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Jan 2014 · 543
too much
Vonshay Jan 2014
Too much love on my tongue.

I am speaking to you.

Too much thought on my lips.
I am thinking of you.

Too much lust in my eyes.
I am seeing your skin.

Too much wrath in my pride.
I am scattered inside.

Too much patience in my fingertips.
I am trying to reach forever too.
Jan 2014 · 416
Dear poetry
Vonshay Jan 2014
Dear poetry
I have abandon you, but tonight i write for you
not in away that i usually do because im happy & its hard to express too you
i usually write when im sad or out of place
but lately ive been away on a sweet escape
life is going great, im happy & im free
i promise to return too you soon poetry.
Jan 2014 · 617
highs & lows
Vonshay Jan 2014
When I'm at my lowest that's when I get so inspired to pick up a pen & write out my thoughts.

But soon as I'm happy again, all I can write about is all the things that makes me low & then I'm sad again.

I'm a prisoner of my own mind
Jan 2014 · 906
A message to the sun.
Vonshay Jan 2014
if only the sun decided to no longer play hide & seek
wake up from its misery & resume to the sky
wipe away the tears from every angels eyes

if only the sun decided to dance among the horizon
& not mingle in the darkness of hidden creek
where demons fight with no reason to breath or sleep

wake up sun, im starting to miss your light

The world revolving around you
My world revolving around you

i need you to light up today, shine my way
replace the darkness of every meaningless day
fade away but promise you will return'
into a world where we sin when we are first born.

your all i need to survive

clear the shadows & let the rainbows take over
silence the devil & listen to the angel on your shoulder.  

if only the sun decided
Jan 2014 · 939
drown
Vonshay Jan 2014
let that **** sink inside of you
drown in your own thoughts
& find yourself.
Jan 2014 · 1.8k
society is used to judging
Vonshay Jan 2014
sometimes i dont even know who the **** i am
so i don't blame you for judging me on the outside looking in.
Jan 2014 · 1.3k
I dont understand you.
Vonshay Jan 2014
You say you miss
Then you diss me
Then you kiss me

You say you love me
then you hate me

Then you **** me
Then its **** me

I dont understand you.
Jan 2014 · 2.3k
HAPPY
Vonshay Jan 2014
It only takes one person to make you happy and change your life:  YOU.
Your life will improve only when you take small chances, and the first and most difficult chance you can take is to be honest with yourself.
Stop focusing on how stressed you are and remember how blessed you are.  It could be so much worse.
It is not what happens to you, but how you respond to what happens to you.  Count your blessings while others are adding up their troubles.
Look for something positive about this moment.  Even if you have to look a little harder than usual, it still exists.

When you smile about the life you live, you end up living a life worth smiling about.
Remember, social comparison is the thief of happiness.  
You could spend a lifetime worrying about what others have, but it wouldn’t get you anything.
Happiness comes more easily when you feel good about yourself without feeling the need for anyone else’s approval.
Be nice to people on your way up because you might meet them again on your way back down.
Set an example.
Treat everyone with kindness and respect, even those who are rude to you – not because they are nice, but because you are.  
Kindness is not to be mistaken for weakness, nor forgiveness for acceptance.
It’s about knowing resentment of any kind is not on the path to happiness.
Give as much as you can, but don’t allow yourself to be used.
Listen to others closely, but don’t lose your own voice.
Say what you need to say.  
Speak your truth.
There is no greater sadness than holding on to the words you never had the courage to speak.
You can’t change how people treat you or what they say about you.
All you can do is change how you react and who you choose to be around.

