I remember the time we laid in the grass
when I reached up to grab my glass
Brewed with special herbs and hops
It makes you want to never stop
I am aroused with a goose
"Ha" my friend replied,  " You better keep loose!"
I gaze into my world of dream
And then I hear the dreadful scream
And it shall haunt me forever more
The day she died on the shore
Holding hands in the sun
Together united into one
But those are just memories.

I once had a lover, we'll call her Louise
Very attractive but  so hard to please
She was a red haired beauty with emerald eyes
I fell head over heels I cannot deny
She told me she loved me but that was a crock
When a  new beau came a strutting she took the walk
She told me our love would last  forever
She told me a lie, she thought she was clever
My heart was in pieces, all tattered and torn
At that point I wished I'd never been born
Years  passed by when out of the blue
She called , for what reason I hadn't a clue
My heart had healed but still had a scar
She thought she could play me - like a guitar
We arranged for a place that we both could meet
The next time I saw her my heart skipped a beat
By this time she had gone through so many men
She wanted to start all over again
The candle still flickered, my heart screamed out yes
She was quite a temptation to that I  confess
But my head intervened, I wasn't taking this pill
Too many times I'd been through this drill
Although I desperately  wanted to comply
The game was over, it was her turn to cry.

I once saw an angel fluttering in the breeze
She looked so majestic, so wild and free
I crept upon her ever so slowly
She looked so pure, she looked so holy
But the closer I got the more I could tell
She was  depressed,  she wasn't quite well
She flew too high, got too close to the sun
She burned her wings, she came undone
She lost her bearings and fell to the earth
It was such a pity, I could tell she was hurt
I took her in and nursed her to health
I gave her my love, I gave her my wealth
I loved her so dearly, I held her so tight
Only to discover she had regained her flight
My days are lonely, I feel so alone
Oh how I wish my angel would come home
She haunts my dreams , I'm filled with confusion
Now my life is just an illusion
A lesson to learn, a word to the wise
When your angel departs,  your spirit dies.

I'm not sure what it was about that day
Perhaps the child in me wanted to play
Between the Rad and the Chemo I needed to pray
But I knew the pain wasn't going away
I walked to the counter to ask for advice
And there she was this angel in white
I couldn't believe such a beautiful sight
She told me "Don't worry you're going to be fine"
The chills ran rampant up and down my spine
She told me my life could use some direction
I knew I  was in dire need of correction
I long for the day to see her again
But deep in my heart I know it's a sin
She comes at night and visits my dreams
I need her so badly I just want to scream
A relationship would be purely platonic
For the issue I have they tell me is chronic
I'm sick and tired of all this frustration
The chemo resulted in chemical castration
I look to the day to see this reversed
But up until then my life is a curse.