the tears keep falling
sometimes i don't
even know why
i just keep on crying
i weep sometimes
and cry until i can't
sadness always hurts

you threw me
across the room
and yelled at me
immediately pain
was felt on my back
and sides of my waist
you picked me up
and threw me again
my head hit the gray wall
i put my hand to the back
of my head
after a few minutes
i withdrew my hand
it was covered in rich red blood
i had a sickening feeling
in my stomach
and i felt like throwing up
why do you have to be
so mean to me, Mom
especially when i love you
and you treat me terribly?
what did i do wrong?

you broke my wings
and stole my voice
you made me stiff
and ever so cold
the light in my
once happy eyes
has faded
and now my eyes
are hollow and dark
my skin is yellowed
by the teeth of time
feelings dark
and sickening
you were mean
to have left me, baby
now i have no one
and i'm left alone
with these sad
dark thoughts
darling, you
broke my wings

you left me
pushed me
out of your way
you left me
and me weep
i cried and cried
and you didn't
even care about it
you never came back
just to comfort me
and to tell me it's okay
just go away
i don't care either
even though
i secretly do care
just go away
and leave me alone
since that is what you want
i loved you
but you didn't love me back
it doesn't matter to you
but it matters to me
just go away please
goodbye, my love

i have been feeling depressed
these last few days
i don't know what to do
because i'm drowning in sorrow
my days of happiness are forever gone
i don't know what to do
the light has vanished
from my slanted eyes
i'm sinking further into depression
i can feel it nearly choking me
i have a sickening feeling
in the pit of my stomach
i am feeling so very depressed
these days and i can't take it no more
i'm literally trapped inside of depression
and i cannot find my way out again
help me someone help me please
i don't know what to do
i'm drowning in depression
and heartache
help me
or will this be
my final goodbye?

the smile
that i daily try
to plaster on my face
isn't genuine
it's done out of pain
i force myself
to appear to others
like everything's okay
even when it's not

to see you again
would be both
sad and happy
it would remind me
of what i couldn't have
i don't think
i'd even want
to see you again
it would be too painful
for me
and i know
i'd end up in tears
because right now
i'm crying
just thinking about it
no, i don't want
to see you again
ever