Negative company will never give you a positive life.
Examine what you tolerate in the long-term.
What you allow is what will continue.
It’s always better to spend more time alone than allow negative people and their opinions to derail you from your destiny.
When other people treat you poorly, walk away, smile and keep being YOU.  Don’t ever let someone else’s bitterness change the person you are.
Your value doesn’t decrease based on someone’s inability to see your worth.  It’s their loss, not yours.
One of the most freeing things we learn in life is that we don’t have to like everyone, everyone doesn’t have to like us, and that’s OK.
When someone says, “You’ve changed,” it’s not always a bad thing.
Sometimes it just means you stopped living your life their way.
Never be ashamed of how you feel.  You have the right to feel any emotion that comes to you, and to follow a path that makes you happy.
The unhappiest people in this world are the people who care the most about what everyone else thinks.
You can’t base your idea of success and happiness on other people’s opinions and expectations.  
Happiness and success is all about spending your life in your own way.
Be yourself.  
No one can ever tell you you’re doing it wrong.
It’s always better to be at the bottom of the ladder you want to climb than the top of the one you don’t.
Work to create a life that feels right to YOU, not one that looks right to everyone else.
No amount of money will make you happy if you aren’t happy with yourself.
Maybe the thing you’re scared of is exactly what you should do.
Sometimes life is about risking it all for a dream no one can see but you.
You can’t always wait for the perfect moment.  
Sometimes you must dare to do it because life is too short to regret and wonder what could have been.
The most reliable way to predict the future is to create it.  
Participate in life instead of just watching it pass you by.
Nothing’s more fun than doing what people say you can’t do.
Almost anything is possible if you’ve got enough time and enough nerve.
Great challenges make life interesting; overcoming them makes life meaningful.
  It’s how you deal with failure that determines your happiness and success.
Let your mistakes be your motivation, not your excuses.
  Decide right now that negative experiences from your past won’t predict your future.
What is coming is better than what is gone.
Don’t give up hope.
Good things often happen when you least expect it.
If you take another step, and another, you will be surprised to know how far you can go from the point you thought was the end.
Nothing is more beautiful and powerful than a smile that has struggled through the tears.
Any fool can be happy when times are good.  It takes a strong soul with real heart to develop smiles out of situations that make us weep.
No matter how long it takes, it will get better.
  Tough situations build strong people in the end.
As we grow older and wiser, we begin to realize what we need and what we need to leave behind.  Sometimes walking away is a step forward.
At the end of the day, you can either focus on what’s tearing you apart, or what’s holding you together.
One of the most rewarding moments in life is when you finally find the courage to let go of what you can’t change.
Whatever you do, don’t get stuck on the one thing that ruins your day.
Smile and be grateful.
Life is too short to waste on negativity.
The less you expect, the more pleasant life gets.
Patience can be bitter, but the seeds you plant now will bear sweet fruit.
Live simply.  Love generously.  Speak truthfully.  Breathe deeply.  Do your best.
Leave everything else to the powers above you.
Do not dwell so much on creating your perfect life that you forget to live.
The trick is to enjoy your life today.
Don’t wish it away by waiting for better days ahead.
Pay attention to the little things, because when you really miss “the good old days,” you miss the little things the most, like just laughing with someone special.
Go for long walks.  Indulge in great conversations.
Pay attention to the moment.  
Count your blessings.
  Let go for a little while and just be and breathe.

BE HAPPY
Jan 2014 · 455
be my poem
Vonshay Jan 2014
i wanted you to be my poem
your body the notebook
my tongues is the pen
that will ***** all my feeling on you
my lips will engrave my words into your soul
& my heart will entwined with yours

i wanted you to be my poem

tell me that you need me,
and that you never want
me to leave.

be my poem

write your deepest darkest secrets on my body
& i promise to never wipe them away

be my poem
i wont judge you or criticize your writing
even if the poem you decide to be is not the one i was looking forward to reading

be my poem
Jan 2014 · 786
lustful pain (3 words)
Vonshay Jan 2014
he(art)aches of **joy
Nothing is more beautiful and powerful than a heart that has struggled through tears.
Jan 2014 · 333
lord knows
Vonshay Jan 2014
Lord knows i'm beautiful,
Lord knows i'm trying to make it
Just a young'n with a dream
      trying to chase.
Jan 2014 · 430
Sometimes
Vonshay Jan 2014
Sometimes I feel like its never enough
I work so hard & now I cant give up
My mind tells me one thing but my heart says another
Stuck in between  a rock & the struggle

Say you have to know struggle in order to know pain
Say success brings money but the word can use change

All alone  in a negative society
Say we need to work,  but why nobody hire me?
Say there no such thing as perfect but in the mirror I see perfect
Say it will all eventually pay off, so when is eventually?

