon shining through the fog
She appeared to me in a lucid dream
And  helped me recover all my self esteem
She gave me one of the greatest blessings of all -HOPE
And gave me a reason to live and a formula to cope
How do you thank someone who has given you a gift so precious
She brought me into the light from the brink of darkness
She has absolutely no idea what she means to me
She is truly an angel and has set my spirit free.

Stayed in bed till 3 p.m.
I feel like this could be the very  end
I pull myself up off the floor
She  doesn't live here anymore
She's gone and found somebody new
My world has turned from grey to blue
I need to do better, I really should improve
My life is like a record stuck in an endless groove
My doctor tells me I could use a break
I'm Not sure how much more  I can take
Learning to feel, trying to heal
Searching for that which is ultimately real
Shadows are growing longer, it's almost time for bed
I sometimes think I'd  be better off dead
My mind's gone numb, I feel completely hollow
Guess I'll call it a day and crawl back in my burrow.

I saw a void in the clouds, it looked just like a halo
The golden corpuscular rays were putting on a light show
I watched for several hours, I watched it come and go
One would disappear then another one would follow
I searched inside my mind, there has to be a meaning
A clear small voice replied,  "The answer you are seeking
Is clear as day but oh so very fleeting
Just as the hole in the cloud has been filled
So it is with your heart, You shall be healed."

Woman oh woman, can't you hear me call
Woman oh woman, I think we're headed for a fall
When you stand beside me I see three shadows on the wall
Woman oh woman, please don't make me crawl
Could it be you found another, I think this is the end
Woman oh woman, I don't want to be just friends
Woman oh woman, you know I love you so
Woman oh woman, guess I'll have to let you go.
Perhaps with the passage of time I'll get over you
But right now  my heart is breaking in two.

You and me, were always meant to be
When I wake up in the morning you are all I see
My friends tell me I've lost it, they tell me that I've changed
They say that I'm afflicted, they tell me I'm deranged
You and I were different in oh so many ways
But when I saw you smile, I couldn't stay away
My life was going nowhere at the speed of light
I tried hard to resist you, I tried with all my might
Before the day I met you I had nothing left to gain
But when you flashed that smile you melted all the pain
The life I knew is over, I never will go back
That fateful day I met you, You put my life on track
My heart had turned to stone, you turned it into jello
The day Cupid plucked his bow and pierced me with his arrow.

I was strolling down the avenue, she caught me unaware
She appeared out of the mist, she blossomed out of nowhere
She placed her hands upon me, I was totally off guard
One hand upon my back the other on my heart
Rhythmically, slowly she massaged me into a trance
My soul was ravenous, it  was hungry for the dance
An angel half my age, I didn't know her name
She took my breath away, I'll never be the same
I've been physically seduced, but  this was very different
She brought peace to my heart and spiritual contentment
She said my heart was pure, she was here to ease my burden
"Don't come looking for me she said, just keep yourself in tune
This experience was so much more than physical
She doesn't hail from earth, It's nothing short of magical
The experience was mystical, itwas better than narcotics
It was exhilarating, spiritually *******.

And she beckons me to follow down this wasteland avenue
She knows I can't resist her, I always never do
She's all I ever wanted, She's got me her in her grasp
She questions my commitment, as if she had to ask
She lures me with a smile, she' got me in her spell
I love this girl so deeply,  I' d follow her to hell
I've lost my friends and family, she's all that I have left
She stole my heart she stole my soul,  she's guilty of the theft  
She's my lover she's my mistress,  I just can't stay away
Give me just another shot to take away the pain
Her name is Crystal ****, she's got me by the *****
I just can't get away, I'm headed for a fall.