sometimes
all i want to do
is curl up
with a mug
of green tea
to just relax
and take it easy
if but for a few minutes
to cast all my
worries aside
just to have
a few minutes
of peace and
relaxation
just to have a quiet time
without depression
or a broken heart
how i long
just a few minutes
without stress
or emotional pain
just one time
please

sadness comes
tugging at my heart
dark thoughts
make me cry
as i remember you
just thinking about you
makes me sit up in bed
and weep until the tears
won't come anymore
broken cries and tired screams
well into the night
will no one understand the pain?
does no one even care?
dark thoughts
last well into the night
and i keep crying
weeping and wailing
out my intense pain

i have been
through so much
pressure in life
that i just
feel weak
and sick
and sad
i just feel
miserable
my body
tells me
to give up

when you left
you left me all alone
because every from
my real life
doesn't care
they never
understand
never offer support
i have no shoulder
to cry on
you were my only shoulder
but i had no reason
to cry when you
were here
it was only when you left
that i felt alone
betrayed
and depressed
goodbye, my love

i hurt so much
i could scream
and when my family
goes shopping
and leaves me here
all alone
i do scream
let out all my pain
i hurt secretly inside
everybody cares but you
and it's so painful
i wail and wail
i weep and lament for you
but then i remember
you don't care
and i scream
scream it out
scream out all my pain
it makes me feel better
but leaves me weak
and it's all thanks to you
because you left me
all alone
and no one understand
because it seems
no one cares
in my real life
or they don't want
to care
because they offer
no understanding
and so
i scream
scream it out
i yell until my lungs hurt
because i scream
i scream out all of my pain
while tears course down
my red cheeks
and fall to my jeans
the tears keep falling
from my slanted eyes
and sweat moistens
my black hair

you don't
care anyway
so what's
the point in living?
since you're not here
you wouldn't even know
or care to know
if i died
so what is the point
in even trying to live?

no one cares
that i hurt inside
no one seems to care
about the pain i hide
no ones ever cared
it would be much better
if i just died