forever  really don’t  exist, & when the time come will I exist?
They say the want to help, but who are they?
The government steal from us in this so call “taxes” we pay

One day I'm happy & feel success
Some days  im  sad & feel regret

this world is a mess.
Jan 2014 · 708
Wonder
Vonshay Jan 2014
You body is a  temple
mind is a lathe weapon
DONT a soul in this world understand the damages we're facing.
As much as you think, there is nothing free
not even the roads we walk understand why we bleed.

we taking, cause nobody giving'
we steal, cause nobody got
we cheat, cause nobody faithful

i think its safe to say we livin in a world full of hate
hateful people, hateful souls
and nobody understands into we're gone
gone to a place where we no longer stress
wonder how we will survive tomorrow
wonder how we will make it to see another day
wonder how we will make it too see another year

if there is a heaven, then hell must be here.
Jan 2014 · 483
VCR
Vonshay Jan 2014
VCR
push me up against the projector
& let the motion picture of US start playing
touch me, like your lost in the dark & my body gave you guidance
play in me as if i was a broken tape & you sworn i could be fixed
don't worry if you get breathless you can press pause
& resume when the time  is  right.
fill my holes in with tops that couldn't be unscrews  
so the memorizes of US can live within.



i need you to miss me , so we can rewind
i need your energy to keep me going
i need you to be the director
i need you too be my VCR
Jan 2014 · 447
Skin Art
Vonshay Jan 2014
I left a poem in your mouth
a novel on your skin
an  album in your heart

creativity vomiting on ever inch of your body
You was the canvas & i was the art.
you was the light & i was the dark.
Jan 2014 · 421
soul space
Vonshay Jan 2014
Here I am alone in this crowed  bar,
Yes I said alone.  
Just me and my thoughts.
I guess i just like being by myself but sometimes it good to feel the comfort of somebody else.
I don't know what I want but sometimes I feel like I do, I just need the the strength of God to get me though.
They always say your smile is your biggest weapons and with all the complements I get ,I can tell mine's was deadly.
Deep inside I am on a trip,  nothing like acid, I'm on a trip and it's everlasting.  
I find myself trying to find something that was never lost in the first place, it's feels like my brain and my heart is In a race, so I stay to myself in order to give my soul space.
Jan 2014 · 617
Wild river
Vonshay Jan 2014
Healing from the pain
That flowing like  toxic in my veins
Nothing is the sane
My river is polluted
Once I had everything
like a dream
Now I have nothing but lonely night
Visions of those night terrors in sight
I talk to God, his actions talk back to me
We living in hell,  to get into heaven ain't free
Jesus die For my sins then why do I feel sinful
I'm sorry if I've done wrong but I feel as I've been doing the best I can
Voices echo"  I know I know I can do better"
Its just a cold world & I'm not used to this weather.
My river is lonely , no one comes to visit me
My heart bleeds of emptiness and lack of love
I mistake it for lust, feeling like a Angel lost in the dust.

Wild river wild river you remind me to never change. ....wild river wild river,  you will never be the same.
Jan 2014 · 520
1:13
Vonshay Jan 2014
Thoughts in my head
Thanking God for today's daily bread
I scroll down my phone
To cross a message from you
It's 1:13
& your texting me hey boo
I must have crossed your mind
Or maybe you ex decided she will no longer hit you up
So you look at me to feel her touch
But I'm smart enough not to reply
I want nothing to do with you & I know you wonder  why.
Unfortunately it's 1:13 & to late to explain
& i refuse to be another essential to your temporary pain.
Jan 2014 · 389
Blue skies
Vonshay Jan 2014
The sky is beautiful especially when is blue, sometimes when its melancholy too.
Every time I look up at the sky I get this vision, vision of Angels dancing on the cloud like it was a celebration.
Visions of God coming down to grab the ones he thought was special and take them back into a better place because the world is not a place for an angel.
Jan 2014 · 1.2k
Touch me
Vonshay Jan 2014
Touch me deeper then a needle, that digs in your skin, when you decided to ink your soul
touch me deeper the the pastors word on a Sunday.  
touch me deeper then the titanic after it sunk,  touch me deep
Touch me deeper then the lost lives on 91l
Touch me deeper then a sink hole
Touch Me deeper then a paper cut
Stare into by soul as If it was a motion picture
& touch me deep

