Vonshay

Vonshay Jan 2014

She reminded me of you but she wasn't you.
She talked, but not the way you talked
She smiled but not the way you smiled
She laughed but not the way you laughed
She walked but not the way you walked
She cared but not the way you cared
She understood but not they way you understood me.

Your smile brighten up my whole day, hers didn't.
Your voice give my souls chills, hers didn't.
Your beauty radiated joy and happiness...hers didn't.
Your laugh made me want to capture each moment on camera and replay them whenever I started to miss you, hers didn't.

Your cared when I was up & even when I was down.....she didn't.
You understood me in a way others never did,  I know when I talk, you will listen & at least pretend to get where I'm coming from even when you didn't.....but she didn't.

You made me realize that everything has meaning and reason & that the reason she reminded me of you..cause you did things she will never do & by she I mean my past, You made me realize not everything last but it's okay because there will always be something better in store for me,  it'd just takes some bad in order to get to the good.

I guess she didn't really remind me of you.

Vonshay Jan 2014

She reminded me of you.

She reminded me of you but she wasn't you.
She talked, but not the way you talked
She smiled but not the way you smiled
She laughed but not the way you laughed
She walked but not the way you walked
She cared but not the way you cared
She understood but not they way you understood me.

Your smile brighten up my whole day, hers didn't.
Your voice give my souls chills, hers didn't.
Your beauty radiated joy and happiness...hers didn't.
Your laugh made me want to capture each moment on camera and replay them whenever I started to miss you, hers didn't.

Your cared when I was up & even when I was down.....she didn't.
You understood me in a way others never did,  I know when I talk, you will listen & at least pretend to get where I'm coming from even when you didn't.....but she didn't.

You made me realize that everything has meaning and reason & that the reason she reminded me of you..cause you did things she will never do & by she I mean my past, You made me realize not everything last but it's okay because there will always be something better in store for me,  it'd just takes some bad in order to get to the good.

I guess she didn't really remind me of you.

Vonshay Jan 2014

I need to learn

If only I learned how to kiss & not leave a bruise
hug and not crush your insides
**** and not make your heart bleed
say I love you & not leave
say forever & not mean tomorrow.

Vonshay Jan 2014

DRAFT

I find myself forever sending you messages that never send cause I'm so afraid that I will be seen as annoying or just a ghost writer, so each thought I have about you, every cute message I creativity massed together just to make you smile, find its was into the daft, where no one will ever read then , but god himself .

There's a angel on my shoulder, a voice in my head and a devil in my rear view
I will no longer hide what I have to say, I will just say it and not care of the after effect or consequences.

So you no longer have to wonder if I'm Thinking about you cause l'll be sure to let you know without even caring if I'm on your mind or not..

I'm unsure how to end this message because ever other one always end up in daft, cause I get so caught up that my thoughts cant come to conclusions to what it want to say.

So.....idk this wasn't apart of my draft...

Vonshay Jan 2014

If you only knew.

If you only knew your the person I write about in my poems. ....if you only knew
Your the one that cross my mind every time I pick up a pad and a pen, just the thought of you give me sooo much inspiration & you probably will never know.
You keep me up when I'm feeling down and whenever you come around I get so shy and nervous,  you have a effect on my like your a Angel and I'm afraid too lose you.
If you only knew how much comfort you give me,  I can feel our souls getting lost in each other like a outsider get lost in the city.
If you only knew how much you encourage me too keep going and to never give up on something I work doo hard too get. (Including you)
You know how they say after every storm, comes a rainbow?  Well you was always my rainbow that appeared after my dark storm. ..and these are thing you probably never know about because I keep it a secret because I'm afraid that I might not mean as much too you but who knows.
You will continue to be the light at the end of my tunnel. & if you only knew everyday time I write I think of you.

Vonshay Jan 2014

Tattoo

i wanted to get a tattoo....but instead i got you.

your permanently left a mark on me
you engraved yourself so deep in my heart that whenever i crave you, my heart skips multiple beats just to replay the feeling you gave me when i deiced to tattoo you in my soul.

Vonshay Jan 2014

I miss you

I miss you like a homeless person miss food and shelter
I miss you like a poet misses the ideal they once had but forgot to write it down
I miss you like a scab misses the skin that was once there not exposing its insides
I miss you like a new Yorker misses the last bus of the night
I miss you like a kid misses it stuff teddy bear
I miss you like a teenager's summer night
I miss you like a smokers last blunt before entering rehab
I miss you like hip hop miss tupac and biggie
I miss you like a old skool movie, I miss you like misery misses company
I miss You like flowers miss the sun in the winter time
I miss you like a ****** missed its virginity after losing too the person they thought they will spend forever with.

I miss you like the 90's.
I miss you like the phrase " I miss you"

I can't recall the last time I heard your voice, it's been awhile since you been gone, but I need you to know I miss you. & whenever I'm alone I think about you knowing I probably haven't even crossed your mind until now.

I was unsure how to tell you & not sound so cliche,  so I spent all day and night thinking of a way to express myself and make your heart smile at the same time.

I did it cause I cared and wish you was here
so you no longer have to read my poems, so you no longer have yo spend the night along. So you no longer have tho wipe your tears aways , so you no longer have to wake up without me or a smile on your fface.

I miss you more then I can explain , cause words don't mean a thing without action but your not here & the thought of you fills my  satisfaction.