Touch me deep like a threat,  like your afraid of what might happen next. .. touch me deep
Deep inside to where I feel my body intertwining with yours.. touch me deep, pure & true.
Touch Me deep like yellow submarine,  like a navy seal perfect dream. ...touch me deep.
In trying to feel your touch run deep like a Chevy,  don't trip, just fall for me heavy

              Is This love or Is it lust. ..... trust me ...touch me
Jan 2014 · 1.5k
Death of the rose petals
Vonshay Jan 2014
I find its amazing how something so small could create something twice as beautiful as the sunset on a summer day.  
Something so meaningful as the declaration of independence,  something so powerful,  that the moment you see them, you secretly shed a tear & thank God for creating life itself.

The day I received those two beautiful red roses,  I thought about Nikki Giovanni "still I rise"
As I stand there eye to eye with the roses,  I felt growth,  progression & happiness manifesting.

That was the day   you whisper in my ear" I love you"
I was so lost in the moment.

Days went by & I realized i
I forgot to put the roses in water.

And just like we needed love, so did the red roses.
I tried to repair it's images to the plant I once seen as beautiful.

Day my day we haven't talk & the roses lost life.
Just like you disappeared, so did the petals .
The only thing that reminds was a steam with root.

I see you to be my red rose
The roots symbolized growth
The steam was the foundation
& what was missing was the petals that brought everything to life.

So on that day our  love died, part was still alive,  not in such good condition. .but it was still with me.

I drained the water, trashed the stream & collected the roses peddles that was no longer red.
They were darker then a funeral attire.
Just part of me felt if I buried you deep down that maybe the thought of you will dye and reincarnated into something else beautiful & find your way back to me in a new disguise.

Then I realized this was a lesson,  reincarnated into a blessing.
R.I.P to the red rose and long live your memories , I'll never forget you or the feelings you once give to me.
Jan 2014 · 617
She reminded me of you.
Vonshay Jan 2014
She reminded me of you but she wasn't you.
She talked, but not the way you talked
She smiled but not the way you smiled
She laughed but not the way you laughed
She walked but not the way you walked
She cared but not the way you cared
She understood but not they way you understood me.

Your smile brighten up my whole day, hers didn't.
Your voice give my souls chills, hers didn't.
Your beauty radiated joy and happiness...hers didn't.
Your laugh made me want to capture each moment on camera and replay them whenever I started to miss you, hers didn't.  

Your cared when I was up & even when I was down.....she didn't.
You understood me in a way others never did,  I know when I talk, you will listen & at least pretend to get where I'm coming from even when you didn't.....but she didn't.

You made me realize that everything has meaning and reason & that the reason she reminded me of you..cause you did things she will never do & by she I mean my past, You made me realize not everything last but it's okay because there will always be something better in store for me,  it'd just takes some bad in order to get to the good.

I guess she didn't really remind me of you.
Jan 2014 · 381
She reminded me of you.
Vonshay Jan 2014
She reminded me of you but she wasn't you.
She talked, but not the way you talked
She smiled but not the way you smiled
She laughed but not the way you laughed
She walked but not the way you walked
She cared but not the way you cared
She understood but not they way you understood me.

Your smile brighten up my whole day, hers didn't.
Your voice give my souls chills, hers didn't.
Your beauty radiated joy and happiness...hers didn't.
Your laugh made me want to capture each moment on camera and replay them whenever I started to miss you, hers didn't.  

Your cared when I was up & even when I was down.....she didn't.
You understood me in a way others never did,  I know when I talk, you will listen & at least pretend to get where I'm coming from even when you didn't.....but she didn't.

You made me realize that everything has meaning and reason & that the reason she reminded me of you..cause you did things she will never do & by she I mean my past, You made me realize not everything last but it's okay because there will always be something better in store for me,  it'd just takes some bad in order to get to the good.

I guess she didn't really remind me of you.
Jan 2014 · 466
I need to learn
Vonshay Jan 2014
If only I learned how to kiss & not leave a bruise
hug and not crush your insides
**** and not make your heart bleed
say I love you & not leave
say forever & not mean tomorrow.
Jan 2014 · 470
DRAFT
Vonshay Jan 2014
I find myself forever sending you messages that never send cause I'm so afraid that I will be seen as annoying or just a ghost writer, so each thought I have about you, every cute message I creativity massed together just to make you smile, find its was into the daft,  where no one will ever read then , but god himself .

There's a angel on my shoulder, a voice in my head and a devil in my rear view
I will no longer hide what I have to say, I will just say it and not care of the after effect or consequences.

So you no longer have to wonder if I'm Thinking about you cause l'll be sure to let you know without even caring if I'm on your mind or not..

I'm unsure how to end this message because ever other one always end up in daft, cause I get so caught up that my thoughts cant come to conclusions to what it want to say.

So.....idk this wasn't  apart of my draft...
Jan 2014 · 539
If you only knew.
Vonshay Jan 2014
If you only knew your the person I write about in my poems. ....if you only knew
Your the one that cross my mind every time I pick up a pad and a pen, just the thought of you give me sooo much inspiration & you probably will never know.
You keep me up when I'm feeling down and whenever you come around I get so shy and nervous,  you have a effect on my like your a Angel and I'm afraid too lose you.
If you only knew how much comfort you give me,  I can feel our souls getting lost in each other like a outsider get lost in the city.
If you only knew how much you encourage me too keep going and to never give up on something I work doo hard too get. (Including you)
You know how they say after every storm, comes a rainbow?  Well you was always my rainbow that appeared after my dark storm. ..and these are thing you probably never know about because I keep it a secret because I'm afraid that I might not mean as much too you but who knows. 
 You will continue to be the light at the end of my tunnel. & if you only knew everyday time I write I think of you.
Jan 2014 · 3.9k
Tattoo
Vonshay Jan 2014
i wanted to get a tattoo....but instead i got you.

your permanently left a mark on me
you engraved yourself so deep in my heart that whenever  i crave you, my heart skips multiple beats just to replay the feeling you gave me when i deiced to tattoo you in my soul.
Jan 2014 · 941
I miss you
Vonshay Jan 2014
I miss you like a homeless person miss food and shelter  
I miss you like a poet misses the ideal they once had but forgot to write it down
I miss you like a scab misses the skin that was once there not exposing its insides
I miss you like a new Yorker misses the last bus of the night
I miss you like a kid misses it stuff teddy bear
I miss you like a teenager's summer night
I miss you like a smokers last blunt before entering rehab
I miss you like hip hop miss tupac and biggie
I miss you like a old skool movie, I miss you like misery misses company
I miss You like flowers miss the sun in the winter time
I miss you like a ****** missed its virginity after losing too the person they thought they will spend forever with.

I miss you like the 90's.
I miss you like the phrase " I miss you"

I can't recall the last time I heard your voice, it's been awhile since you been gone, but I need you to know I miss you. & whenever I'm alone I think about you knowing I probably haven't even crossed your mind until now.

I was unsure how to tell you & not sound so cliche,  so I spent all day and night thinking of a way to express myself and make your heart smile at the same time.

I did it cause I cared and wish you was here
so you no longer have to read my poems, so you no longer have yo spend the night along. So you no longer have tho wipe your tears aways , so you no longer have to wake up without me or a smile on your fface.

I miss you more then I can explain , cause words don't mean a thing without action but your not here & the thought of you fills my  satisfaction.
Jan 2014 · 332
One soul to Another
Vonshay Jan 2014
From one soul to another
We speak, but from a distance
Say we want love
But then we resist it
So what do we really want?
Someone just for the moment?
Someone for the up’s?
Someone for the downs?
It seems like we had that before
But you barley was around.

I just want you to open up to me
Set your mind free
You where once something…
Special to me

Now when I see you
Its like we never knew each other
Open up your eyes
Do you see what I see?
Someone in the making of being better
Then the person they want to be

Open up your heart
Think with your mind
& listen with your brain
In then end you will realize, we’re all not the same
Just lost souls looking for change.

— The End —